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Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Why do people smile when no one's smiling?
It's coz their thinking of someone they're loving!
Keep on believing; we are meant to me and
Nothing's stopping you and me from going to heaven,
Sweetest love!!
I got the sweetest love;
There ain't nothing sweeter!
I got the sweetest love ain't nothing beat it..
There ain't nothing sweeter!
Now we're clever is about to inch just one ladder..
It gets better every second we're together!
Oooh baby it feels so right... =)
A new beginning starts tonight.....
The reason for when it's on;
Is because of you and me and
Sweetest love!!
Finally I can't believe!!!
Coz you and me,
you're my sweetest love.....
I got the sweetest love!
There ain't nothing sweeter...
There ain't nothing sweeter....
oh yeah...!
Now I got that feeling in my gut,
Now I need your fire in my life...
Now I wanna give you love so much!!
And I keep on feeling my sweet, my sweet;
Sweetest love! =))
I can't believe, you and me,
we gotta be
Oh my sweetest love..............
♥
Sunday, March 29, 2009
ahhhhhh. so much had happened! sweet lyk candies. bitter lyk panadols. im talking bout a topic particularly. humph. im happi for syazwani. ika. nisa. ros. naqie. may u all laz longg in ur relationships. =)) i love ya all loads lahh!! HEES. for the rest, find ur love. fight for ur rights. maybe now ure lonely. but remember in life; we all live alone. born alone. & die alone. frens & family is juz a temporary ting. especially frens. they can be wit you in any situation. but they too, hav their own probs to tink of! therefore; you cant fully depend on ur frens. they cant be wit you 24/7. you got to tink for urself. you may ask opinions. suggestions. solutions. but the decision lies in ur hands. in ur HEART. wad you realli wan. wad ur target is. you may not find ur love now. but it doesnt mean tat u WILL NEVER FIND one right? u will, but not now! later. when ur mr right is here. he will come & take you awae 2 the world of lala-land! hahah! ur love-lala land. the place tat you feel as if only you & ur mr right lives in. other isnt there. everytink's BLIND. uh-huh. i said BLIND. hahah. the past 1 year being single, it had my eyes wide open. how big the word LOVE is. it can do aload of things to you. may it be good or bad. looking at relationships around me. realli amazed me! the lust i had, made me realli tink tat if i need tat now. if i realli love hym or its juz an infatuation. made me feel afraid if i couldnt handle the relationship right. but ohh god; if this is realli my fate. wad else can i sae? ure the one tat plans everytink. & if i have to go back 2 square one, i hav to. i cant do anytink else; can i?? but wad if i refuse? wad if i declined? wad would happen? ohh, i wished i hav the answer to tat! ohh god; all i can do now is to pray to you. i need you guidance to all these im going thru. i leave it to you. i wont push my fate. i juz wanna be strong to go thru these all over again. =)
Labels: i love hym? but why did i do tat to hym last tme?
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im BACK! weeeeeee!!!! guess wad? i had a realli fun weekend this week!!! on fridae, after i went back from the sports heats tingy which was cancelled, -_-" i quickly washed upp & went to aunt's house wit bro. dad went to work. reached there & aunt ask to accompany her meet mum & my other aunty at WM...we lepak2, talk2 at burger king while waited 4 mum fnish her body massage. at bout 9pm, mum met us at This Fashion. window shopped till 9.30pm? den they all decided to watch movie. went to 5th floor to check out wad can me watch. first was Unborn? den Coming Soon, 12 rounds, hotels for dog? :S FINALLY, decided to watch 'Confession of a Shopaholic' =DD good pick! bought 7 tickets 4 midnight movie at 11.30pm. den mum asked me to call sis if she wanna tag along. she was wit her guy. i secretly told mum tat they are at vivo, dating! hahahah! =P den mum went back to the counter & bought 2 more tickets & was lyk "ask her to bring her guy along." i was shocked & happy! AT LAST!! at last we got to meet our future-bro-in-law! wakakaka! since it was still early, we decided to go back to my granny's hse & wait 4 my sis & her guy to come. at 10.45pm, they arrived & we all walked to WM. saw sis's guy. he look sick & shy. LOLS. first time katekn! den mum told us tat this is a secret between us all, dad must'nt noe! COOL perh mum? supporting gilerhh!! sis confirm happi gilerhh! =DD im happi 4 u lahh sis! in the cinema, starting frm left was mum, aunt rima, aunt lijah, me, sis, her guy,bro, khair & uncle. sis's guy was definitely shocked tat he got to sit beside my sis. he thought tat mum wldnt lyk tat! he oso said tat our family rawk gilerhh! very supporting & bonded. ohh well; i agree! mum is. oso my aunts & uncles. but dad? not realli. he still has some restriction ahh. i noe he's juz being concerned & wan the very best 4 hys children. =) movie ended at 1am i tink? by then, all went sleepy oreadi! mum, bro, sis & her guy went back by cab. i went back to granny's hse wit the rest. the nxt dae was 'kenduri'; main reason i slept over at granny's hse. i had only 4 hours of sleep! damn tired i tell you! had to hlp do this & tat all the wae till the kenduri started. from there, the rest did the job. i went back at 9.15pm? aft half wae of "earth-houring" & watching 'sumpah pocong di sekolah'. 2dae, sundae. borink gilerhh! dad sleep only! never go out! =_= haiz. so i read a malay novel till i fnsh it. i hav a maths revision package to do. but too lazy! :P & den...........smth happen! smth.........i wont sae! :P hahah! till here! bye2!
Labels: may you guide me along, ohh god; if this is fate
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Friday, March 27, 2009
Bila segalanya telah terucapkan,
Akan ku satukan cinta kita!
Dalam satu ikatan suci...
Untuk selamanya!!
Bila segalanya telah terwujudkan,
Akan ku bangun kuil cinta kita...
Sebagai bukti cintaku padamu;
Yang suci untuk SELAMANYA!
Telah menjadi mimpiku,
Hidup bersamamu!
Menjalin rasa antara kita,
Hanya untuk cinta!!
Ku serahkan semua yang ku miliki.....
Hingga saat yang terakhir!
Yang TERAKHIR...........!!
Labels: aku cinta dia, tapi aku takut akan curang lagi; apa harus ku lakukan??
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Thursday, March 26, 2009
acting stupid through the night
i am a victim of the light
we get along so why cant they
having fun ouh everday
we hit the road to where we flow
turn up the music till it blows
stay up late for one more show
playing till we hit the floor
this is how it goes!
(C/O) FREE TO SEE
FREE TO BE WHAT I BELIEVE
AMBITIONING IS JUST SOMETHING I DONT NEED
AND ITS UP TO ME! UP TO ME!
TO BE THE ME IN THIS LAST CALL OUT FOR HELP!! SO.......
send the parents out of town
chuck a big party just for fun
play our songs for everyone
just dont care if there all gone
conversation out off hand
when old folks dont understand
this not the 80'S !!
nothing's gonna CHANGE US!!
if i carry on this way
will you get the picture
to the life i wanna lead
not for TRAGEDY !!
this is how it goes!
(C/O)
I SWEAR
ITS NOT THE ANSWER
I'LL NEVER GET IT BUT I WILL TRY
AND I KNOW I'LL NEVER GET BY
TO ANOTHER WAY OF LIFE
AND THIS IS ONE THING I WONT DENY!!!!!!
Labels: i cant deny tat my heart beats even faster when i see you
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Wednesday, March 25, 2009
aaaaaahhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! stressss! stressss! stresss!!!! tite! tite! tite!!! thursdaes alwaes SUCKS! i hate thursdaes!!! lyk HELL!!!!! alwaes get f**king stressed upp wit my tite schedule! its either hmewrks or tuition & religious class at nite! cn u believe it?? my schedule 2dae is; be home by 3pm. tuition at 4pm. religious class at 7pm. plus tons of hmewrks to do & pass upp tomorrow!!!!!! & MATHS!! i dun even understnd a single thing on chap 5.1 den ms chia wanna move on to 5.2 & ask do hmewrk on tat topic!!! WTF?? its WAE TOO FAST!!!! urgh! i hate myslf 4 being WOLS!! D; haiz! den after religious class i go home. reach home at 10.30pm. LATE u noe! how am i supposed to tolerate this any longer?? im sick & tired of all this already! i wanna end all the torturing!!!
Labels: hw mch lnger do i hav 2 stand on this sufferings??, omg
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Tuesday, March 24, 2009
And if I lived a thousand years..
You know, I never could explain!
The way I lost my heart to you;
That very day...
But if destiny decided;
I should look at the other way..
Then the world would never know;
The greatest story ever told...
And did I tell you that I love you tonight?....
Labels: i love you? i needed you? i missed you?
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Saturday, March 21, 2009
Malam ini ku lewati...
Walau sepi menghantui!
Tak ada dambaan hati kan tetap ku nikmati....
Hati kecilku berbisik;
"Inginkan kekasih"
Tetapi ku masih inginkan sendiri!
Hidup sendiri kadang lebih baik...
Tak kan ada rasa sangsi atau curiga!
Tak perlu rasa risau atau fikirkan keadaan pasangan itu,
Karna ia hanya akan memusingkan kepala & membuang waktu ku!
Walau cinta di antara puteri dan raja itu tiada;
Akan ku nikmati cinta di antara insan-insan disekeliling ku!
Mungkin masanya bukan sekarang!!
Jadi..........
pergi pergi,
jangan kau kembali!!
jangan pernah membisik dihati ku lagi;
Karna ku tak akan mendengar lagi!!
Aku cuma akan menunggu waktu & masa yang sesuai....
Juga Mr Perfect ku untuk datang & mengambil ku! =D
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Thursday, March 19, 2009
Why is it every time I try,
It always comes back as a lie??
I could believe in the words that you say to me...
But lately I think I won't agree!
What makes the world go by;
If you cannot crush my life??
What holds you up so high?
When you want it all the time!
'Cause we will be fine;
In matter of time..
Subject to my mind,
As we crossing the line!
Directions to see...
Perfections to be,
A pain of a kind...
Always crashing on me !!!!
Suffocate, time, matter.....
I'll be fine;
TODAY..................
And the days they go on and on......
As all the time
I'm all alone ......
It never pays me to say,
That I'm not OK!
But you still have time
To make fun of me!
What makes the world go by,
If you cannot crush my life??
What holds you up so high;
When you want it all the time???
'Cause we will be fine!!
In matter of time...
Subject to my mind,
As we crossing the line....
Directions to see,
Perfections to be...
A pain of a kind;
Always crashing on me!
Suffocate, time, matter........
I'll be fine;
TODAY!!!
'Cause we will be fine,
In matter of time!
Subject to my mind,
As we crossing the line....
Directions to see,
Perfections to be....
A pain of a kind;
Always crashing on me!!!!
Suffocate, time, matter
I'll be fine..............
'Cause we will be fine,
In matter of time....
Subject to my mind,
As we crossing the line .....
Directions to see
Perfections to be
A pain of a kind
Always crashing on me
Suffocate, time, matter
I'll be fine......
And I don't believe;
In time we will see!
A pain of a kind;
Always crashing on me!!
Suffocate, time, matter
I'll be fine;
TODAY..........
Labels: cause we will be fine; in matter of time...
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Diskriminasi menjatuhkan aku!
Reputasi kini menjadi bisu..
Dan aku............
Ku layu...
Di situ mengharapkan sesuatu yang baru,
Itulah impian aku!
Dan...
Bila kau menghilang....
Musnahlah musnah impian!!
Untuk menggapai bintang,
terangi hidupku..
Kumahu kau tahu...
Engkaulah destinasiku!!
Dalam ingatanku...
Kerna diri ini tak daya lagi,
Menempuh hidup yang kutemui....
Dan aku.....
ku tunggu............
Di situ,
Mengharapkan sesuatu yang baru!
Itulah impian aku,
Dan Bila kau menghilang...
Musnahlah musnah impian!
Untuk menggapai bintang terangi hidupku..
Kumahu kau tahu.......
Engkaulah destinasiku
Dalam ingatanku!!!
Dan Bila kau menghilang....
Musnahlah musnah impian!
Untuk menggapai bintang,
terangi hidupku...
Kumahu kau tahu,
Engkaulah destinasiku,
Dalam ingatanku....
Dan,
Bila kau menghilang....
Musnahlah musnah impian!!
Untuk menggapai bintang terangi hidupku..
Kumahu kau tahu,
Engkaulah destinasiku!!!
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lalalala- im blessed to hav my family. especially my sis & granny. although im deprived of BG love, my family were alwaes there, especially now since im spending mst of the time at hme. my lovely besties too. =)) aqilah, syimah,ila,naq,ika.... the rest oso! (too many luhh) :P i love ya all. thnx 4 all the care & concern. much appreciated. =D i feel much better now. spending time mstly reading or hang on the phne wit nisa or even joke wit my sis. time realli flies fast! another 3 daes & sch reopens! i cant wait 2 meet my frenz again!!! =))
ila: awwww, we're in the same boat ila! i noeeeee!!
aqilah: thnx2! humphs. im having doubts bout choco luhh.
naq: yeah2, thnx loads darls. i noe ure alwaes thre 4 me! ily!
ika: imy loads toos! =DDDD thnx. we'll talk oneday eventually!
syimah: bright side ehh? yupp2. i'll try to stop the rain! :P
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Wednesday, March 18, 2009
i wanna talk bout love. i wanna hear about love. i wanna see love! i wanna taste true love! love between a boy & a girl. i will get excited when i hear these kinda things! =DD i like to hear my fren's love story! very interesting & exciting story! but when it comes to me. EMPTY. i may have someone in my heart. but i noe... i'll never reach the sky! even the stars! IMPOSSIBLE! every single dae i thought about the reasons he may reject me. reasons he may avoid me. it makes me realli frustrated. angry. jealous. all this makes me feel USELESS in this world. this cycle have been repeating over & over again!! as if i am realli useless! this proves me smth when i looked at the rest of my frenz who are still single. its either they're unfamiliar with the word love. or having phobia. or scared to fall in love again. or even... they havent found their Mr Right. humphs. i write this post not for ppl to pity me. or wadever. juz tat i wanna let out how i realli feel deep inside without having to tell or talk. it makes me realli relief after posting smth tat ive been keeping deep inside me. every other times, frenz ask "hows you?" it made me laugh. not tat its funny. juz tat i wonder. dont ya all felt bored everytime, to ask me the same question? & i gave you all almost the same answer everytime? of course, i'll still stay the same. left on the unwanted shelves? humph... nice description ehh? "lelong2... for sale! last piece!!" ahahhx. LAME. i noe. but i guess those whose in the same shelf as me would understand ryte?? haiyoo. life. life. life. kadang ia membahagiakan. kadang ia menyedihkan. sungguh pusing kepala dibuatnya!! haiz. i noe maybe its not the right time yet for me. but its been 1 year. 1 year tat ive been holding onto this lust. a lust for someone special. someone who will alwaes make me happi. someone who noes me in & out. someone understanding. someone who respects women. someone humble. someone supporting. someone loving. caring. romantic. jokable. good looking in my eyes. i noe nobody's perfect. but gentlemen? whre are you?? whre have you gone? taken?? married? dead?? tsk3. /too much? is this too much to ask? i dont noe. =/
aku menangis setiap malam menunggu kedatangan esok pagi. karna aku tidak akan pernah tahu hari baru itu akan memberi ku kesedihan atau kebahagian. aku hanya bisa menjalani hidup ku dengan perlahan tanpa tahu kemana arah tujuan ku. bagai air yang menggalir di sungai tanpa berhenti, juga tanpa arah tujuannya.
Labels: kau rase tak ape yg aku rase?? kau paham tak macam mane aku rase ni?
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Tuesday, March 17, 2009
when we love someone badly, we want them. want their love. want their soul. want their body. want everything that they have! but when your love turns out to be unrequitted, you'll get hurt. sad. emo. angry. frustrated. thinking of the possibillity of why they dont accept you! even so, some may change themselves to be better so that the other party would accept them. some would just wait. thinking that the other party needs time to decide. humphs. life. how pathetic! then, then! there's this part. you know, when you wait patiently for them but no change. still unrequitted love. 1 week. 1 month. 1 year. what else??? you thought it would be better to just give up. leave it to fate. go on with life. go on with the one that loves you. eventhought you're not sure whether thats the right decision & you wont have regrets. you're also not sure whether your love will grow for this person who loves you. but you dont love him at first. then after some time, you started loving him. you were happy to be with him. you gave a chance to be with him. =) but just as you wanted to forget the one you love & give your heart to the one that loves you, the one that doesnt return your love last time suddenly came back into your life & tell you "i love you. i want to be with you! i'm sorry for not realising it earlier! but now i really want you! please accept me!!" but its too LATE.... TOO LATE!!! haiz! why does this always happen when its already too late? why cant it happen when we were waiting?? does this ever crossed your mind?? 0.o
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Monday, March 16, 2009
I love you.
I need you..
I miss you....
Aku tak bisa musnahkan,
KAMU dari otakku!
Mataku sudah buta!
Tak dapat melihat...
Wajah yang rupawan lagi..
Selain, WAJAHmu!
Hatiku sudah mati!!
Tak dapat merasa...
kerinduan yang dalam..
Selain RINDUku padamu!
♥
Sunday, March 15, 2009
todae was a boringgg dae compared to ystrd!! didnt go out. was "chilling" at hme & watching tv. humphs. sch hols are lyk FINALLY HERE! but now, i felt very bored coz didnt go out! haiyoo!! =( i wanna go out wit frenz 1 of these daes! but den ros goin 4 cmp tmrw all the wae till thurs! =((( haiz. haiz. haiz. and, and, and!!!! hys bdae is diz cming wk! i guess he's celebrating hys bdae wit hys frenz. ohh well, i oso havnt hav the time 2 go get smth 4 hys bdae. humphs. ystrdae my sis & i went shopping at bugis village & BHG. while mum & aunt went to golden landmark. funFUNfun!!! =DD bought alot of things! i love it lahh seyy! den at bout 4pm we met mum& aunt at carpark whre we promised dad & bro. hahah! den off we go to changi airport. walk2 at all the terminals! lyk mad, i noe! :P tat was the first tme i went to T3. not bad. but its much more boringgg!! i prefered & lyk T2 the bez!! got loads of shops & the place is mch more better. =)) reached hme at bout 7.30pm? washed upp & watched tv. hehehhh. ;PP
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Friday, March 13, 2009
heyheyhey!! Fridae the 13th was indeed a GOOD DAE!! i realli had fun ystrdae!! ysrdae i went bck skol quite late. skol actualli ended early at bout 11.15am. me & my frens stayed bck all the wae till 3pm. talked2 none stop!! =DD fun lahh! especially talking to aqilah & syimah! we jumped topic to topic! hahah! i love it!! =)) den at bout 3.45pm i reached granny's hse. at bout 5.30pm, i followed dad to fetch mum frm work. we all went to Tampines Century Square to buy a gift for my cousin who had given birth to a daughter on 03/03/09. her name is Laiqa Rasyiqah. she is fair & weighs bout 3kg. she oso lyks to smile alots! hahah! after shopping, we went straight to her house at Compassville Bow. at bout 10pm we left their house. all was dead tired in the car when suddenly dad asked if we wanted to go jalan kayu & hav supper. =DD we all agreed immediately after the word 'prata' & 'teh tarik' was mentioned! HAHAH! my family realli love TEH TARIK alot!! =) we left at bout 11pm. reached home at 11.45pm i tink? washed upp & quickly went to bed! =PP
Labels: i dont noe wad should i do, move or stop?
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Thursday, March 12, 2009
i was unsure of my personality.
unsure of the exact theme song i loved.
but now.... lyk FINALLY.....
i've FOUND IT!! =DD
its pop rock, alternative indie & sometimes psychedelic...
can oso change lahh, but now i seriously love indie songs!
it sometimes may be slow.. emo-ish..
BUT.. the lyrics are realli MEANINGFUL!
i LOVE THEM !! <33
ohh well; another tiring dae..
had skol as per normal..
AFTER A TIRING 3 dae camp!
lucky mrs B, mr Lee & mdm Hamidah excused us..
they noe we were tired & did oni a lil studying.. =DD
sleepppyyyy ALL THE WAE!
but was msging S so it did make me awake!
he said i awake hym too! =))
HEES. jiwe. LOL. :P
ohh, i saw my report book during d&t lesson..
didnt do well... ='(
nevermind! i shall work EVEN HARDER nxt tme!
no more fooling around!
nxt year O level readi!
WEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!
time realllllllllllliiiiii FFFFlllllliiiiiiieeeesssss!!!! XD
guess wad? juz now aft skol i stayed bck wit naq & wani..
we chit-chatted about BGR...
how fortunate naq is; to hav SUPERHERO....
& how SUCKY it is; to be a loner...
half dead lyk me & wani....
HA-HA-HAH!! cool uh...
never been so damn open wit them b4, especially wani.. =DD
hehehh! i tld them how i am feeling ryte now..
wani..naq..nisa..ros & of course aqilah now noe oreadi!
HA-HAH! surprisingly all of them said smth similar wit wad nisa thought...
humphh... dun noe lerh ehh?? lets juz go wit the flow! *trademark* =PP
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Wednesday, March 11, 2009
HEYHEYHEY !! Wassupp peepz ?! i'm back once again aft 3 daes of TIRING yet FUN time at camp christine! =DD i realli had a great time wit my classmates! it was lyk our bonding session! no more guys do guys stuff, girls do girls stuff.. no more enemies wit the china girls.. juz tat we all LACK of communication & co-operation.. of course tat can be brushed upp lahh! =PP the first dae was SUCKY! aload of them didnt co-operate & did their own stuff.. shayidah got realli sick.. nicholas got into trouble... tsk3! lyk wad oni! i even cldnt sleep at nite due to the cold weather.. shiver lyk hell, tink i slept for bout 3 hr oni! -_- den 2nd dae was even better!! eventhought i had sleepy eyebags, the activities realli woke me upp! nature rumble was the best!! team challenge oso not BAD lahh.. got to see loads of HOT GUYS half naked! HA-HAH!! den got cmpfire! did our best 4 the cheers & enjoyed ourselves, danced lyk clubbing! cool man! =)) a pity tat ila, syim, nisa, ros & wan isnt there! it wld have been a wae LOAD BETTER & FUN wit them around!! =( my grp had to do duty 4 dinner & supper.. so stayed upp all the wae till 1o.55pm i tink.. aft tat went bck 2 our dorms.. b4 lights off, the girls & i had oreadi fallen asleep! it was realli a tiring dae lahh seyy! den juz now, we did some area cleaning & went bck skool.. reached home at bout 12.30pm i guessed.. had some rest.. chit chats here & there wit sis (she saes she misses me badly tat she disturbed bro coz she cldnt distrb me for 2 daes!) HA-HAH! ily sis! =DD den ltr at 7pm goin to skool for the cmpfire! =))
Labels: i juz said i missed hym; did i? 0.o
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Sunday, March 8, 2009
lalalala....
ystrd was superbbb!
i realli tried putting all the troubles awae...
UNTIL..... i reached hme.... ohh well, here it goes! =)
went out at bout 1.45pm?
fetched granny at her place & off 2 bottle tree park! =DD
had an hour of prawn fishing..
realli tested my patience! humphs...
den at bout 4pm off to yishun ave 5..
walk2.. find tidbits.. fruits.. things tat can eat basically lahh! :P
aft tat send granny off at blk 710 for kenduri tahlil...
sis changed her seat oreadi.. her time to drive.. lol!
she drived up to simpang bedok..
humphh.. not bad.. not bad! hahahahh!
had our lunch-dinner...
& den off we go 2 east coast park..
tat was supposed to be our 1st destination..
but ended up being at bottle tree.. XP
ohh well, at east coast....
we, the 3 gendengs did our own business..
took as much as possible pics... hehehh....
while mum & dad had their own privacy time...
**humph2..**
sweet lahh seyy when they hold their hands together!
HA-HA-HA!!!! tried not to disturb them...
but at laz, the 3 of us followed wadever mum & dad did!
we became bored oreadi... so we decided juz tat! =))
we holded our hands together & strolled the beach together..
okae lahh.. not bad u noe; strolling at the beach..
not holding ur bf's hands....
but ur siblings hands..... HA-HA-HA! :PPP
at bout 7.30pm i tink..
we left east coast & headed to turf city giant...
tat was the laz destination of the dae! =DD
"i oni wan to get 2 tings okae! crab & starch spray!
u all better dun buy anytink!" mum said tat b4 going in...
LOLS! as i expected...
she didnt but 2 items! but MORE!
:PP funny seyy!
sis was lyk all the wae
"dahh, dahh! more than 2 items oreadi!! see hu's the one tat 'bubbles'?"
HA-HA-HA!!!! me & bro laugh3 lyk mad looking at mum & sis...
den we walk2 at the refridgerator/chilled side...
i was finding for mascarpone cheese since laz week; to make tiramisu!
suddenly my hand took a blue-white coloured round container...
i looked at the label... & it says "mascarpone polenghi"....
HUhuhh!! =DD at laz i got wad ive been looking for!
sooooooo........ nxt fri im making tiramisu! XPP
humphs... back to the story....
reached hme at bout 8.45pm?
*** kept calling & calling & calling me since thurs...
i rejected hys calls frm fri onwards.... damned!
i was swearing all the wae everytme he dsnt giv up calling me!
all the wae till 12.30am when im asleep okae! HOW IRRITATING IS TAT??!!
basically, he calls me & ros coz he's BORED!
when he's bored/lonely he'll call me..
when he calls me, he talks shit....
the shit tat i melted for laz tme...
the shit tat broke my hart...
the shit tat i thought he wasnt lying...
THE SHIT........... tat i am;
never ever ever ever ever ever ever EVER gonna entertain again!
st0opid me for picking up hys call on thurs!
*** is juz the same as ***** !!!!!
lyk F*** !!!!!
all they do is hurt ppl's feelings!
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Thursday, March 5, 2009
Ku takut kau hilang
jadi bayang2
sesat dalam lurah yang gelap
tiada udara
Ku takut kau hilang
dalam ribut taufan
entah mengapa cepat berubah
ternyata kau lemah
Madu atau racun namamu
bunuh saja kecil hatiku
awan mendung telah berarak
nafas mula segar kurasa dunia
Ku takut kau hilang
karam di lautan
dipukul ombak dihempas badai
hilanglah arahnya
Labels: ive never ever wanted to lose you
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Wednesday, March 4, 2009
2dae started off wit emo/tired/sleepy/moody.. all i wan is to shut my eyes dwn & stop my frens from talking & talking & talking & TALKING.. somehow i juz felt so irritated & lyk wanna write on my polo "dont talk 2 me unless if i do!" they thought tat i'm having prob or smth.. & kept asking me why why why wad happened during english.. but seriously i duno! i let my mind control me 2dae.. i dun even feel lyk me 2dae! hahx! i bet u dun undrstnd unless u felt lyk tat b4.. but tat hppned 2 me! den during maths.. got bck maths ppr.. so obviously & as expected i did badly den my frens! b4 holding the ppr i was okae oreadi.. but somehow when ms chia was going thru the ans, i felt lyk wanna fly.. fly 2 another world.. wonderland world? fun isit it? den aft sometime, i grew moody..sleepy..tired! a loud voice suddenly awake me from my wonderful wonderland dreams.. ms chia.. humph! so embarassing! act as if i was realli sleepy.. & den i was bck 2 the reality.. BORING!! sitting in an air-conditioned room wit the red-black bckgrd & a tcher teaching.. woahh... so FAR.. far awae from my wonderland world! endured her lesson 4 bout another 20mins i tink? den off 2 lit.. ending of lit lesson was when i went bck 2 myslf! the happi me.. the joke-able me, etc..
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Monday, March 2, 2009
Biarkan waktu teruskan berputar,
Mencintai kamu penuh rasa sabar!
Meski sakit hati ini kau tinggalkan..
Ku ikhlas tuk bertahan!
Cintaku padamu begitu besar!
Namun kau tak pernah bisa merasakan..
Meski sakit hati ini kau tinggalkan!
Ku ikhlas tuk bertahan....
Kau meninggalkanku tanpa perasaan!
Hingga ku jatuhkan air mata...
Kekecewaanku sungguh tak menahan..
Biarkan ku harus bertahan!
Jangan pernah kau coba untuk berubah!
Tak relakan yang indah hilanglah sudah..
Jangan pernah kau coba untuk berubah...
Tak relakan yang indah hilanglah sudah!
Kau meninggalkanku tanpa perasaan!
Hingga ku jatuhkan air mata...
Kekecewaanku sungguh tak menahan!
Biarkan aku harus bertahan..
Jangan pernah kau coba untuk berubah!
Ku relakan yang indah dalam hatinya…
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Sunday, March 1, 2009
2dae had SS test. tat was the last! HUHUHH!! =DD enjoy oreadi. nxt wk cmp oreadi! excited? kinda lahh. but not to the extreme lyk the sec 1 cmp. coz tat one go pulau ubin mahh! =DD but i seriously wished tat the SLs in my class wont have to go for sec 1 camp & go for the sec 3 camp! den it'll be FUN! if not......... =(((((( haiz! borinks lahh if no nisa,ros,syim & ila! ohh well, lets see wad i did the last wkends. on sat, my sis's bf didnt came. postponed another dae. -_-" instead, went to wm & met up wit ros & nisa. followed by MK & Joel. they all wanna "study SS". HUMPH! lyk REAL! XP i didnt even bring any books to study! i was very "chilled" sey tat dae! was oni wearing ASC jersey wit black pants & red ripples slippers. ros & nisa wear lyk very nice2. pretty2. hahhx! XD im the odd one out there! den ysterdae, my family & i went to JB. reached there at bout 12 noon aft 1 half hour jam. straightawae went to Jusco Tebrau. Had Brunch (Breakfst + Lunch) =DD den went shopping. all went separate waes. 3.45pm met up at entrance of Breadtalk. obviously me & sis shopped together. =DD didnt get much things tat i wanted but at least half of my shopping list were granted! =DDDD reached home at bout 10:30pm. lucky SS i studied in the car oreadi. =DD hope i pass!
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