Friday, February 26, 2010
alryte; my brain was REALLY ABSORBED the whole week bcoz of tests here & there.. so i decided not to go for nyte study todae & instead treat myself wit korean movie marathon! ;)) humphs. juz finished sobbing.. heheh! dun worry; was juz watching Millionaire's First Love. goshh! supppperrrr SAD & TOUCHINGG !! about the same as koizora! haizz... hyun bin was such a gentleman in the show! wished i would get a guy lyk that guy! ;)) alryte2... shouldnt get too excited bout it! by tmrw my mindset should be back to STUDY MODE; wookeys? T_T humphs. muz make FULL USE of tonight! thats ALL i wanna sae! toodles! ;DDLabels: time flies SO FAST without realising it....
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Tuesday, February 23, 2010
sorry didnt post. was outz wit gfs on sat. movie-marathon that nite till 3pm. then sundae spring-cleaned the house knowing they'll be back home. had an impromptu ria big bash... it dragged till bout 11.30pm & sis & i had to take taxi back home. reached home at bout 12am & was damned sleepy. washed upp & went to bed. mondae morning woke upp & had a headache. was too exhausted to go for maths LSP & training. but somehow dragged myself to go. & todae was supposed to have core lit LSP. but then cancelled coz teachers got meeting. went back at bout 3 plus? 4pm? then did a lil hmwk & dozed off. replenish myself & woke upp wit headaches again! ;S tomorrow onwards gonna be a hectic one.. wit tests on the wae!! geezzzz...Labels: i cant feel a single thing when i look at hym now..
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Friday, February 19, 2010
alryte; juz got back from nyte study at school. did MT for todae. ;)) humphs. i guess i can understand better on how to answer types of questions. & thanks ehh for leaving me in the lurch nisa & ros! lucky i ended upp wit nadiah & sayidah! nvm2! tmrw you both owe me your dae ehk! idk uhh... must tau! tmrw aku tk jdi ikut balek kampung. im sorrie... i noe i should grief about hym being sick.. but... lagipun kereta tk muat! biarlah me & sis enjoy kat sini! *winkk2!* im not going for MT though... since i already went for it juz now... so instead i'll be having tuition at hme & when its done i'll be outz all wayy till nyte! hope plan goes well! ;DD ohhya! anybody interested to join me tmrw juz text tau! hehehh! kae2! gtg! toodles! ;))im sorry i wasnt brave enough to tell you how i really felt; coz i thought that you would think im being unreasonable. ;((
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Thursday, February 18, 2010
wookeyy. ive got back my motivations. thnks to the brainwashing sleep laz nyte & also thnks to mr donavan lau & ms kelly chia! ;)) they made me realise ive got to think of my future & they motivated me to study hard for O's. todae was.... errmmm... FULL OF ENDURANCE... but at the same time.. FUN; at the very end! coz i get to hang out wit people i didnt hang out wit before.. gossiping bout JERKS.. stuff lyk that... hilang sekejap all my problems. ;)) we should do it again shouldnt we?? *wink2!* also get to focus during english & physics! proud of myself! for the first time i see mr donavan lau so hyper & the best part is that i can understand what he is teaching!! i have BIG plans coming on the wayy.. tmrw im planning to go for the nyte study programme & study chem & maths? or chem & physics? or juz chem? im not sure yet coz what i know is that now i only hav to panic for science coz i alr hav a tutor for maths! sat... going for MT xtra class from 10am-12pm then 1.30pm maths tuition... humphs! muz make organizer alr! i muz keep this spirit till the very end & things will be fine! (it may be easy literally but actions shows it all!) so i gotta prove it!! you wait............ i'll prove to you one dae! ;))
ohh btw; NAME ME... thnks for making me laugh when i read ur taggie.. entah ape yg klakarnye entah! ;P free ehh bace org nye blog? confirm use the lappy & click on my url ryte?? eiggghh! *syed azmir* = one beegmegmeel ! huh... if im not wrong... ;PP hahah!
Labels: was i too cruel to ignore her juz now?
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Wednesday, February 17, 2010
shit lahh all these CRAPS! i know lahh who am i compared to her ryte?? you can TRUST her so mch better than you can trust me! i know you can only talk nicely to her & not me ryte?? i know im useless already! my lyfe's boringgg! i cant even update any HOT news bout myself & things lyk that... i know im not attached! lyk WTH? its not a BIG issue to me... but klau korang asyik ckp psl all these BGR things... how would ppl lyk me or ila or the single ladies feel?? hell yeah; i know i lack in all the foctors you all have ryte? lyk you have 70% & i have 68% ryte?? lyk what alif said; lyfe's UNFAIR! lyk vinod said.... GOD's too busy in the "air-con room" to care bout all these things! okae, aku blg skrg! aku ENVY! aku JEALOUS! aku bingit! BINGIT WIT EVERYTHINK! baek kat rumah.. baek kat mane2 pun! aku benci dgn hidup aku skrg! aku benci dgn all the things i hav to go thru everydae! all the things i hear everydae! aku benci aku tk sepandai those ppl! aku BENCI! PHM TK?? you noe how mch i hate being unable to juz go on wit lyfe in this skol & study hard juz for a few more mths? ckp mcm senang.... tpi nk buat tuu.... hanya tuhan yg tahu! plz uhh ehhk! aku sorry klau aku hurt sape2 nye feelings yg bace this post or sape2 yg bace ni naek angin... im juz letting out all my bottled upp feelings! aku dah takleh take it already! im breaking out... i dun wanna stay in this skol alr!! ;(( cpat lahh habes O's!! cpat lahh graduate!! cpat lahh jmpe kwn baru! cpat lahh graduate! cpat lah keje! cpat lah! CPAT!!! urghh!!! & btw lepas ni kat skola korang tlg JGN TNYE ANYTHINK BOUT THIS POST. i WONT TALK bout this! & i guess if at skol aku tk lyn korang pun phm2 jee uh. i need my space. i need my time. i need my peace. i need to concentrate. I NEED MY CENTRE.Labels: I FREAKING KNOW ALRYTE?? tk perlu nk blg aku...
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Tuesday, February 16, 2010
gosshh. im sooo confused! everythink also cnfused! urgh! i guess its okae for me to get confused wit the way hys treating me juz now! why muz girls alwaes jump into conclusions EASILY? & why girls easily gets jealous & heartbroken THAT easy?? i know its not applied to ALL... but... yeah! WHY?? why cant girls; in other words, ME... juz go ryte straight to hym & ask what am i to hym? why is he treating this way to me when he said he's into somebody else? the next issue is... WHY AM I EVEN THINKING BOUT ALL THESE THINGS? im supposed to be focusing on O levels.. shit lahh! talking bout O's can make me pee in the pants! lols. but NO okae! juz literally saying it. ;PP can i not take O's? can i juz end school & rot at home & wait for parents to marry me off? WOW. so LEGEND or OLDIES. whatever it is ppl sae it lahh. lols. when i think back, NOOOOO!! i dun want!!!! urghhh.... STRESS nyee.... suddenly got reminded of a FREN. somebody whom i dun really noe much. he had left me suddenly; juz lyk that. but hys advice were alwaes in my mind. "dun be too stress alwaes... solve your problems slowly.." this isnt the EXACT words he used but its smth lyk that uh.. humphs... wonder how he's been?? why did he suddenly vanished? why didnt he keep hys words? ;((Labels: what am i to you ? a substitute isit ?
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Sunday, February 14, 2010
nothing much going on... fridae had cross country... not so bad since i decided not to run competitively! brisk-walked wit rushy & aqilah instead... after everythink end, went home straight & took a nap! heheh! damn sleepy! woke upp then go out wit family. that nyte i had a very late sleep. was tv-marathoning! ;PP then ystdae nothing much too... had tuition early in the morning at 9am till lyk 11am? then chillex. granny arrived & mum insisted that i should cook lunch. humphs. i didnt wanna go all rice & gravy... so i made baked cheese potatoes wit sausages... tv-marathon again.... then todae.... woke upp & bathed. had breakfast & watched tv. at noon, mum started nagging already. asked me to cook again. T_T so i cooked ayam masak merah & stir-fry veggie. yeapp; simple dish. i thought my agony was done. but at 4pm, they all were craving for tea-snacks! kaysiao i tell you! wanna watch vasantham central also cannot! hehehhh! XD dragged myslef to the kitchen & took out the frozen donuts & keropok lekor & juz fry them! lazyy already! while frying, i peeped at the tv! ;DD all the wayy i was tv-marathoning till now... i know; my lyfe is boring ryte now! in morning actually wanna go swimming... but then nobody to teman! ;(( then ltr sis planned to go watch movie... wads the title ehk? the one wit jackie chan inside? i forgot lahh.. heheh! wanna watch valentine's day but perhaps wait for my frens & we go tgther! ;)) humphs; tmrw family plan to go JB.. still havent do hmwk how to go out?? goshh! deee.... dont be lazzzyy lahhh!!! tuesdae somemore not free... going to ros's house for her CNY openhse... haiz!
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Friday, February 12, 2010
heyy. nisa requested that i should update my bloggie.. so here i am! humphs. when was the last tme i posted? 2 daes? 3 daes ago isit? i remembered how shitty i was! sucks to the core! todae was another thing! i saw smth i really dun want to!! blame my environs! is it juz me? or does it apply to all gurl; whenever we see the guy we like/love is flirting wit somebody else... all i know is that i tend to get envious/jealous easily without thinking whether its reliable or not! idk whether this is good or not.. but i hope this wont go far coz at another point of view; its kinda of not worth it.. waste of time! shitz. now im having flashbacks of that incident. together wit the song im listening to.... & nisa's post... all jumbled upp! haiz... i know these things hav nth to do wit each other... but; it makes me soo sadd! ;(( urghh! tak worth it! tak worth it! TAK WORTH IT!!! plzzzzzzz...... JUZ GET LOST!! SERIOUSLY! i hate you for making me becoming lyk this!! im hopelessly hopeless! Labels: i cant handle these environs ...
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Tuesday, February 9, 2010
alryte; im not gonna care bout whether i constantly use english in this post coz im juz gonna let everythink out.... i feel soooo.... different! as thought as there's another soul controlling everythink that i've been doing. i duno why i became so 'SUFFOCATED', having to bottle upp everythink when i usually tell AT LEAST 1 of them how i really felt... but these daes... idk! is it bout trust issues? or is it bout them; trying to distant themselves from me? or it it JUZ my negative cells trying to make things complicated?? or is it... i want to share; but idk whats the ryte phrases to use & collaborate them into a nice piece of sentence that could actually express the way i REALLY feel! i remembered the first few weeks skol started my lyfe juz fine! sempurna but sederhana! tak phm diam! its juz the wayy i liked it! but... how did i end upp myself in this position? what? when? how? & the main thing is WHY??? whats my BIG PROB ryte now?? JEALOUSY?? TRUST? damn it. i really hate the thoughts im having ryte now! the flashbacks i have ryte here in my brain.... feel lyk wanting to juz time a bomb & explode this COMPLICATED brain! whats the purpose of making me think bout things that are unnecessary & only makes things WORSE? wouldnt it be GREAT if you could make me good in thinking how to solve a difficult maths problem sums or scientific questions?? yeah2... next thing you're gonna say is "dah bgs kau ade ......(blablabla) rather then you dun have ......(blablabla) ! urghhhhh!!! LYFE's SOOOOOOOO UNFAIR & COMPLICATED! plz dun talk to me bout 'ade hikmah di sebalik ini semua' coz im fcking SICK & TIRED LISTENING TO THE SAME OLD LINE OVER & OVER AGAIN !!!
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Monday, February 8, 2010
was only hyper in the first few periods. then started to feel a lil shitty. feel so sick & tired of my daily routine. juz lyk laz time i used to feel this wae. haiz. ohhya! mk & wan got back to class during chem! everyone was busy figuring out how to answer the chem test paper & suddenly a loud bang on the door. the first thing i thought was "waaa... which idiot duno how to knock the door properly?? people having test here & they knock the door lyk what only!" looked upp & saw them going the class. naq & ros looked at happi & smiled. understood why they did so! ;)) humphs.. okae.. back to my topic.... SICK & TIRED! physically & mentally! but i think i can at least STILL take the physically! but NOT MENTALLY! i really need to break my negative paradigm! but the thing is that ive tried too hard to do so but i STILL CANT!! ;(( what should i do?? i cant change the situation! i cant do ANYTHINK but to ONLY change myself & adapt to it! haizzzzzz....... SOMEBODY.... plz come & rescue me! call 911.. (singapore is 955) hehehh! kae2 lahh... gtg! TC!Labels: so many thoughts on my mind and .....
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Thursday, February 4, 2010
wanted to go out todae but SOMEBODY stood me upp! ;(( now im juz sitting in front of the lappy & surfing the net. todae i dun wanna think or even do any hmewk! i will only do it tmrw & sundae. so people... plz dun tell me i dun have time for you guys to go out coz i already labelled todae as my free dae but SOMEBODY cancelled it! NOT MY FAULT huh! last nyte went for ngaji & saw lil cuzzies! im amazed at how big they've grown! hahahh! OBVIOUSLY; coz i havent seen them for bout... 2 weeks? guess so... humphs! hectic... hectic.. hectic! tmrw also hav to go bck skol for that mdm azizah's class.. lucky im gonna have my first tuition tmrw morning so im NOT going! ;DDDD but at the same point of time im sad coz i couldnt accompany granny for her checkup! its been ages since i spent quality time wit her!! i miss her BADLY. i need her ryte now!! spending time wit her is the only wae to make me in cloud 9 & forget all my littlest probs! GOSH! nvm2. ltr i go her house. can meet lil cuzzies & play wit them too! ;)) wan: hahahh! tau ajee lpas tuu aku ketawe! ;DD bnyk kau punye bgs ehk! you're bhind time babe! but its okae... you ALWAES HAVE US to ask for help tau! ;))Labels: 12 ....
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Wednesday, February 3, 2010
urgh! im SUPER STRESS-OUT RYTE NOW !!! i need to study for hist & maths test tmrw! need to do weekly planner by fridae! d&t folio by fridae! maths AQAD by fridae! EVERYTHINK FRIDAE!! still got tmrw?? NO! NO! tmrw will be bck hme LATE & at nyte got ngaji !!! HEELLLPPPP!!!! i feel lyk my mind's gonna explode soon & ms chia's words playing in my head; "THIS IS JUST THE BEGINNING" wth?? HOW? HOW? HOW??? idk wad to do now... i mean i cant even think what to start with first! URRGGGHHH!!! den all the littlest things also "haunting" me & making me fed upp! seriouslyyy......... im ANGRY AT EVERYONE RYTE NOW.
Labels: lyfe's UNFAIR . it had NEVER been FAIR to me .
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Tuesday, February 2, 2010
had been doing stoopid things for the past 2 daes in skol! hahahh! nisa noe why! theres no need for me to elaborate further! hehehh! ;PP hmphs. juz hope that herwan & mk would get awae this time! gonna pray hard that it'll be close case! after this must make sure all them dont do anythink STOOPID liao! must focus on the BIG O's!! after that you all wanna do anythink stoopid its your problem alreadyy lahh... alrytes? ;DD im glad that history was postponed to thursdae! at least have more time to study! i was seriously panicking laz nyte!! =S then this morning announce no test todae! cool or what? history students were jumping for joy! ;DD errrr..... what else ehk wanna blog? lazzyyy lahh wanna write bout all the things happened! but then; i really had a great time wit frens! ;))Labels: i miss somebody .... but ive to endure juz for the sake of my future ...
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