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Monday, August 31, 2009
SOMEBODY CALL 911 !!! hahah! heya peepz! its been a long time since i updated! humphs. todae was teachers' dae celebration dae. baked muffins laz nyte & gave it to mr lee, ms roshini, ms chia & of course; MDM HAMIDAH! =DD the concert was SUPPERR FUUNN... i was sabo-ed by nisa & rosalind for the 'dont forget the lyrics' game! i was lyk WTH? shocked sia! mentang2 naq & i was happily singing all the lyrics... tgh SS ehk... beh dorg kacau! hahah! but lucky somebody else i tink from sec2 stand upp & sang... humphs... saw lotsa seniors. all look different liao. more matured! hahahhah! =X stayed back in skol for awhile... became psycho AGAIN... & then chiao... called yvonne & fandi... but they said they're not coming back pri sch.. so hack care lahh! lalala- supppppeeerrrr duuppppeeerrrr TIRED + THIRSTY + SLEEPY NOW !!! T_T" can dieeee!!!!! wanna SLLEEEEEEEEEEPPPPPPPPP............ but in 30 mins, i gotta prepare for buka.. mum's not home. so do my bro & dad... sis is sleeping & going for nite shift ltr..... BOORRRRiiinnkkkk seyyy!!!! =S tmrw no skol... planned wanna have girls dae-out + 1 guy... hahahhah! if he's free lahh.. he havent cnfirmed yet... haiz... hope he's coming ehk? gerek jgk ade dia! ahahx! XD
Labels: TIRED..........
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Wednesday, August 26, 2009
OMG..... what a dae! juz came bck to skol from a very LONG mc & guess WHAT? teachers threw me tests & tests!! lyk wth? my brain was practically blank & i was still in the mc mood. ahahx! i know its my fault. but then... all they go was "cant be helped! everytink has datelines. we've to key in all the marks by todae." haiyoo... =S such a bad idea of coming todae instead of tmrw. come tmrw i tink no need do test. heeheh! =DD humphs. bored lahh. -_-" what shall i do? wait; i've to get the food ready for buka & then i'll get back to my reading. =DD briliant idea dee! to HELL wit homeworksss........ =PPP
Labels: i cant help myself from drowning into the sea again...
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Monday, August 24, 2009
OMG! OMG! OMGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!! guess wad? guess wad????!!!!!! im soooooo haaappppyyyyyyyy tooooddddaaaeee!!!!!! it was lucky that i checked my mails! if not i wouldnt know that LMH replied me on FB!!!! YYYEEESSSSS; he REPLIED ME IN FB!!!!!! gossshh; felt lyk a million bucks you know!! i was juz strolling when i suddenly saw hys name in my mailbox. clicked on it & needed to sign in FB. & it landed in hys profile where he replied me. i heard he was sick. so i decided to write on hys wall on 16 Aug 09. & he replied on 20 Aug 09 at 5.53pm. though it was LATE & kinda SHORT, but im GLAD! its been umpteen times i've left hym a msg & wrote on hys wall. but to no avail. & now, after i dont care about it so mch, he suddenly show upp & reply. typical huh? humphs. should have been on9 & surfed FB at that point of time! at least can chat wit hym or smth! =S but i was sick. at 5.53pm, i was on my bed sleeping i guess. ohh well, its good i've got hys reply now! simplyyyyy BRIGHTENS UPP MY DAE! =DD i love it! hahah! =Xp/s: &&& he knows i love hym! heheheheh! XP
[ i dont care whether its "fan-love... or really-real-love... =P ]
Labels: i dont care if its real or not. all i know is that you're great in my eyes.
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Sunday, August 23, 2009
to dearest naqie, really2 SORRYYYYYY!!!! bi an ne yo! didnt realise the time & i overslept! =S i know ive cause trouble for you in skol. realllyyyy sorryyyy klau kau kene mrh sbab tak bwk buku 4 whatever subject! aku btol2 tk sengaje..... bi an neeeeee!!!!!!
alryte; i was awoken by a phone call. it was ms wendy? 0.o asked me how was i doing... BLABLABLA! find it sort of irritating coz everydae since laz fridae, the skol office's been calling & calling juz to know how i was doing. they said even if im well already, better stay at home till my mc ends. what a total bore! there's nth mch to do at hme you know!!! =(( & aqilah, you bet i wanna go skol! its juz tat they dont allow me to! haiz... borrrrriiinnnkkkkk!!! been watching videos of LMH at youtube & facebook-ing.... heheheheh! =DD
Labels: no mood to study lerhh....
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Thursday, August 20, 2009
heyheyheyyss... todae is fridae. & im not in skol. =[ got a week mc. at home do what seyy? ive been either sleeping, swallowing pills or reading novels! no more korean movies! boooorrrrriiinnnnggggg nyeeeeee!!!!! currently looking at lee doong woo's FB. he's not that hot lyk wad mum thinks lah! how could she sae that doong woo is wae much better than min ho!! =(( & i have such a bad taste in guys! she saes how could i not lyk doong woo, so pure & natural. not lyk min ho!" wth? ahahx! mentang2 she also watch 'my girl' together wit me.... tsk3! guess wad?? i looked at doong woo's pics; in reality, he's not so hawt lyk in 'my girl' lahh! he keeps a moustache! eyerk! =S hahah! i juz dont really lyk guys wit beard or moustache. =P ohh well, since im bored, im gonna list down from most HAWT to the LEAST HAWT guys! hehehehh.... XD
1. lee min ho
2. daniel henney
3. dennise oh
4. hyun bin
5. kim bum
6. gong yoo
7. lee doong woo
8. kwon sang woo
9. kim hyung joong
10. kim joon =PPPP
alrytes... how bout that?? heheheh! okae lah, gtg! wanna watch 'the partner' now! tata! =)
Labels: hawwwwwwttttt sttuuuuffff....
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Wednesday, August 19, 2009
well now then im down wit REAL fever. but now feeling okae; juz took panadol extras. =D i was wishing to get SICK the week before! but it came todae. wth? this week busy week ehh. tmrw & fri muz cme skol! got tests & fri got bazaar & student conference tingy. not FUN lahh if nvr go! =S
ohhyeah; changed my blogskin. AGAIN. hehh. lyk it? =DD hawt ryte? ryte? RYTE?? sae YES! =P lols. whatever. he's mine. so keep your 'minds' off hym! hehehehehh. =PP btw, was supposed to help ms chia & naq juz nw after skol for the booth. but went hme at 10.55am instead. the aches & heavy migraine's killing me! i wondered what they did ehh. hope everyting's ready. & ku ma wo naqie darls! lucky there's you to help. =)) humphs. tmrw confirm got training. sure its last. ngaji also tmrw last. everytink also last. mentang2 puase on sat.... haiz! tsk3....
Labels: awwww; how time juz flies...
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Tuesday, August 18, 2009
fever still not gone yet. its been mths! & in fact, it got EVEN WORSE dae by dae! ahahx! dont beleive me? hahah! well, actually i'm not refering to the REAL physical fever! but LMH fever. wakakaka! =PP try & make a guess how many his pics do i have? hehehehhh! im going CRAZZYYY! i know.... it feels soooo nice juz having hym. the gorgeous hawt korean guy on earth! looking at hys pics everydae simply juz brightens upp my dae! =D everytink else juz didnt matter! haiiizzzzz... so wonderful! XD lalalala- todae's great. laughed alot juz now. didnt wanna tink so much bout anytink already. coz by doing so, it alwaes results in migraines. & then i'll have to take painkillers or at least panadols again. lols. i know i can live juz happily. without caring bout any other tings. juz go wit the flow. keep swimming in the sea without fearing you may drown yourself & die. coz what happens next, there's alwaes a meaning to it. & still, lyfe has to go on. if you're destined to die sooner, then what else can you do? if you're fated to be hadicapped, what can you do? swearing & swearing to god non-stop? does it help? NO; it doesnt. you either work hard to become better or you juz go wit the flow & accept your fate. & god will handle the rest. =) so you guys tink im crazy? & of course; you all would go lyk, "she's crazy! LMH can nvr be hers! cant she see it? ITS JUZ A BLOODY STOOPID KOREAN SHOW! EVERY KOREAN SHOWS ENDS THE SAME & i dont see the point watching it. juz a waste of time!" well, let me tell you peepz; i would rather be in fantasy & waste my time for these tings rather than grieving over the stoopid fate i've got! why would i want to waste my time tinking & tinking & tinking bout tings that i cant change? isnt it better to enjoy myself & release my tension by watching happily-ever-after stories to make myself happy? it juz happens that LMH is hawt in my eyes & i've had a crush on hym eversince. im not burdening you or whatsoever! i live my lyfe & you live yours. easy, simple one step. done. =)Labels: crush.crush.crush. you simply melt my heart.
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Sunday, August 16, 2009
lalalala- what a weekend! sort of borink.. but then ystdae was FUN! morning; CIP flag dae. afternn; lepak/ decorate mugs for the bazaar sale.. got back at 6pm lyk that. then at home; very exhausted & dehydrated to the max! ahahx! so drank lotsa water! =P then watch tv. suddenly got reminded of the interview wit BOF at 8pm. ;countdown from 7.50pm to 8pm. mum saes im insane! hahah! =DD then i got a lil excited & enthusiastic that sis lazy to lyn oso! hahahah! then aqilah texred & asked if imm watching it. hey of course i would! my boyfren's inside babe! =)) then after that continued wtching BOF. aaaawwwwww; started to miss watching it again!!! geeezzz! i hope i wont start that nonsense all over again! exams are near!!!! =S then todae woke upp at 11am. bathed, watched tv & then went out to geylang wit family. sis didnt follow. mendak giler sey when she's not there! went hajah maimunah for lunch. then went to the new market. shopped. & bought nangka & chendol. yum2! =DD got home at 5.30pm. watched tv & then me, sis & mum went out to hair salon. i got a hair cut. so do my mum. sis only tagged along. hehehs. actually wanna cut concave. but then too short ah! wasted only i keep long2! =)) so.....; guess how i got my hair done?? heheheh! =P
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Friday, August 14, 2009
todae is "pissing-off" dae! omg! cant tolerate it & kept swearing in my heart. but then in terms of spending time wit frenz; SUPERB! hahah! though we had to CLEAN EVERY OF THE TABLES in the maths class room, we had a little fun lahh. went in & out of the toilet & the class. so what did we learnt during maths lesson? well; we learnt how to CLEAN VANDALISED TABLES! WOW! amazing isnt it?? i bet you didnt know that cleaning was a part of maths! LOLS! =P whatever crapz! humphs. tmrw's gonna be a fun dae! gonna do CIP flag dae but planned to go ikea too. hehehhh! hen ryte after that, we'll go to the RC to finish upp the work for the bazaar. ahhhyyyssshhhh!! know what? po gol ship tah. hahah! =D
Labels: mr hawtstuff *winks*
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Thursday, August 13, 2009
todae is quite a peaceful dae for me. & todae; i learnt smth new. it really brought upp my enthusiasm & spirit to do what i've alwaes wanted to. it made me wanna try to change & work even harder. i dont know how long this can last.. but im still gonna make a try. you'll never know until you've try it ryte? humphs. but now, the problem is to find solutions to the problems. hehh! =P well; juz now at 12.15pm during d&t lesson, my mates & i went to temasek poly wit mdm hamidah. of course its d&t-related courses available basically. frens & i are starting to get interested in some of the courses & we're thinking of joining temasek poly after O's. ohh well, see how it goes yeah? in 2 yrs; a LOT of THINGS can happen rytes? humphs.. juz wait lah huh? =D then after everythink ended, we got in the bus & headed bck to school. & as i sat in the bus, there were several things that lingered in my mind while i listened to musics. the trip to serawak.. studies.. parents.. responsibilities? finding solutions for THE problems.. BLABLABLA! haiz.. much more PRIVATE stuffs lahh. cant STOP WORRYING bout them. juz praying extremely HARD that things will be alrytes & will juz go wit the flow! fasting month also coming soon. omg. i really need to change my lifestyle ryte now! NO MORE LAZY-ING DEE! you've got to CHANGE! CHANGE BABE! CONTROL. we must accept what life has to offer, but we must also take control of its course. (conspiratorial). God doesnt control everything. He creates, but He doesnt control. He juz sometimes help a bit here & there. but otherwise; its in OUR hands. alwaes remember this dee! remember... everythink is possible if you put your heart & soul into it! =)) must ive life to fullest now, start positive thinking already! no more fooling! clear your soul & no more laziness. hahah!
Labels: i must admit that it wont last real long; but as long as i try then why not; ryte?
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Tuesday, August 11, 2009
i envy her. envy her a lot! i wished to be in her shoes; but not being her. juz the situation she's in. she's one lucky lady. & i love her to the core. YES; THAT much! despite all the things she did, which others think she's making me as her toy to play wit but to me, she's juz the lady i like & love. she has all the things in her lyfe that i've ever wanted! but yet she's complaining this & that to me. "awwww; how dumb & stupid can you be? cherish what you have! do what you can do!" said my heart. haiz. human beings. cant juz be satisfied wit what they have ryte now! when things get worse & smth bad happened, only then they will realise how precious & valuable it is to have them. i not apply this to others only, but to me as well! we're all the same! human beings! its juz the colour of the skin, the languages, the size of our body, the faces we have... but we are the SAME! why are things treated unequally? im asking this to HIM every single dae of my lyfe. im still seeking for the answer till now. how i dread wit my empty lyfe ryte now coz it seems that the joy i have seems to only present for a while & then the next moment i knew, its gone! lyfe... everydae i see & hear the same things.. it is as though trying to tease me! everydae it seems to be juz the same! sometimes i wonder.... whether lyfe has any other meanings? you noe its lyk playing a game where there's lyk only let sae level 6. you've to experience & work hard till you get to that highest level. then when you've reached that level, some may think you're already champion. but people lyk me will go "that is all? you mean i get my rank & prize & that's all?" & then people who are in the same boat as me will think... perhaps this is only the limit of lyfe. what else can we do? dream? dream of things that can only be achieved in fantasy? WOW! yeah ryte. whatever. i noe im typing CRAP ryte now. but who cares? MY BLOG; MY SAE! arrasso? if you dont understand & you hate me, you may jolly well GET OUT! juz press the red cross ryte at the corner there! TATA! =P humphs. paranoid now huh? humphs. sape tak?! tell me who lyks being nagged at every single dae? did you even asked to be grown lyk that? who LOVES being compared at? try being in my shoes & taste the lyfe of TOTAL BOREDOM! NO LYFE! SAME OLD DAILY ROUTINES! yeah, its a TOTAL CRAPZ!!
Labels: ko rup tah.. (i envy you..)
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Sunday, August 9, 2009
Your Daily Horoscope: August 9, 2009
Aquarius:
Today should bring a sigh of relief, Aquarius, in that the breakthrough you need has either just happened or is just about to happen. It seems that some old condition regarding your money can be undone or broken today, and that there is about to be a new policy in your life: something that may be hard to implement, but effective, and to some degree, fun. This would also be a good day for making physical adjustments in things; moving furniture, auto repair, and even surgery all qualify, but if you've been needing to cut your hair or trim plants, that's OK too.
LOVE horoscope:
You are finding yourself more distressed than usual when it comes to romantic affairs, Aquarius. The normal energy you exercise in love is not sending back the energy you are desiring, and this may leave you feeling a little tense. If you are attached, today is not the best day to bring up any serious discussion, and you are best to bide some time until this tension passes. If you are single? You will want to just take a break from your obsessions with love, and use the down time to clear your head. You may be surprised that the clarity you receive about this situation will only occur once you stop focusing on it.
Labels: too true... humphs...
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Thursday, August 6, 2009
why bother to stick your nose into other people's business when you think you dont want to hurt their feelings or whatever? its because of your job? but isnt there any other alternatives to confront? you dont want to embarass us? hell yeah... that is why you did openly in front of everybody ryte? not being sarcastic? WOW! yeah... yes, yes YOU ARE NOT BEING SARCASTIC! you are SOOO NOT SARCASTIC that you even said "sape yang makan chilli padi, dia yang terase pedasnye".. you're such a straight forward person that you made SARCASTIC remarks INDIRECTLY; if not DIRECTLY juz lyk you said. WOW! amazing arent you? its been 3 mths! 3 F**KING MTHS FOR GOD'S SAKE!! you didnt even bother to find out if its still happening or its over! how i wished i could juz sae straight to ur face & let u know that its over & im not going to do things that embarass the school! we're juz ALL THE SAME! every single person does mistakes! how much longer are you going to keep doing what you're doing every F**KING lessons??!! you think you're the victim? huh? the one that is suffering alone?? responsibilities?? ohhh; then you think i dont? you think i dont realise my mistakes & try to change the situation?? damn you! seriously; i've been kind enough to juz let it go as i had a sense of guilt too. let you juz continue coz i thought you would someday stop when you're tired of it. OMG!!!!!! BUT YOU DIDN'T!!! F. YOU!!! 3 FREAKING MTHS; ISNT IT ENOUGH??? you even combine all the things the other girls did... think what? chinese rojak is it? berries milkshake or smothies is it that you can mix everythink upp & vomit it all upp when you're too full?? HUH?? lyk the chemicals you mix in a lab & when things go wrong, it will blast??? OMG!!! i realli cant take it any further! LYK SERIOUSLY!!!!!! what is it you want?? you want to counsel me?? give me advices?? monitor me? or how about i go & confront you?? guess what? i've type a draft in my hp & was about to send it to you juz now. but frenz said not now. alryte, i said. we'll wait for the next lesson. 1 more chance. *yellow ribbon* & if she still continue it, i'm gonna send that sms or confront her ryte awae! i dont care already.. everytme she does that, its as though im having shortness of breathe & lyk the kettle alarming when the water is boiling.. it makes me wanna shout at her face or even juz get out of the class & go somewhere really far.. far.. far away & never look back! find somewhere PEACEFUL... & then... MOCK & SWEAR LYK HELL!! or even do things to relieve myself.. i hate being in situations lyk that! my head can burst in situations that is tough, stressing, that you would rather kill yourself then being in that situation! my hands & legs would be the first to move... slapping or slashing.. kicking, jumping or walking awae... may it be negative or positive, i dont care. as long as im happy & stress-free!
&& btw, teachers... if you happen to read this.. dont come find me & question me things...
i'm merely vending out my anger & this blog BELONGS TO ME! MY BLOG; MY SAE! UNDERSTAND?? thank you very much!
Labels: keep ur BUTTS off.... BETTER STOP IT OR.........
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Monday, August 3, 2009
fasting todae. so as usual, korean movies marathon. humphs. somehow i didnt get bored wit it AT ALL! in fact, i LOVE it even more! juz fnished wtching my sassy girl. now watching secret campus. too draggy lahh. when can fnish you tell me? haiz. know what? had a weird dream laz nite. dont know what it means oso. hope it is merely a dream. humphs. bored now. dont want ctinue watching secret campus coz im getting dizzy ready! too many conflicts & complications! =S wanna change blogskin soon. heheh! =DD now looking for a nice one! weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee........
first you said its too early to have a relationship....
then you said i should worry for not having one....
so; which one exactly???
Labels: FICKLED MINDED
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Sunday, August 2, 2009
got bck home at 7pm juz now. damn tired seyy. ystdae had rewang till 12am. go bck terus tido! penat sgt! heheh! but ystdae at 6.45pm lyk that went to ika's blk & lepa wit her 4 a while at the playgrd. we played the swing till ipul came & chiao we go bck to 414. ika wanna meet granny kjap. thy long time nvr meet & granny missed her alot. =)) dah sampai, ipul malu nk ikut & went to 7 eleven while ika & 2 of my cuzzies ate dinner. chit-chatted & did a lil work. then ika had to go off at 8.30pm. i became bored. started to feel real shagged & decided to lepak somewhere. somehow i ended at a bus stop nearby & guess wad i did?? i counted every 307 and 67 bus that passes thru. makkk. terus start ngantok! plugg in earpiece & listen to musics. couples walk pass me & look at me as though im a mad gurl coz i was playing wit my hair.. dont know wad i do! =P sambil tu, i texted aqilah. discussed bout things. yeah, she made my nyte real happy. =D then got bored. went bck to the place. got bored again. went bck to bus stop. BORED AGAIN! told mum wanna go home myslef but kene mrh. wth? then decided to take walk alone. walk & walk & walk. it was DARK & time check, 11.15pm. it was really cold as the wind blew my hair. i walked without a definite destination. had a feeling to call somebody. but think bck, who wld want to lyn a mad girl lyk me?? hahah. as i talked to myself while listening to the music, i ended upp t the bus stop AGAIN. =S bagus sgt ke tmpt tu hah? LOLS. decided to sit there till mum call me. dont care liao! told her wanna go bck tak bagi! ape ke mende tah! she called at 12am. salam, hailed a cab & off we go. balek, tido MATI siot! hehehh! woke upp at 11am. bathed, had breakfast, changed & off we go to cck.. the wedding dae.. hehehh! todae GEREKK giler coz get to meet my giler cuzzies again.. can hlp in the "kitchen" while playing catching. hahah! mcm bdk2 kecik ehk? =PP at 3 plus lyk that the bride & groom came bck frm girl's side. bnyk mamat motor sey tadi. coz abg fadli all in revenge 78. then know what? the kompang guys were from our skool. some are the sec 5 seniors & some are those graduated ones. kwn adib yg botak tu pun ade! kekek! confirm dorg kwn sazwan & sazdini ehk? not so sure bout the names! the sedare in yiss which i dont tegur! LOLS! XP then clearing & cleaning at 6pm. dahh start kecoohh!! abg khairul, kak leah, sis, abg fariise all play catching coz the guys go disturb us first. hahah! kak leah kene RABAK! maen "polo" ehk?? padehal she wanna sae maen "pool". kekek!!! XD
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