Thursday, April 29, 2010
Heheh. Hello. ;)) today was another dae whereby i use all logically reasons to answer all the qns i had in my mind. Goshh. Whats wrong wit me man? Think about all e things that r unanswerable. & todae is e dae whereby im alwaes being unheard n being left alone! Take for example now.... All of my family members r in MIA. im alone. Im afraid. There's nobody i can lean on physically n mentally. This is the time whereby im having illusions. Hahahhh. Stupid brain. Make me shiver only! Geeezzz!
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Tuesday, April 27, 2010
Haiz.. Im in physics extra class now. Its freaking hot. Ive endured it since morning doing MT PRELIM n i cant take it anymore. I need to get out from here. Cant even focus... Grrrrrrr! My eyes have seen so many things todae. I dun wanna see those things anymore. But by doing so, i may be selfish n hurt someone else. I guess i should juz keep quiet. Huh? What? What were u saying? I didnt hear anythink. Yeapp guess i should be like that. I should stay numb. Yeah ryte... Numb! Thats the best wae. My heart is too weak to go thru too many things. I pity u my heart. Ure not well taken care of & often get hurt. Im sooo sorry dearest heart. I promise things will nvr be the same again. We should change. Yeah, change. Thats the best solution to avoid u from being in situation that is useless.....
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Monday, April 26, 2010
didnt went to school todae. i had food poisoning i guess... as soon as i woke upp my head was spinning. my legs were wobbly. felt like wanting to vomit. went to toilet. bathe. thought it was nth serious. prepared myself to go for school. then my stomach made a chaos. went in & out from the toilet. i was already late for school. gave upp & lied down on my bed. dad panicked. hahah. told hym that i was ok & that he was running late to send mum to work. not long after, chaos again. vomit. vomit again. tossing & turning trying to make the pain go awae. felt asleep till like 12nn? when i woke upp my body was feeling very warm but my toes was cold & my head was spinning again. reached for my pencil box & took out my thermometer. 40 degrees. wanted to eat smth. but my dad only made tea without sugar. yucks. soo bitter. then again chaos in the toilet. didnt dare to eat so as i was feeling bored, i took a novel i borrowed last week. since i have to return back soon so why not i fill my time wit reading? so.. i got to finish 2 novels. sweet ending. ;)) but are there any, in reality? sighs. grandma called me. asked me if i wanted anythink so that she could buy for me smth since she cooked curry & i shouldnt be taking spicy stuffs. told her i dun want anythink & she ticked me off. bro came home wit doughnuts saying it was from granny. then mum called & asked hows my condition. & told me that she'll bring home some medication for me since i was lazy to go clinic. hehehhh. thats the advantage of having someone in the family who is working in the hospital. ;))
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Sunday, April 25, 2010
Im speechless. That incident is still fresh in my mind. Why did he do that? Was that juz casual to hym? Or there's smth else hidden behind it? Idk. Ive been trying hard not to think much about it. Not to get any deeper. Dun want to hurt my precious heart. Haiz. Ive got to organize my time. Make myself real busy so that i wouldnt even think bout anythink else. Hmphs....
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Thursday, April 22, 2010
Tonight im posting again thru my phone. That explains e colourless n default fonts. Hmmmpppphhhs. Been thinking bout lotsa things lately. Things ard me make me wonder so much. Haiz. Andainya semalam tidak wujud, akan diusir sebuah kehampaan menjadi mimpi yang indah.. Namun alangkah payah mengusir sebuah kehampaan kerana semalam bukanlah satu perhentian yang sempurna....
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Wednesday, April 21, 2010
i simply don't understand guys these days. where have all the strong & gentlemen gone to? married? taken? or extinct? grrrr... seriously... im soo freaking irritated wit guys! no all... but i really can't get why THEY'RE SOOO FREAKING SENSITIVE!!! even girls nowadays are not like that! can you believe that a guy actually threw hys fit juz bcoz i passed hys wksht bck in a harsh way.. (to hym lahh) its funny that he thinks that im not happy wit hym but in the actual fact i was juz too lazy & tired to get upp & pass it to hym! & ros who was in front of me were busy talking to syimah... so? still think its my fault? why, when i did that to other peepz like my girlfriends, they're not hurt or whatever shit? goddamnit! its juz a freaking piece of paper! its not as if i step on your head or your books ryte? gooossshh! don't understand it man. don't you know ALOT OF PEEPZ are already irritated wit that ATTITUDE & LOUD VOICE OF YOURS??!!
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then... im recently irritated wit guys who like to disturb me soo much. they would call me names. since last year. i had longg tolerated since they're juz being childish & i understand that one of them cant help it since he's born superhyper. cant blame hym. i do pity hym actually. but juz sometimes... it really gets into my nerves! im kinda glad that one is gone. never gonna haunt me wit the words i hate so much. but at the same time i pity my fren who had lost hys presence. haiz... why? why me? it doesnt mean that when im quiet or juz nod wit what they say, im fine wit it.. come on! im still a HUMAN BEING alryte? I DO HAVE FEELINGS! & I REALLY HATE TO BE CALLED NAMES THAT I DO NOT LIKE!
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there's also this trend going on lately... first started off wit one. then two. then the rest follows. RUBBISH! the guys are seen wit earings on BOTH their ears.. not juz any particular guys! but MALAY GUYS! maybe not from my class or stream thou. but they were making noises & creating a big scene; JUZ TO ATTRACT ATTENTION. who doesn't know that?? why would they do it if not so? grrr.... freaking annoying! all these things only make others look down on the malay community. why are all these things happening??!! i really think its PURE CRAP! the world is really gonna end.... soon! who to blame? THE HUMAN BEINGS. Labels: PURE CRAP....
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Tuesday, April 20, 2010
im getting more & more sleepy in skol these... plus the hot weather... its making me go lazzyy! =S where have all my motivations i had in term 1 gone to?? since when i started lazing around? goshh. having tests the whole week makes me thinking... what made me slackk AGAIN?? sheessshh. im trying to find my motivations to study again. but how? the people around me thinks im too tensed & are trying to hard... but i think otherwise! i have already flunk my maths test on mondayy.... MAJOR PROBLEM since its counted... ;(( urghhh!! regretted for not studying properly... was too busyy finishing upp d&t that had to be passed on monday! haizzz... its pointless to regret now... at least i still have time to change before the REAL one comes! ;)) Labels: majority of e world think e other way., thats what you think.... but typically
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Saturday, April 17, 2010
i hate being e one... i hate to be thinking bout things i dun want to! who do i have to blame? no one... juz no one... can you juz stop & shut upp? stop saying it... it hurts so much! i may appear calm & numb... i may even smile & laugh at what you said.. but do you know what am i holding on deeply inside? how deep you stabbed my heart.. you think i asked for it? you tried.. tried to help... but it doesnt work! its hopeless now...
Labels: they dun understand my grieve...
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Tuesday, April 13, 2010
weeeeeeeeeee..... i love tonight ! ;DDD feel like wanna go out & play wit the rain ! i love e rain... but when im enjoying my dae out in the sin & it suddenly pour, i hate it! but for tonight.... i love it the BEST! ;DD ohh rain.... if only i could juz fall in love wit you.... life wouldnt be this hard....Labels: psssttt.... not talking bout that hawt korean singer named Rain...
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Sunday, April 11, 2010
i cant help but wait ... & wait ... & wait ... its as though waiting for winter fall in singapore ...
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Friday, April 9, 2010
Hehehh... Helloo! ;) todae im being pampered by the people ard me. ;DD i love this feeling man. Its as though im e only child n i get everythin even without asking for it! Mum bought me 2 pairs of charles & keith shoes.. Heheh! At first we were only looking for hers.. She got 2 pairs.. Then at the cashier counter she asked "you dun want any?" lols! I was really shocked coz usually i'll be the one asking her for things n not vice versa. I was blurish... So i said "huh? You sure? Pick any??" she nodded n i right awae look for a pair.. Pssstt! Wanna noe smth? My dad do have taste in choosing shoes you know! The second pair was chosen by hym! Hehehh! Soo happyy... But at the same time i pity sis n bro, sis went dating.. Bro got ncc.. Too bard lahh... ;PP
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Thursday, April 8, 2010
ok, im freaking sleepy & exhausted. i guess its bcoz of the 3 tournaments straighr in a week. humphs. im relieved that its finally the end. next week i can focus on my studies fully. insyaallah. ;) i will try to make myself very busy going for LSP & consultations. the first priority will be given to MT of course! ;DD followed by chem.. physics.. then maths... then all the rest! ;DD however, i kinda feel sad thinking of the people i wont be seeing anymore after i graduate... i mean we can! but it'll be difficult lah.. haiz! im realllyy gonna miss everyone! Labels: yo le pierdo....
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Monday, April 5, 2010
hey hello! ;)) had tournament wit first toa payoh sec juz now. the first thing that came in my mind was "goshhh! their PE shirts clashes wit our jerseys!" hahah. went into the skol & they all were staring at us. some pathetic lils minahs were talking bout us. some were even swearing at us. GOSHH! yang paling tak blh angkat is that when naq turned, they were all nerdies wearing LONG SKIRTS! HAHAHAHAHHH! minah rep wannabez kape?? heheh! teringatkan lai guan sekejap! XD the skol was kinda dead. wit not much peepz in & also the dark corridors... quite scary lah. we were doing warm-ups & it was about 30mins before game starts when it started to drizzle. then it got heavier. & guess whats next?? we gotta do "CIP" after the rain stopped. we helped our opponents to clear away the water so that it'll dry faster & nobody will get injured during the game. game started at 4.30pm instead. the only thing i was fascinated about is that they have ROCK CLIMBING as a CCA! gosshhh.. if our skol had one, i would have definitely gone in!! ;DD but too bard... ohhya! the netball girls were FAR much MORE friendly & nice to me than those typical minahz! maybe not to naq.. but yeah, even during the game, we were talking bout random stuffs as though we've long met. ;DD i played only during the second quarter. then for the 3rd & 4th quarter, i took over wani's job; the scorer... was supposed to focus fully on the game.. but still, i was chit-chatting wit FTPs netballers! hahahahh! & i found out that there's a indonesian girl who knows jeremy & is living at serangoon! hahah! the weird thing is that.... we talked.. & talked... & talked.... BUT THEN... we didnt noe each other's name! hahahhah! saje jee ehk? XD well, im alwaes like that uh.. at all games except if the opponent looks so proud! i can even make frens wit strangers like the skol female security guard... so why not wit our opponents? XD hmmphs. then while i was talking wit the scorer for FTP, she showed me their other record scores wit other skols. dalam bnyk2 skolah... yang terkeluar was Bedok South.... ;(( so ermm, in the end we won, it was 44 - 8? well, nice game. hope to see them again. somehow. hahahh! XD
Labels: why ohh why??
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Sunday, April 4, 2010
ohh HEY! how many daes since i last posted? guess what? i nearly forgotten bout this bloggie! it feels like its been a long time since i updated! hahah! been too busy wit homework & homework & TONS OF HOMEWORK! well, this is juz the beginning... its gonna be hard for me if i cant take it for now! so im trying hard to keep a constant pace.. then gradually speed up! i know i can do it! if there's a will, there's a way! ;)) humphs. dearest fren, are you still reading my bloggie? hahah. you know what? everytime i log into blogger, you alwaes come across my mind. humphs. i juz wanna know how have you been & r u coping well wit your studies? have you forgotten bout me or r like you said, you'll remember me forever? yeah, of coz as a fren. lols. why am i even posting bout this? r u even gonna read this? well, i dun think so! what are the chances that you'll read this? hahah. what a fool i am!
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Thursday, April 1, 2010
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