Wednesday, September 30, 2009
i dont freakinnng care if you dont lyk wad i do. you can blooddy hell tell me so; cant you?? why act so innocent in front of me?? dont show me that hypocrite face of yours! here i am trying to make things mch easier... & there you are.... CARING ABOUT YOUR OWN SELF!! YOU'RE JUZ PLAIN EGOISTIC! damn you! i dont care wad you treat me as already lahh ehk?? treat me lyk a piece of shit?? a piece of meat?? a vegetable?? whatever lahh ehk! seriously; tak suke CAKAP! ade mulut tu buat ape kan?? baek jadi bisu! orang bisu pun nak cakap jgk! tak fikir perh? otak letak kat ane?? kepale lutut kape??? juz gooooo & DIE lahh sial! bloody hell! mabooookkkk!Labels: bloody hell...
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Tuesday, September 29, 2009
; tireddd. T_T its 11pm & im still AWAKE! guess wad? there's visitors outside. i know im not a good daugther. lyk wth? tat is why i do the house work so mch ryte?? i took all the blame juz to make them happi ryte?? i give inn juz to satisfy your needs ryte?? see how bad i am! how sinful i am that you kept saying kubur aku terturun lahh.. berat lahh.. wadever shit it is! i dont freakkingg care! all of you think only bout yourselves! orang laen tk fikir! perasaan orang tak fikir! yang korang tau is to make sure i satisfy your needs! i follow your orders! if done wrongly; you'll only blame others! you're living in denial; do you know that?? what do you people treat me as huh??!!!! a plain slave girl wit no feelings isit??? seriously ah; aku tk blh tahan. if i must swallow thousands of pain killers; i would... juz to make myself numb... feeling~less! i'd rather be a vegetable & go thru lyfe this wae wit the people around me! lyk i said; the reason i'm still breathing now is only bcoz of that very person.Labels: whats the best cure.....?
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Monday, September 28, 2009
heya.. its mondae! =0 this fridae eng ppr babe!!! good lucks ehh peepz! hmphs. todae was my pyscho-HIGH-dae... nth new lahh. talk crapp all the tme.. then burst into laughters... wth? XP sighs. goottta START revising!!! my weekend was burnt ocz of jln raye! saturdae went out wit nisa, ika, hafiz & ila. then suhaimi, haziq & syukri also came to my hse. hehehehh. chaos i tell you! alot of peepz was in my hse! including sis's bf! =DDD so good lahh nisa they all. they got to meet sis's bf! hahah! hmphs. wadever lahh ehk? i'll juz pray 4 them to last longgg till marriage.... AS PLANNED! ehem2.... =PP ohh ya! HILWAH! you read this, nxt tme we meet you dont ask me anytink bout this ehh! =X &.... pictures tmrw the tmrw the tmrw i'll upload ehh? sorie lahh. not now! urmmmm; currently chatting wit ghadir.. wad a cool person! simply makes me happi. for some reasons. she listens to me.. everytink... ;)) heeeeyyyyyyyyyy!!! i wanna go SHOPPING!! anybodyyy??? i wanna relieve tension ahh... WAIT a min! since when i wanna go shopping each time i'm pressurized?? hahahhh! must be mum's influence! i've alwaez prefered READING! [unless its the GSS!] =DDD && now, i've kicked that habit of reading! ALL OF A SUDDEN! =S sighs! its no goooddd.. nooottt goooddd at all! smth's WRONG... SOOOO WRONGGG smewhere! i did realised that i've kicked most of the good things i did last tme! =S nehmind lahh; i know... she knows! wink2! ;PPLabels: He who throws dirt is losing ground... tsk3...
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Thursday, September 24, 2009
major mood disorder... depression... T_T humphs. okae. todae's fridae. was looking forward for the weekends! to R&R!! skali got assignments to be doneeee! =S haizzz. burnt i tell you! tkpe2. juz endure dee! after exams you've got 2 mths babe! hehehehh. i shall then shut down the world! do my own thing. R&R..... woahhh; how comfortable is that?? yeappyyy!!! =DD
ohh ya! i changed my blog songs! nice not?? hehehh. i lyk the starting part of the song 'being alone'... listen to the guy that answers the phone.. cute ryte?? hehehehhh! i know! ;)) EPIK HIGH RAWKS lahh! all korean bands IN FACT!!! HAWT STUFFZ! =P my hp are now FULL of korean songs! no more memory liaos!! thought of getting sa new phone.. how bout LG GW525 ?? i lyk handphones wit a side slider. cool! hahah! see how lahh ltr.... humphs. i juz couldnt believe things going ard me! things seemed to be moving REAL FAST && without me realising.... its gonna be END YEAR... yeapp; pretty soon! cepaaaaattt nnnyyyeee!!! then nxt yr dahh O's!!! gooossshhh!!! =X couldnt believe it! it is as though im in a dream... a VVVEEERRRYYY looonnnggg dreamm! humphs. wad to do?? things had been done. whether you asked for it. or not. you cant turn the clock back again. its the FACT. its the REALITY. stop. think. decide. thatz wad i've got to sae lahh ehh. your lyfe, you decide. take full charge/responsibility of your own lyfe! dont be lyk me! hard to make decision & then cock everythink upp! stoopid ryte? i know. WADEVER LAHH. i dont wanna care liao! ahahhx! alrytes peepz; gotttaaaaa GO... toodles! take care! love you all loads! muackkzz! XD hahahhahhh!Labels: fate? destiny? love? money?
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downn wit a cold flu. AGAIN. yes; i know. was enduring all the wae till the very last class. lucky last lesson, maths was free period. sat in the canteen wit the rest. at 2.15pm met ms Azriana & ms Siti. rehearsal CANCELLED AGAIN. godddd!! got sick & tired of it liao! dun wanna take also have! =S haizz. so ika went off first. then me & naq went locker. then chiao back home. at home couldnt take already!! washed upp, changed & knocked outtzz! tak sadar sampai 6.30pm siooottt!!!! XPP in between; mum & granny kept calling. "ahhhh; tgh tdo ahhhh!" i said. BURUKK ehhkk! hahahahahhhh! well; cannot blame me! i need my rest! cannot disturb!! baru nyari jek tdo ptg, dahh kecoh! imagine lyfe without me?? NAK TAKKK???!!!!! TAK NAK, okae. SHHHH! shut upp. dun make any noise! dun sae people anyhow! aku manusia biasa. need my rest too. dun expect me lyk those slaves or wives or maids that have to entertain everyone 24/7! i have my lyfe too. i have my studies; myself... to think of.p/s ; are you living in denial?? i've got all the evidences to 'sue' you to the court! do you even stand a 2nd chance?? tsk3... i can be a hypocrite too; anytime & anywhere. *winkk. cant you see i'm lying?? how do you differentiate lie & truth?Labels: look straight into my eyes... see what can you see..
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Wednesday, September 23, 2009
been feeling really relieved & GREATFUL... ade hikmah di sebaliknye agaknye ehk? XD as you know, i've been trying so hard to try asking my dad bout the serawak trip. but so far my lips seemed so heavy to move & felt nervous! tak pernah rase mcm gitu! if i wanna ask other things i go slumber only.. but this tme was really hard! for 3 daes... to 1 week... to 2 weeks... didnt even ask hym! got the CHANCE but let it go into drain! crazyy ryte?? i know.. then decided that i should give upp. syimah took my place instead. didnt want to broad over it & made myslf busyy wit raye preparations. first dae didnt go out.. at nite only.. since granny raye at my hse; everybody came over.. HAVOC I TELL YOU! hehehehh! =P then suddenly kak leah's family came. after greeting each other, kak leah was lyk "YANNAAA!!! LMH's not coming on the 10th!! he's delayed! he's coming on the 24th instead!!!! i'm soooo going!! are YOU???" i was lyk of course lahh! he's my boyfren!! he's coming here also because of me! & giggled to myself. hahahah! how i wished it was true.... =S mesti other girls oso dreams to be hys girlfren kan! haiyooo... wadever lahhh. im jealous but i dun care. coz he's a star! everybody loves hym! ;)p/s; is copying & pasting your favourite thing to do?? are you THAT bored wit lyfe? 0.oLabels: you simply made my blood boil so mch...
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Friday, September 18, 2009
wooooiiittttss! whatzupp peepz?!! =D raye dahh nk dkat! ehh; ape dkat nye?? BESOK dahh raye!!! hehehehehh! gerek nye! tapi penatnye this week.... hanya DIA sahaje lah yg tahu! tsk3! mon & tues got rehersal... thursdae went geylang for buka & jln2 at the the bazaar! maaakkk! havoc i tell you! at the hawker centre, got fights between the stall vendors & customers! swearing here & there... ryte after buka plak tuuu! rabakk! everybody was lyk shocked & turned to watch them. then after buka, walk2 at the bazaar! pekak telinga dgr dorg pkai microphone "lelong2..." hahahah! then ade dramatic scene skejap ahh! =P mum met her old bestfren whom she longg met! & nenek met her work-mate whom she lonng met her 4 bout 15yrs! fuuhhyyoo! masih kenal lagi ehh dorg?? as they met, they hugged & gave a wide smile. how they missed each other so mch! =)) bought LOTSA stuffs! tapi masih TAK COMPLETE lgi!!!! =O 10.30pm we chiao. went to bukit merah to fetch aunt. then sent granny to her hse. arrived hme at 11.30pm. sis dahh knocked out. the rest kecoh-kecoh kat living room kemas barang! ahahahx! then fridae, went bck hme straight. helped mum & aunt put upp langsir & alas meja. went out at 3pm. went parkway parade giant. then go aussino. then go geylang AGAIN!!! =S DAMN TIRED i tell you!! reached hme LATE! 15mins to buka!! kalang kabut siapkan makanan. after buka did a lil work then knocked out at 9.30pm! hehehh! that was my first time seyy! XD then todae woke upp at 7am. 2 hours after sahur. had NIGHTMARES. sudden woke upp; panting. when i realised i was panting, i laughed to myself. it was juz a bloody dream! these daes bnyk nightmares siot! seram & pelik plak tuu! =S okae back to story; went to market wit aunty to meet granny there. saw a pityful old woman wit her disabled leg, pushing the trolley. kesian tkde org tolong belikan barang2 raye. =(( soo, met granny. bought groceries & reached hme at 9.10am. maaakkk! sleepy i tell you! but i dun wanna sleep. ltr afternoon lahh. =DD
humphs; lets talk bout other tings then raye... ros & naq asked to view their blogs. okaee. done. ros; wadz upp wit that?? depression.. i've got the symptoms. & wad?? get help?? nehmindd lahh. i know wadever it is; there wont be a solution. coz somebody is in denial & not willing to change. he wont. trust me. neither do the rest of them. tkpe lahh. i'll juz live 'happily'. pssstt; i did smth again yesterdae. couldnt take their words anymore. =S i know. im very sinful. but i juz got red & flared upp! haizz. i dont wanna broad over things lyk this.. it doesnt brg any good! & naq! i saw the video.. was laughing to myself! XP hahahahahhhh! kekek! =DLabels: to have fun was the only thing in my mind for now..
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Wednesday, September 16, 2009
here's my horoscope reading for todae...LOVE;Fantasies have been taking precedence in your romantic affairs Aquarius, and this may lead to some disruption in your love affairs today. Whether you are single or attached, you... have likely been chasing after a fantasy of some sorts lately, and this may lead to some complaints in this period. This may be a situation where you are needing to settle for second best, or at least come to some sort of compromise. Or perhaps you simply need to wait this one out, and do without for some time. You may find that a little patience will show that this will all come together at a later time.Fortune cookie reading;Your everlasting patience will be rewarded sooner or later.AGAIN; i find it true! i mean lyk it somewhat connects wit what's in my mind todae! hehehh! =P haizzz. why would i have to settle for the second best when i only have the very BEST in my brain?? tak logic kan?? i sae i want means i want lahh! *stomps feet, fold arms & gives an unhappy face!* =(( tak ape lahh if i cannot go serawak... as long as it makes you happi! PATIENCE? humphs. i didnt know how was i able to have patience since i hated waiting so much! guess for this case; its different & i'm willing to give upp anytink at all!!Labels: take it or leave it..
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Tuesday, September 15, 2009
woooiiittttsss!!! guess wad?? MY BOYFREN told me that he is set to head to Singapore to attend a store opening ceremony and host a fan meeting sometime in October. He is currently a model for the cosmetic brand, therefore he'll be making the trip in order to attend the opening ceremony for the Etude House’s second outlet at Ion Orchard, which officially opened its doors on September 9th. MY BOYFREN will also hold a fan meeting sometime during his two day, one night stay. All that is known so far is that the actor is expected to arrive in Singapore on October 10th. Details about the fan meeting (including time and date of the event) have yet to be announced. In other news, MY BOYFREN had recently been named an ambassador for the UNICEF Love Net campaign geared toward helping end the spread of malaria in Africa. Glad to see that he's using his current popularity to help those in need…and not just to sell beer. =DD SEEEE!!!!!! he's NOT ONLY charming but KIND-HEARTED!!!!!!!! hehehehhh. see lahh; whose boyfren?? ahahhhxxx! =PP sooooo; without A DOUBT, as hys GIRLFREN.. I'M SSSOOOOO GOOONNNAAA BE THERE on 10th oct!!!! surely he misses me ryte?? so muz meet hym! =DD hahahah. todae SUX BIG TIME!! was DAMN TIRED physically & mentally! much worse, wit my nose running awae! lol. no lahh. had a slight flu in the morning. since the dae b4 seyy! irritating sungguh! =S haiz. you know wad? i freakinggg TIRED with all the CRAPZ readi ahh! bile nak game?? kau nk menang sgt kan? that satisfies you kan? fine then... aku admit DEFEAT! aku mengalah! aku LOSER. i got the red card. you shot me down. you won. YES; i SAID YOU ALREADI WON!! happi? bangga? if yes, bagus lahh. huh? NO? then ape lagi kau nak?? seriously i tell you people ehh; aku penat. seriously penat! nak layan korang sumer. nak layan bende2 laen yg buat darah aku upp & membinggungkan kepale aku.. buat aku STRESS giler rabak.. they juz dont know wad im going thru & dont even care bout me here. they think i dont mind. im fine wit anytink.. but no. if they think back properly.. if ONLY they would ahh; then they could link every hints i gave.. i was regretful sbab tengkeng2 ni sumer ahh. but they should also know im not the slave nor im the one who should take the FULL responsibilities! sumer nak bagi alasan; takde mase. i can also do that! i can also rebel lyk hell, stay awae from home till late nite! but i dont want! i dont want be that kind of person! i can do the minor ones. & they could at least help a lil here & there.... but no... all they do is go work.. come home, R&R... then me?? serious ahh. i cant take it anymore. i juz wanna shut the whole world down! the only reason i live is only for someone.......Labels: ishk.. dee PRASAN ehk? ohh wth.. i dun care wad u tink.. =P
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Friday, September 11, 2009
Kawan;
kadang-kala ianya blh menjadi LAWAN.
they are there.. but; they just there...
coz its either they've got no other frenz..
or they juz wanna FIT IN...
but you'll NEVER know that they've grudge on us..
[eh, you know people sae: why fit in when you're supposed to stand out??]
Teman;
Selalu hadir tetapi hanya untuk sementara.
people sae; RECREATIONAL USE.
only there when the time's GOOD.
[ingat ape? mainan ehk? i smack your ass...!]
Sahabat;
selalu hadir di setiap detik nafasmu.
hadir di masa gembira.
hadir di masa sedih.
memahami kita luar & dalam.
people sae;
your bestest-fren know you better than your bf does! XP
soooo; which one of these wld you choose to be?
the FIT-IN-wannabe's.....
the RECREATIONAL-HAPPI-fren...
OR......
THE TRUE & LOYAL bestie thats alwaes there NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS...
no matter whether your bf adores her better than he adores you...
no matter how ugly she looked but her heart's PURE....
no matter how BIG your problem is wit her...
you wld NEVER ever leave her...
ALWAES there....
ALWAES....
ALWAES....
ALWAES....
people sae; may death do bestfrenz apart...
humphs.... && as for me ??
tsk3! no... no... no... i wont decide...
YOU DECIDE... coz i'm feeling-less.. numb...
i dont care bout what you think bout me already!
what i know is that...
i dont wanna go to all of you & go "eh, how lyfe?" "how's lyfe?"..
well; i feel that im there.. just there...
only YOU have to pick upp the phone...
& dial my number...
or leave a text...
see your luck! coz it all depends on my mood...
humphs..
GOOD LUCKS ehk! =P
Labels: people sae.. dont break the trust you gained..
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Tuesday, September 8, 2009
woahh; guess wad? todae was the longest sleep i've ever had! hahah! =X ape pnye anak dara lahh bgn lmbt2... heheheh! laz night i watched hana yori dango; the japanese version of BOF. its the "summarised" one.. so its not so draggy. sweet lahh jugak! hahah! then juz now was woken upp by texts from frenz! kacau daun btol! =P replied them & went bck to sleep. had a very nice dream! tu yg tk terbgn-bgn tuu... woke upp at 1.15pm. terus pening semacam! =S went straight into the toilet... do what? bathe lahh! hahah! supposed to go do d&t project juz now. but duno lahh why they suddenly postponed to tmrw. humphs. boringg lahh todae! mum's coming home late! sis working afternoon shift... then ltr only me, dad & bro break fast together. BORRRRIIINNNGGGG!! T_T haizzz. i read my horoscope again juz now. ohh well; a daily routine! & you know what?? its getting wierd-er each dae! humphs. nevermind lahh. shouldnt believe it 100% also.... =P
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Monday, September 7, 2009
watching final destination 4 now. the final destination? wadever!! =P maaakkk!! violent giler!! =S cant stop shoutingg! hehehh! =P juz now i watch sayang, you can dance. cute you know the show! got samuel rizal!!! tat HAWT indonesian guy! LOLS. ramai nahh HAWT guys yg ade dlm dunia hiburan ehhk? humphs. menddaakk ahh these daes! havent started on studying/revison yet! =S yes; yes i know! i'll do it asap aites? tmrw? HEES. =P tu pun klau rajin & tak kluar! heheheheh! urrrggghhhh; ohh ros saes im depressed; under so much depression that i become pyscho when i meet them & talk nonsense & become crazy! hahahah! mybe true oso lahh. you know some people... they sae only but never do! they dont know that ACTIONS speaks LOUDER than WORDS! they simply sae juz to make others feel satisfied & happi. membuat seseorang itu tertanya-tanya.. tertunggu-tunggu.. for their ACTIONS.. to prove wad they sae is TRUE & they're lyk "a man of word" kinda person you know... =S && there are people who are juz sooooooo LOW LIVES who cant stop wit their CHILDISH-ness by keeping a grudge on smth that had happened centuries ago! && cant stop finding faults wit others! psl bende skit jek nk panas baran.. marah.. tengkeng2... maki hamun.. fikir psl diri sendiri jek! psl org laen?? ade fikir?? tak habes2 nk carik psl dgn org! tak penat ke?? kau tau tak P.E.N.A.T?? kalau dahh boringg sangat, dahh tkde kerje laen nk buat.. nk crik psl dgn org jgk.. pergi lahh crik teknik & tactic yg laen skit.. aku yg tgk pun PENAT tau tk?? its juz ssssoooo freaking PATHETIC & sooo immatured! =S memburukkn nama diri sendiri aje! dahh, tk payah nk maen drama2. after all, kau bkn bdk drama or even literature students! OMG! i really dread this type of people you know.. seriously.. makes my dae turn dark & dull. =S dahh lahh, bulan puase mcm nie... tk bgs aku buang mase mcm nieee.... Labels: PATHETIC LIL IMPS...
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Friday, September 4, 2009
Horoscope 4th September 09;LOVE;
You have been feeling a particular sense of frustration in matters of the heart lately, Aquarius, but today you can expect a break from this. Attached? You may have been feeling a little put down lately, but today you will be appreciated by exactly who you need the appreciation from. And this gratitude will take a form that is unexpected to you. If you are single, today is a good day to put aside the frustrations, and take stock of what you really need and want when it comes to love. Be honest with yourself today, it could be your own expectations that are leaving you so frustrated. Is it possible that they are a little too high right now?
Fortune Cookie;
If your desires are not extravagant they will be granted.OMG! wassup wit the horoscope todae?? i noe i shouldnt rely on it so mch. but if some of the things they sae is true or got some of it is true; why not ryte?? humphs. it could be your own expectations that are leaving you frustrated. Is it possible that they are a little too high right now? is it true that its a little too high? susah sgt ke ape yg aku mintak? keterlaluan ke? melampau ke?? kenape?? all those i asked for is gone already? extincted?? haiyoooo. takpe! takpe! since the horoscope saes i should take a break & stop broading over it... i shall not start my nonsense! =PPPPPLabels: naq; lagu UR MAN nice lahh ehh...
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Thursday, September 3, 2009
Daily Horoscope 3rd September (Aquarius) :Love;You have been under too much pressure and tension lately Aquarius when it comes to your love life, so today you are taking a break. Your break today is going to come in the form of fantasy land, and you are going to find yourself wandering off to a number of places and events at the oddest moments today. You don't need to worry too much about reeling these fantasies in today, as it is giving you another dimension to think about in your own love affairs. It doesn't matter if you are single or attached, drifting off to fantasy land will help you see the bigger picture down the road. Fortune Cookie Of The Day;Happy news is on its way to you.humphs... todae's horoscope is COOL! i lykk!!! hehehehhh! for once; they agreed that i should land myself in fantasy land! huahuahua!!! =DDD sememangnya dari pagi lagi otak ku sudah berkeliaran! macam2 ehh aku terfikir! dasar intellectual sungguh! ahahx! haiz. XPLabels: stop worrying...
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Wednesday, September 2, 2009
what a week! keep feeling TIRED && EXHAUSTED these daes! fasting is 1 thing. school's 1 thing. but problems; another thing! ystdae went geylang. jln 1 geylang; tapi 1 baju pun my sis tk berkenan! smth is wrong somewhere... where? your hse dwnstairs ah? NO! =P somewhere inside her BRAIN lahh! pnatt oiii layan anak dara yg 1 ni! sajak lah tu dgn mat dia! dua-dua same! 2x5 DOLZ! ahahahx! at last, me & mum lazyy wanna layan her already & decided to find a spot to sit & relax. kaki pnat sungguh! dahh lama tak rase pnat gitu! selalu nye time netball training jek. humphs. smth happened juz now. had "panicky-moments" gituk ehk tdi... couldnt wait till skool's done! wanna rush to the hospital asap!!!!! ahahx! but ohh well; PHHEEEWWWW... alhamdulillah! tak ade yg buruk2 belaka! =D everything seems fine now. she's safe. she could even smile & laugh when i cracked a joke on her juz now! =) i was freaking worried when i heard the news. & she was crying when she talked to sis on the hp. emotional sungguh! despite me; fasting & feeling very weak... i was willing to go back her house to take all her things needed & go bck to the hospital. tkpe; pahale lebihh... hehehehhh! =P then 3rd aunty accompanied her while i went off. mum, granny & all the rest didnt come since waktu buka dah nak dkat... ohh well; i hope tmrw i can go there again & accompany her! i wanna make all her worries go awae & put a smile on her face! =))Labels: my prayers will alwaes be wit you; ILY ALWAES.
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