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Saturday, October 31, 2009
Labels: where's my FRESH man? where's my FRESH man?
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Wednesday, October 28, 2009
alrytes there; juz wanna sae SOORRYY to reader who finds it irritating wit my posts FULL of my boyf's PICS! kwang3!! ;PP anywaes, todae was BETTER then yesterdae. referee-d the sec ones juz now. ika was there to help out too. HOW TIRINGG!! finished at 11am & went for recess. then aqilah, ika & rush tagged along to my class & talked bout a few things. humphs. good point i guess! hehehh! ;DD then received texts for naq & nisa! THEY"RE BAAAAACCCKKKK!!!! awwwwww; CANT WAIT FOR TOMORROWWWWW!!! nisa & ros asked to meet them at wm at 2pm. went back home & changed. met aqilah & rusy downstairs & made our wae to wm. ended upp at nisa's house. ros was there & they gave us our sourvenirs! THANKS YEA! hehehh! we went down & met rizuan & bazil? 0.o humphs. cool lahh. not badd. chiao to wm at 3.25pm. aqilah & rusy went backk home. me, ros & nisa went to popular & old chang kee. sat there & gossipped bout lotsa things! LOLS. reached home at bout 5.30pm? was damn bored so decided to read a novel. so here i am! ;)))
to naq: i'll meet you tmrw babe!!!
to wan: ahahxx! dahh lama CHILLEX digunakan.. only that its not as frequent as now..
to hihihi: OIKS! blogghopp only know uh you!! ;P
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Tuesday, October 27, 2009
annyong haseyo! po go shim neyo girlfrens! wanna meet & hugg all of you once you get baacckk!! i SWEAR i missed you ALL lyk hell!!!! ;(( sob2! lyfe had been a TOTAL bore the past 2 daes in skol. yesterdae did NOTHING in class. but made FRIENDS wit nick, mk & alif. so we had a gang of 5 peepz including me & ila! wakakakkaka! we did nonsensical stuffs lyk throwing paper here & there.. drawing on tranparency film whch nick gave a BOX to me & the rest... (RICH IDIOT!) on physics lesson, this new tcher (forgot his name) asked us to do soduku. most of the boys were playing poker cards instead. when he walked ard, all of us took the transparency film & act as though we were solving the soduku. very funny! XDD then todae, had to referee the lower sec captain's ball game. the sec twos huh, i tell you.. RUDE lyk hell! first round i was in charge of the scoring & timing together wit cheng yi. but later on, chian yin got fed upp esecially wit afiqah's group. they didnt want to listen to her empiring. wth? chian yin shouted at thier faced; threw the whistle & walked off. JUST LYK THAT! apee lagii? mdm azzizah immediately asked me to take over her place & she did the scoring. STOOPID i tell you. humphs. soon, it started to rain. all of us went to the ISH & ctinued. CRAZZY BUNCH of sec twos!! kept shouting & shouting lyk wad only! cant even make the players listen to wad i was saying. well; it ended at about 12pm & went to class. gosh! it suck even more i tell you! alif not there. herwan, vick & mk went MIA. jeremy & bernard juz came back wit me from the referee-ing. the choirs girls too. nick came & sat beside me. started to irritate me but i couldnt care less. let it be as i read a book wit ears pugged-in. then suddenly he asked "hey DEE; want to play UNO? wit jeremy? & bernard?? eiinnggg! i know yu want ryte? okae come, andy you join in also." lols. i was shocked but accepted his offer. aqilah joined in too. yun cong, elson, darren & some others were playing poker cards. nick suddenly became really nice to us these daes. hahah. ila & syahidah couldnt stop saying how CUTE he was.... LOLS! juz hope that the bonding between all of us will get closer & better especially next year! wwwweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee........ how great this is!!! ;DDD
Labels: cant stop thinking bout ur sweet smile; boy..
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Monday, October 26, 2009
URRGGHHHH!!! I WANNA CRRYYYY!!! I'M SOO HAPPI BUT SAAADDDD. ;(((( SOB2!! NOBODY IS THERE FOR ME TO listen to MY PROB ANYMORE..... AQILAH; CANT GET THRU. RUSY; CANT GET THRU. NAQ; SERAWAK. NISA: SERAWAK. ROS: SERAWAK. the REST; SRAWAK!!!!! ILA; BATHING! LIFESAVER; he wont understnd uhh!!! aayyyssshhh!!! UUURRRGGGGGHHHH!!!!! towa chuseyo!!!!! ;((((( i wanna share but there's nobody ryte here wit me. i feel so lost & empty. tak usah lah aku nak menyusahkan org laen yg dahh ade urusan sendiri. i juz need someone. someone who realli understnd how i feel ryte now. how sadd but gladd i am ryte noww. there's nobody. there's nobody. i'm lostt. cheeks felt warm as tears run down my cheeks. nobody sees. nobody sees. where have all of them gone? where? how lonely i feel ryte now.. nobody knows.. nobody knows... how much i need them.. they dont know.. they dont know.. aayyssshhhhh! i FEEL SOOO SHIITTYY ryte noww!!!!
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Wednesday, October 21, 2009
this is exactly my hp wallpaper. cool ryte? lols. humphs. think i'm seriously in love wit this chap. went down to plaza sing yesterdae. damn devastated you know!! was being pushed, sitted on, stepped on, squeezed & squashed by the crazzyy fans of hys... waited for hours... but the event was CANCELLED! freaking maddd i tell you. started swearing here & there. couldnt believe wad was going on. how could he? WHY? WHY? i know lahh, to most of you (who doesnt fancy him) think that "awww; its JUZ hym! whats the BIg deal you didnt get to see hym??" well, let me tell you; try being in my shoes... its the FIRSt time you adore an actor sooo much that you would juzhym EVEN when you know its impossible but you want to make it POSSIBLE. & when this happens; IT REALLLLLLLLLLYYY brought me DOWN. i felt soowadever it is that could describe how hurt & sadd i was! all the HOPE that you have ARE ALL GONE. juz lyk that! in split seconds! STOOPID! HOW STOOPIDawae souvenirs instead. FOR FIRST COME FIRST SERVE ONLY. lyk wth?? blood rushedd upp even more. dragged myself to the mrt instead & go straight to the airport. wads the use queing upp for it?? its HYM i wanted; NOT the products! darn it! must be the manager who cancelled it; they said. HELL YEAH!! he took longer time at the press conference & ended upp being late for the event! since the close event etude party is at 5pm, he had to rush straight to the movida. ;(( tears ran down my cheeks as soon as i got a seat in the train. i know it was sort of foolish to cry. BUT WHO CARES??!! its my prob aniwaes!! =PP aqilah & ipulika somewhat cheered me upp a lil. precious; NOT SPECIAL ehk ipulika?? HAHAHAH! humphs. yelaahh. defensive btol. ohh guess wad? when they did that kan aqilah.. terus aku teringat BOF. part yg HE said PRIDE; when it was supposed to be PRIVACY. hahah. CUTE. SWEET. aaayyyssshhh!! shut upp lahh deeee!! you didnt even get to see hym LIVE!! keep your mouth shutt sudah! its pointless you know! T_T uuurrrggghhhhh. okae; back to story! met babes @ airport T1. we went for dinner first before meeting them. hugged & kisses for all of them. gave them muffins. lols. hope they lyk it. =P soorriiieee if NOT NICE!! mine's not as PERFECT as naq's! i know... =X nisa had a prob wit her passport validity. all the rest had already went in. except her alone. everybody was praying for her to go. ipulika had already left by then. ipul ahh mengamuk. haiz. then me & aqilah got reaalllyy bored. i was still freaking madd over THAT incident & sooo we went to T3 & then to T2. bought double choco coffee ice blended @ coffeebean. hahah. talked bout lotsa stuffs wit aqilah babe! ;DD it was sooo muccchh FUN that i nearly forgot how BAD my dae was.. thanks aqilah darls! ;)) it was 8.35pm already & we took the train back home. feets started to ache liao! chit-chatted again in the train. actually wanted to meet S at rooftop. but scared reach there late & go back late. then kena scolding. dont want lahh. reached home at bout 10pm. didnt get any scolding. that was the 3rd time i got back as late as that! hahaha! next time muz try going back at 11pm! yeeaaapppyyyy! lols. okae naq; i'll mark your words ehk! make sure i'll have another chance to meet hym. one fine dae. INSYAALLAH. ;))) if NOT...... hahahahhh! ehh babes; i'm misssinnggg all of you alreaddyyy!! i dont wanna go skol tomoorrrooww!!! ;((
Labels: will i have that chance again or will i not....
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Tuesday, October 20, 2009
heyy peepz. its 12.08 & im still awake! hahah! it rhymes!
haiz. cant go to bed. all bcoz of MUM!! you know wad she did??!!
you know wad SHE DID??!!! she juz came bck juz now at 10.30pm..
i was watching SOLVED & eating fries.. chilling out.. cant wait for tmrw..
them SUDDNELY she said "yana.. juz now i got wad.. lee min ho ah?? ahh yah! i got hys ticket to the press conference at raffles hotel.."
i started to FREAK out & jump upp & dwn! i know the was a lil earthquake.. but WHO CARES?!!
its LEE MIN HO; MY BOYF you're talking about!! "then? then? then???" i said..
"but i gave it to my fren already.. since its only one.. o thought you wouldnt want to go!" blood rushed upp & i got FREAKING MAD! how could she gave it away juz lyk that?! she knows im head over heels wit hym!! "why idnt you calll me or anytink??" i said. she told me she tried umpteen times but couldnt get thru me.. (well its the hp's fault!! hp SOT alreadi!!) STOOPID hp!! aniwae i was busy in the kitchen since afternoon.. ;(( sadded siaaaaa!!! then suddenly a question pooped out! "how come you can get the ticket?? to the press conference somemore!! i was searching high & low for the etude party ticket.. but ended upp the nearer one got it first! press conference sommore!!! how UNFAIR!" she told me that since she's the executive, all wit the higher ranks get the ticket! wth?? omg!! SOOO UNFAIR!!! ;(((((((((((( mum said she would try & ask back her fren for that ticket. (she didnt know its TOMORROW!!) i FREAKED OUT once again & threw the fries & stomped my wae to my room & locked the door. conacted aqilah but couldnt get thru. called ros instead. a few mins later, aqilah texted me. put dwn the phne 7 called aqilah. complained everytink to her & told her how freaking pissed off i was. hahah! she somewhat made me laughed. & we planned when & where to meet tmrw. i tld her that i'll cry if i cant to see hym & take a pic wit hym!!! ;((
Labels: ohh god; plz grant me my wish...
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Indah..
Terasa indah..
Bila kita terbuai dalam alunan cinta..
Sedapat mungkin terciptakan rasa..
Keinginan saling memiliki
Namun bila,
Itu semua dapat terwujud
Dalam satu ikatan cinta
Tak semudah seperti yang pernah terbayang..
Menyatukan perasaan....
Tetaplah menjadi bintang dilangit
Agar cinta kita akan abadi
Biarlah sinarmu tetap menyinari alam ini,
Agar menjadi saksi cinta kita
Berdua...
Berdua..
Sudah..
Terlambat sudah...
Kini semua harus berakhir
Mungkin inilah jalan yang terbaik
Dan kita mesti relakan kenyataan ini
Menjadi saksi kita berdua....
why? why? why? i still cant believe that this is happenning!!
she's somewhat blood-related to me! but how could she?
doomsdae.. ohh doomsdae... ;((
Labels: betapa indahnya rasa cinta ini...
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heyheyhey! was damn bored at home! thought wanna watch phobia but somewhat got stucked wit lappy! humphs. got some BAD news!!! wanna cry! ;(((( was trying to cheer myself upp. so did this fun thing! cool ryte? i know.. hehehhehh! haaaaaaiiiiizzz. ohh god; plz answer my prayers. i really need this; pleaasseee. you're the only one that can help me dearest!
Labels: grieve..
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Monday, October 19, 2009
ohhh; f**k that shit upp! i'm juz waiting for my tight slaaappp tmrw! i know i'm a drama mama wadever the hell. but im being SERIOUS ryte here. so many things happened lately & i'm getting tired of it! it realli made me think that doomsdae's coming REAL SOON. wth? i know its cominnngg. BUT I MEAN REALLLLL SOOONNN. SOONNEERRR THAN SOON alrytes? what do you feel when you've to lose your trust for someone real close to you? well; i'm not talking bout that pathetic frenemy. (opps! did i just called you FRENEMY?) if yes; SORRYY honey! (blueeekkkk!!) back to storyy... what do you feel when you have problems here & there? being busy wit other things.. & then smth else popped upp & made you f**king screwed upp thinking of ways to solve one by one of your obstacles? to add on; you cant even find the ryte SOLUTIONS to your problems!!! how f**king f**ked upp is that??!!!! family had somehow brighten upp the situation & made me go out wit them. i didnt COMPLAIN TO MY MUMMY bout little2 tiny winy things thats happening in school though. they only knew bout other things. & when i come to think of it, i felt that i shouldnt trust anybody anymore starting from todae. why should i; when they would only backstabbed me? when i say anybody means everybody. even those wit blood ties. wit wadever ties knotted together.... i wont... i'm sick & tired of being betrayed & backstabbed... by your own flesh & blood somemore! it makes me feel that i shouldnt EVEN TRUST MY OWN SELF. doomsday's coming as things are getting more & MORE hectic & chaotic!!
Labels: dont forget my 'present' tmrw darlinggg...
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Saturday, October 17, 2009
babe; i juz wan you to know that.... its either YOU'RE STUPID OR DEAF! babe; aku skrg dah TERmkn chilli.. chilli padi ah ehk! sooo; i wanna ask YOU. DID I SAID THAT HE'S GETTING much more HANDSOME NOW OR DID I SAY SOMEBODY ELSE SAID THAT; BECAUSE OF HIS HAIR style?? HUH? YOU TELL ME NOW??!! BABE; IF YOU WANT TO THRASH THINGS OUT.... WIT ME... IN BLOGGG.... MIGHT AS WELL YOU GET THE RIGHT FACTS FIRST ALRYTIES honey? BILE NAK EAVESDROPP PUN LAHH KAN; DGR LAHH BTOL2! jgn nk maen dgr jek... then aft that naek angin sendiri..... pas tu baleekk, on cmpt... BLOGG! wth? niieee kau TER-rase tk niee aku tgh ckp psl kau? ape ahh perasaan kau? kau dah cuba sembahyang smlm?? dah sedar sumer salah silap & dosa2 kau? HUH? masih BLUM?? perh hal?? okae ahh babe; aku tk nk tau knape kau tak nak dgr nasihat aku.. aku blg sama kau... jgn buang mase kau & aku lagi... apa2, KAU DTG JMPE AKU ON TUES & I DARE YOU TO SLAP MY FACE IN FRONT OF EVERYONE ELSE SINCE YOU'RE SO BRAVE TO BLOG ryte?? OKAE; so im waiting to get a tight slap ryte onto my cheeks on tues ah ehkk pompan! i wanna see how GREAT you are... how far you can go... brape TERkutuknye aku dlm hati kau tuu... brape BESARnye dosa aku dgn kau! look at how my sins are to you... that even YOU CANT HAVE LOVE ever again.... correct not wad im saying; gorgeous?? sampai bila mau act innocent babe? dunia niee pun tk lama lagi nk kiamat ahh ehk! everything here has got a LIMIT! wake upp lahh babe! lyk i said, aku tk takut ah ehk dgn kau! aku takut dgn TUHAN jek! aku nlog pun nak TIRU GAYA ENGKAU! best kan tiru gaya orang?? tkde label or law yg mengatakan that a person are not allowed to follow others' personality style! gerek kan?? ya.. ya... i know babe!
Labels: i can be nice but i can be mean too..
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Friday, October 16, 2009
i shouldnt have played wit fire. juz curse me as much as you desire.
that is all i can sae to ALL THOSE who SIMPLY DESPISE ME FOR WHAT I'VE DONE WRONG TO YOU. i know that by saying SORRY doesnt CURE a SINGLE THING & therefore i'm NOT GONNA EVEN SAE sorry to YOU! why should i even feel remorseful when nobody wants me to & people HATE me even more? its good enough that i tried to make things better but you didnt appreciate it at all! in fact; you BECAME MUCH WORSE! didnt it AT ALL HIT A NERVE? kau tk terase ke bile kene tegur? stop pretending being the innocent kid who had juz known how to say A B C! stop all your nonsense & being such a HYPOCRITE. if you really think you're better off without us; then why are you still wit us? cant you juz VOMIT ALL OUT how much you DESPISE us; ME??!! why keep ALL to yourself & then go home & said "mummy2! juz now my friends bullied me!" HUH? crybaby?? why? are you afraid that is actually ONE AGAINST A DOZEN? orang dah ckp, DENGAR!!! jgn plak MASUK TELINGA KIRI KLUAR TELINGA KANAN! orang NIAT baek; kau pikir maen2! stakat psl CINTA? EHH! HEELLLOOO! most of US here ARE SINGLE! ape problem kau?? kau LAWA perh! pegi lahh carik jantan! tinggal carik jek kan? dibandingkan antare kau dgn kteorg, kau kan LAGI LAWA! mamat SLALU mintak ur number! kau jek yg JUAL MAHAL! ape lagi yg kau nak ahh? you're GOT A PERSONALITY DISORDER perh?? dahh lahh no ORIGINALITY. lagi nak KEEP ON BLAMING OTHERS! YES, aku ade ADMIT AKU TAK PERFECT! AKU ADE BANYAK DOSA! PUAS HATI KAU?? HUH? KAU TUU; DAH CERMIN DIRI LUM?? DAH BAGUS AKU CKP BAEK AHH EHK! YOU WANT PLAY DIRTY; I CAN GET DIRTY AHH EHK. YOU WANT ME TO TALK PROPERLY & RESPECT YOU ALSO CAN AHH. its juz YOU. cant you see; the pureness of somebody's heart? & how different is it is wit a decomposed heart? let me tell you smth; you live life doesnt mean its only for LOVE. it got smth even MORE! even DEEPER! skrg nie hidup kau mcm ikan tak bermaya ehk? tak, kan? okae kan? sihat walaafiat! alhamdullilah! thanks to HIM. nie kau bile nak bertaubat? kiamat nak dkat oii! pegi lahh ambik air wudhu, sembahyang! suci kan lahh hati tuu! klau dah tk sabar sngt, pegi lah buat pengumuman & sing that song! SKRG AKU BLG KAU, JGN NK UAT DARAH AKU UPP! TAK PUAS HATI dgn org; JGN NK BLOG2 plak! NIE AKU BLOG PUN NK BGI KAU RASE MCM ANE AKU RASE! BDH! NK CARIK PSL TK TGK ORANG! TAK TGK DIRI! KANG AKU BAGIIIIIII........ HISH! tkpe2! kite tgk sape yg endd upp nangis nanti! =PPPPPP aku ckp baek2 salah, aku ckp kasar2 pun salah! dahh; aku nak chiao, pegi ambik wudhu & sembahyg! TERLAMPAU BNYK DOSA2 aku nieeee......
Labels: its good enough that i talked to you properly n nicely..
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hey. hey. juz got back. shopping sprrreeeee! wth? damn beat ryte now. went queenswae & vivo wit aqilah. shopping for bro's present was EASY coz he's NOT FUSSY at all. bought for him a NIKE black & lime green street soccer boots. humphs. had a superr GREAT time wit aqilah. but SUPERR TIRING coz didnt find the PERFECT present for sis at vivo! went upp & dwn. left & ryte. in & outt of shops. confused & stressed upp! hahah! all bcoz of my PICKY & FUSSY sister! ishk! T_T situation was chaotic when kak regina & abg faz called to checked outt wad should we get for sis. the three of us were at three different malls LOOKING for sis's bdae present! omg! hahah. we went MAD juz to look for her presents!! aqilah laughed went she saw me freaking out on the phone! LOLS. at laz decided to get her MNG top & FOREVER 21 blouse. hope she'll LOVE it. me & aqilah decided to lepakk at level 3 & glare at the dark sky. what a beautiful scene! it was 7.15pm. we sat & chatted bout lotsa things. we shared secrets wit S. hope it'll stay forever wit S. ;)) at 8.05pm we chiao. took train back home. had to change train to bb. aqilah went back. took bus home. sleepy. was thinking how to hide the presents! reached home & quietly tipped toed into my room. bro was unconsciously sleeping in the living room wit the tv watching him! XD thought he was pretending but he DIDNT! LUCKY for me! quickly hid the presents into my cupboard. =DD
Labels: ohh my; why do i still think bout that incident?
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Thursday, October 15, 2009
what would you do.... when someone you've known for 15 years.. someone you had spent your childhood with.. someone who shares his last piece of tidbit with you when he actually wants it all.. someone whom you once shared your secrets with.. someone who you always joke around with.. someone who you once adored.. someone who had won your mum's heart to be her son-in-law.. same as his mum too! but ryte after PSLE.... ryte after both of you go into sec sch.. both of you started to ignore each other. started doing own things. when you're doing smth; he'll purposely scold you for being naughty.. but the fact is that you're innocent! =S then you started to HATE him. every single time you see him & all thing he did; you despise him even more. after 2 & 1/2 years you didnt see him, you get meet him on hari raye. ignored each other. (wth?) then one fine dae..... 2 weeks after raye.. you had a strange feeling that you would meet somebody on that dae. you laughed at yourself. went out to a shopping mall. as you walked & talked to your aunt, then........ you suddenly look at the escalator. you saw a guy. you were blurish & your heart was lyk "hey! its him... in uniform.. with a girl... in uniform.. & he's holding a baby." ohh. okae.you said to yourself. "A BABY?!! UNIFORM?! HIM????!!!!! WHHHHHAAATTTT???" then you saw him staring ryte at you. you start to panick. legs start to shake. =X you juz jeling at him & continued walking. WHO WAS THAT GIRL? why is she wit him?? you heart felt different. something lyk HURT. as you walked, you realised that actually he was wit his SISTER too. he's holding her baby. & there's a girl wit the same uniform as him. & an unknown lady beside his sister. you've got no choice & juz salam his sister. had a small chat. then you saw he was looking directly into your eyes when you look upp. "WOW! look at how tall he is ryte now! should be 175+!" your heart whispered. the girl had the LOST expression. & you quickly regained your smile & said bye. as you walked up the escalator, he turned & look at you. you cant stop feeling paiseh & CRUSHED. for some reason, you kept having the flashback of what had JUST happened recently & the wae he looked at you. your aunt was talking to you but you didnt even hear & until... she said "YANA! you dengar tak what i'm saying?? apesal ni? muke mcm tk okae jek?" you went totally blank & said "huh? ohhh... tkde! ouch! sakit ah perut! dari pagi ade stomach cramps! ishk!" (giving that sick look & bend dwn a lil) =PP till now... you kept having that FLASHBACK! you have an invitation wit your family to his house for a kenduri this sundae. TO MEET HIM AGAIN?? should you or should you NOT? what will you do?? what do you think the feeling was? you have not seen him for the longest time & it couldnt be jealous; could it? -_-"
Labels: what do you think???
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Wednesday, October 14, 2009
yaaaiiikkss!! tmrw d&t & core lit ppr 2. LAST dae of exam babe!!! lyk cant concentrate studying ryte now! kept tinking bout the FUN im goonna have later on!! hehehehhhh! so many exciting events that's gonna happen within these 3 mths & im ssssooooo FREAKKINNGG exciteddd babe! =DDD humphs. currently MSG-ing addeeeepp & NOT studyingg! RABAAAKK ehks! tsk3! =S juz now ryte after physics ppr, went to cnteen for breakfast. then went locker took d&t stuffs wit ros. then went to wm. called nisa & decided to lepak at her hse. ate KIMCHI wit rice. kwang3! XDDD then watched syurga cinta... AGAIN!!! haiyyyooo! then it started to drizzle. then rained HEAVILY. went bck at 4pm & i was drenched! got back; received lotsa calls! sumer ajak kluar! i was lyk "hold on! hold on! i've got 1 more dae to go! juz let me do my LAST 2 papers & then... I'M ALL YOURS babe!" hahahahhh! hung upp the phone & called granny. she asked me to tagg her along to the bank. usual stuff lahh. =P then mum called. asked go order cake! now then wanna panic @ the disco you know! ishk! so went to wm & ordered choco banana cake. ssssshhhhh! *whispering* its for bro-cum-sis-cum-granny's bdae celebration!!!! hehehehehehhhhhh! gerekk ryte?! i know! =DD bought bro a puma blue t-shirt & cosmetic stuffs for sis. as for granny; smth SPECIAL. heheheh! wont tell you! =PPP humphs. i juz cant wait for 24th nxt wk & 1st next mth!!! ;))))
Labels: i wanna know ; what am i to you babe?
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Wednesday, October 7, 2009
Have you ever known anyone who constantly, compulsively seeks attention from an outward source??? Who always speaks in definitive; aye, beyond definitive but into infinitives? T_T Who must always be the expert in every known malady, situation & opportunity? Someone who interrupts tales of woe to report their own dire tales of more devastating woe? Who cannot be told anything new? Who; when not receiving attention, uses past instances of attention to seek it? Have you ever known anyone who seems to be a fathomless well of the worst and the best of everything which the human race is guilty or capable...??
well, if you have; then the best solution is??
hmmm; These people are best taken in small doses, followed by cleansing, blessed loneliness.
Labels: what a FINE solution.
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my eyes hurts. hurts so much that it felt as though i've juz finished grieving. T_T soooo DRY!!! put some eyedrops during class interaction (actually; it bcame MATHS!) freakinnnggggg stressed out wit maths here & there! =S tired & moody for 2hrs. humphs. now is counted as relaxing time. though of sleeping. but perhaps later. wanna update blog since its been sooo longg since i blogged bout my daily lyfe. well; laz weekend was SUPERRR GEREKKK lahh. on fridae, right after eng ppr; frenz & i went jln raye. got home at 10.10pm. hmm. saturdae didnt follow them go jln raye but went out wit family instead. went JB. got home at 11pm. watched movies wit mum till duno wad time. on sundae woke upp late. as usual; mum kept nagging! =0 received phone calls. got visitors coming over. tidyy upp the hse & fill in all the empty bottles of kuih. then at 4.45pm, we went out. sis didnt follow. we went jln besar stadium to watch the sultan of selangor's cup 2009. there were the veterans. thats why mum & dad suddenly wanna watch footbal. wth? 0.o but COOL ah. WATCH LIVE! hehehe. selangor SUCKS big time! they were very proud at first. mentang2 ade ramai supporters! but in the end they LOSE! both for the veterans & the main match! =PPPPPPPPP LOSERRRRSSSS! singaporeans kutuk dorg RABAAAKKK2 i tell you!!!! padannnn muke! =DDD heheh. then this WHOLE week; starting to feel the TENSE. the EXAMS r coming SOON! NOOOO!!!! TMRW!!!!!! OMG!!!
Labels: sometimes; i tink i'm juz too jealous...
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Thursday, October 1, 2009
supposed to be studying... but ended upp listening to songs... that realli soothes my mind & my soul! for once i felt very calm & stress-free. plugging in earpiece means i cant even listen to wad they're saying. wad for listen when it only hurts you? might as well have hearing disorder then listening to those hurtful words. i know i used to be different. getting more sensitive these daes. but wth? i'm also a human being! i have feelings! i can get angry. i can cry. i can smile. i can go crazy. i am not a non-living thing! do you know that you are sooooo careful of the BIG words that you didnt realised that THOSE SMALL WORDS hurt me even more! you SPEAK WITHOUT EVEN thinking! i am not perfect. i know i have flaws. IN FACT, A LOT OF FLAWS! that is wad you wanna hear; am i ryte?? yeah2.. you're the only one thats PERFECT in the world. WOW! round of applause for you huh!
p/s ; if you've tried your very best.. but you didnt succeed, wad would you do??
you shut the world dwn & kill yourself.. or juz ctinue wit lyfe.....?
Labels: sometimes i try to be nice n sometimes i try to be mean..
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