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Thursday, September 9, 2010

wont be active in blogger anymore. visit my tumblr. (ask me for url) TOODLES! ;D

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Friday, September 3, 2010

hello wellos! ;) at last im able to go use the internet on lappy to blog! i dont know who was the one that hid the modem.. hmmm, how time flies! next friday dah rayeee! WEEEEE..... home's starting to go chaos wit mum busy doing kuih raye & dad cleaning the house or fixing stuffs. & you know what im supposed to do? tomorrow aft i get bck from physics & maths class, i've to help mum wit kuih raye.. & then cook for buke! goossshhhhhh! penat perh? sunday, i wanna wake upp late.. go for tuition. come home, help granny make kuih & cook for buke? heyyy..... that means cooking for buke will be my task till thurs right?? ohh noo! i have to think of studies some more.... urrrgghhh! T_T hectic! HECTIC! HECTIC! i dont wanna go to sch on monday & tuesday till 5pm... so tiringggg! ;(( i need my rest... i wanna be like the previous years whereby i can juz chillex & prepare for raye... awwww, miss those days! ;((

Labels: 2 days? its been only hours and i miss you alreadyy....

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Saturday, August 28, 2010

i hate the fact that things have changed now. how time flies, we've been together for 20 days. i hope it'll last longer than that. 20 weeks? 20 mths? 20 years? or till eternity? i love him very much. just too much, im becoming more & more obssesive & possessive each day. im not sure if this is healthy. but yeahh, this is how i feel. i hate the fact that i love him so freaking much. everything i do... i will alwaes think of him. i dont know bout him, but i juz want him so badlyy by my side. i hate him but i love him. he made me go crazzyy. like seriously crazyy, even sometimes... especially today, i cant focus on my work! its good but its badd. if you know what i mean. i know it is bad... but what can i do? he told me to not hate him but love him only. hows that possible? so i told him, if he could make me not think of him when im studying & i swear i would only love him. guess he couldnt? soooo.... wad can i do? i juz love him anywayy.

p/s : isit juz me being irritable today? or am i the one who is irritating? tell me. i dont know lah okay? feeling shitty right now.

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Thursday, August 26, 2010

heyy. idk why im posting when i dont have mch to talk about... but ironically, the one who said blogger is soooo last few years ago... was the one who asked me to post! wonder what that person wants in life huh? hahhah! ;P well, life's been super duper great... bcoz of somebody. but at the same point of time, there's other issues that makes me pressurized. seriously, im telling you.. i dont & i cant organize my time well & im sorry if what im doing currently... make you guys feel i've forgotten bout you people already. sometimes i admit, im so into my r/s till i dont spend alot of time wit you guys anymore. but i do caree okay. you guys have to tell me if you think im not fair or anythink. dont juz keep quiet. i wont know! unless during lessons i sit wit you guys & ask hows your lives. hahhah! so far... nisa, not so huh? thats why juz now you said like that right? anw, sorry huh. you should know why im like this... when i have home, O LEVELS, friends & a lovely boyfriend to think of. im not saying its such a burden though. dont get so paranoid huh? ;P

p/s : & plz, baby.. im not saying that you're drifting me away from my friends. its me. my choice. its not your fault. i want to to prove to you that im really serious this time & im sooooo gonna do juz anythink to make you believe me. hack care what my dad think of you!

Labels: its brighter than sunshine...

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Monday, August 23, 2010

its Monday & i hateee it! got back prelim papers - chem P1 & P3, combined humanities & maths. it SUCKS BIG TIME! what can i do?? im left with... like 8 weeks? 8 FREAKING WEEKS to the BIG O LEVELS!! & here i am... not doing anythink at all, not panicking! all this while... what have i been studying? mum sees me coming back late... went for night study... but my prelim results still shitty! i dont want my parents to look at my prelim results! i dont want to hear them nag! i hate people nagging! NOOOO..... is there still time for me? i feel so hopeless right now... i feel like giving upp, yeapp2... AT THE VERY LAST LAP of the race... im breaking down slowly... i see no point studying if i keep failing! i tried okayy! I TRIED! since march... to MYE... to prelim! still the sameee! URGGGHHHH!! why cant i be one of those smartasses? those who can absorb things very easily? my head feels like exploding any moment... im afraid. im soo afraid to look at my other prelim papers. i dont want to see the prediction results for O levels. i dont want to know that i might be landing myself in ITE. NOOOO..... i will never ever step my feets in an ITE! NEVER! even so, i would rather go SHATEC, NAFA or LASSELLE. or take private O's again? urghhh! i dont know! i juz dont want to go ITE! plz gawd! please help meeee! i need youu right now! plz guide me to right path... pleaaaassseeeee!

Labels: i thank youu for being there alwaes... i love you dearest.

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Sunday, August 22, 2010

Each and every day,
I try to make some sense of this
What YOU mean to me,
I know it could be serious
Each and every night,
I dream about just holding YOU
Wanting YOU like this,
what is a girl supposed to do?

I love YOU... I want YOU...
YOU're the one that I live for...
And I can't take it any more!
What can I do to make YOU see
YOU're the only one for me?
My heart only belongs to YOU...

Labels: baby you drive me crazzyyy....

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Friday, August 20, 2010

hello ;) at last its FRIDAYY! & prelim's dooneee! d&t too! but seriously, im not satisfied wit my work. actually i was... UNTIL.... she had to make comments! i was already rushing for time & there she was being fussy! we started work right away aft sci paper ard 9.45? imagine that time aaaaaallll the wayyy to 6pm! none stop worrrrkkk! by the end of the day i was alr too exhausted to staybck wit hym for art. THANKS! =.= however at bout 6.20pm i went down to meet hym also lahh. ;DD

is it normal for someone to be obsessed & possessive over somebody who they like or love very mch? even if it meant that, that someone wants to like control somebody's life just to make sure that somebody doesnt cheat on someone? but it seems impossible right, if that somebody is so truthful & sincere? so why in the first place... that someone has to feel that wayy? why? bcoz someone feel threaten or whatnot having to know that there's others that have feelings for somebody too isit? but isnt that somebody belonged to someone already? so why bother? why care bout others? all you've got to think bout is the two of you! ;))

Labels: ohh crappp...

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