Quote Song Of The Week:
[alternative malay indie/psychedelic songs are my favs these daes! well, tatz my personality too! =DD HEES!]

Bicaraku dengan sepi,
kencang sangat kata hati!
Yang tinggi semua ku junjung!
Misal lama tak terkunjung.

Definisiku tetap sama dengan kelajuan!
tidak ku gentar,
kerna bagiku ini masa depan.
Tiada penghalang bagiku!
dan matlamatku hanya satu!!
"sentiasa bersedia,
kemenangan pasti milik kita!"

Jelmaan kabus disambut.
sorak semua ku kagum!
jangan rebah saat ia mundur.
teruskan lah langkah mara kedepan,
lalu ku rempuh!

Definisiku tetap sama dengan kelajuan!
tidak ku gentar,
kerna bagiku, ini masa depan!
Tiada penghalang bagiku!
dan matlamatku hanya satu,
"sentiasa bersedia,
kemenangan pasti milik kita!"

Definisiku tetap sama dengan kelajuan!
tidak ku gentar,
kerna bagiku, ini masa depan!
Tiada penghalang bagiku!
dan matlamatku hanya satu,
"sentiasa bersedia!"

Labels: bands lyk hujan, MUH, The Times are LOVED

Quote of the dae: "i left my troubles at hme when i go to school. i left my school-related problems in school." woaawww. 2dae was FUN. 1st lesson history. nice. was too engrossed wit the topic bout Lenin & Stalin, etc. nxt was maths. waited outsid SLC 4 bout 20 mins i tink den was tld tat ms chia absent. went 2 study corner. talk2. den went 2 lit class. had test. humphs. unseen prose. hate it. coz nid 2 tink so muchh wad 2 write! den had recess. den english. english lesson, Mk, Vick & Wan cabot. texted wan. tld ms kala tat nisa & i wanted 2 go to the toilet. but then went 1 whole round thru the eng staffroom 2 the physics lab. met MK,Vick & Wan thre. they thought wanna juz go in the class. but then didnt. the class rebel siah since ms roshini nvr take us! boring gile! haiyo! hope 10weeks will be over REAL SOON! can die i tell you having eng class wit ms kala! hahaha! (da kalah tu buat hal kalah lahh!) tat was wad me & frens were saeing! =PP HEES. okaes. tats all 4 now! im gonna go shop n save 2 get the ingredients 2 mke TIRAMISU!! =DD anybody wan?? yum2! my favourite!! i love coffee sweet-treats but not the hot drink! bleak! freaking bitter! =S if not tiramisu, make choco mudd pie! =DD

2dae was tie dae. very stuffy & humid! tired. stress. emo. happy. was all in me 2dae. each lesson lyk different feeling. lyk i was possessed lyk tat! humphs. had d&t test too. damn. do anyhow! confirm fail! haiyo! tsk3! bad example of d&t student! hahah okae, CRAPP! =P back 2 topic, at 1.15pm had assembly instead of class interaction. den oso had camp briefing all the wae till bout 3pm i tink. went back hme. did a bit of hmwrks den at 5pm went out. fetched mum den bought 4 dad & bro new handphone. upgrade this lah. top up $100 lah. get new line lah. wth? was so confused wit all those things! let mum decide den off 2 jurong west Mr Teh Tarik 4 dinner/supper. it was 9.40pm. but family still wanna go granny hse visit maryam. humphs. started worrying bout maths test tmrw oreadi. hahah. reached hme at bout 10.30pm den quickly study a little. =DD hope tmrw can do lahh! HEES. now i shall end my post here! its 11.58pm & im stll AWAKE!! tsk3!

i love walking in the rain because nobody knows that i'm crying. well, that was wad happened 2dae. i was so....shocked? devastated? sad? mixed feelings. i didnt know a single thing! but now, i finally got to know why. damn. why now? & why now did i know that you two had been on the rocks 4 so long already? you both seemed normal. but i admit that i've been drifting apart from all of you. due to all those curriculum activities in school. i know you hate to see me coming home late from school. & when you're out, i'm alone at home finishing my hmewrks. but seriously! its unavoidable! too many things i've to do in & i cant really balance it. of course i wished i could! but i couldnt! *sighs* but at least i tried going home straight away if there isnt anything after school. i guessed i still didnt satisfy you? shall i juz sit at home 24/7 & look at your face only? will that satisfy you? i know you care 4 me & juz being protective but i think its lyk too much! *sighs* plus all the heartaches & headaches i'm having in school. "fall. fall. collapse. collapse! give upp! give upp!" said a voice from inside of me. woah. maybe this is how my *frens* felt too, especially taking A maths & triple science. having family crisis is about identical too. *sssiiigghhhsss* why juz cant i live 'A HAPPILY EVER AFTER' life ????

aint the wrld really gonna end? yea, its scary 2 hear this kinda things. but STILL. its a FACT. & ive 2 face it. everyone else TOO. its not smth tat we all wished for. tat is why we've got 2 live life 2 the fullest NOW. try & do things we had alwaes wanted 2! make any amendments needed. =)) humphs. im hopeless lahh. i'm not even doing anythink! i'm lyk ignoring it. HAHX. i'm wae TOO BUSY 4 anytink else! unless i quit skol. lols. erk! NO WAE! =PP guess wad? i'm talking/typing crapp! i dont even get wad i'm actually talking/typing about! ohh well, 2dae is another boring dae! watched tv. did homeworks. watched tv. HOMEWORKS! humphs. bored. bored. bored. BORED! ohh YA! in between, nisa did msged & called me. =)) talked bout the "MOON" trying 2 find its "KEY". **clears throat** HAHAH!! XP funny2!!! good luck ehy nisa! alwaes postponed! bile nak game?? hahhahahahh! =DD my hp hasn't been ringing 4 quite sometime on weekends. its good tat nisa contacted me! humphs. other then nisa, herwan too. but as usual, bz wit hys missed-out-homeworks. jeremy wit hys d&t test chapters. ros wit her heartache. (stoopid jerk!) haiz. i'm seriously having aloads of qns about guys in my mind now!

Labels: guys, when will you start 2 realise tat the girl really loves you?

heys. had malay boggle competition juz nw. wad a brain-cracking tme juz nw! hahah! didnt win anytink. as expected. :-/ but guess wad?? saw Mr L thre. hahah! shocking 2 mit hym ehy! he has grown TALLER! =DD decided 2 msged hym. found out he's juz a trainer. while waiting 4 our turn, did some practice. & i was oso tinking. bout Mr L. i was searching through my heart, finding 4 tat feeling. the feeling i once had 4 hym. it was....... GONE. nowhere 2 be found. all i found is hym. the one tat made my heart beat faster n faster each tme i see hym. the one tat made me wanna avoid hym. ashamed. shy. why did things happened 2 FAST? cant it juz stay as my very own little dirty secret? humph. well, lyk wad frenz told me. "things had already happened. iyou've got 2 face it." but i feel different! lyk, i cant do or treat hym lyk i do lyk last tme. u noe, all those times when you joke ard & disturb each other. if i do, ppl will think its lyk OBVIOUS tat i lyk hym n lyk "flirting" wit hym. i dun wan tat! i knew things wld go this wae! tat was why i thought it cld juz stay as my dirty little secret! but its TOO LATE. he ALREADY KNEW. *sighs* how pathetic i am huh?? -_-" then there's a part of my heart. tat was still fond of B4's smiles. the smile tat cld melt every girl's heart. too BAD tat he isnt as good & innocent decent as he's looks are! WASTED. REALLLLLYYYY WASTED!! tsk3! lyfe. lyfe. lyfe. really telling me tat the world's gonna end!

Labels: the world is gonna end soon.

lyfe juz cant get any worse! damn. im realli having a breakdwn now! i feel lyk a REAL SORE LOSER! i suck at netball. i suck at love. i suck at studies. i suck at everytink else!! i feel ashamed. everybody is juz doing fine. except ME. wth is WRONG wit me??!!!!! why does everythnk i do now, it seems 2 be wrong, where else i've been trying so hard 2 make it ryte! "i sucks. im a SORE LOSER." those words are alwaes on my mind nowadaes. smetmes it made me wanna cry in class but ended upp being emo. Jealousy is conquering me every now & then. I cant listen 2 ppl telling me things which i cant do or i can, but not as good. why am i lyk this?! its only this year! 2009 is a jinx? humphs. =(( i juz feel lyk wanna bury myslf undergrnd & run awae frm everyone. run frm the reality. & go 2 smewhre tat saes "HAPPILY EVER AFTER!". or or i cld juz kill myslf? let me deal wit god. i dun care if i go 2 hell. i've nvr been 'good' aniwaes! might as well i surrender now. isit it better? if not, god. i beg you. plz take awae all of this crappsSHITT-NESS-tingy out of me! i wanna live happily! it realli SUCK 2 feel this wae! no one wld undrstnd hw i feel & its difficult 2 share wit sme1 who's close wit me. i bet they duno exactly how it is 2 feel different frm the rest.

Labels: i wished i cld juz be lyk them.

RUN Dee RUN !!! DONT LOOK BACK !!! hahahx. XP ive been running awae frm 'B4' everytme i saw hym. damn. our class alwaes clashed the past daes & i hate it! its freaking hard 2 get over hym eventhough 'D7' is there. juz right there lahh. =PP it hurts everytme i look at hys face! it reminds me over & over & OVER & OVER AGAIN of wad he did. haizzz. can i juz dun mit hym EVER AGAIN?!! irritating okaes! =(((((( it makes me wanna cry. *sobsob!* && guess wad, juz nw 'B4' approached me OUT OF THE BLUE. he asked me about C girls netball tournament. & gave me 'tat tat TAT smile'. the smile tat was alwaes on my mind everytme i missed hym. the one tat makes my hart meltz! 4 once, i got back 2 the reality & told myslf it was OVER. we're nvr meant 2 be together. =((( i was sighing here & there aft tat! haiyo!! tinking bout another prob i had, makes me really SsssssTTTTRRRRREEEESSSSSSSSSSS i tell you! omg!!! why ohh why did YOU ask such things 2 hym? why ohh why did YOU mke it TOO obvious tat he cld guess it ryte??! why ohh why did you make such decision, cant you see tat by doing so; he cld avoid me & wldnt be close 2 me anymre? why ohh why is everytink going very FAST?!!!! why ohh why am i such a LOSER??!!!!!!!! why ohh why are there signs of the wrld's gonna end real SOON? if you ask me 2 choose either 2 die when the wrld's gonna end or by getting knocked dwn by a car, i wld choose 2 die by getting knocked dwn by a car! =/ well, tat was juz wad i tink lahh. but i dun ask 4 it! =PP p/s: tink carefully b4 u decide wad 2 sae. u cld accidentally sae smth wrngly & might twist the tale! haiyoo! havoc i tell you!!

ystrdae suck. 2dae SUCK even more. he wasnt ard. sick. how i missed hym & hys lame jokes or dstrbing classmtes. i tried resisting myslf frm msging hym during skol. but in the end, i gave upp at the 2nd last lesson which is chem! i asked how was he doing & if he's coming 2mrw. hope he comes! =DD apart frm tat, my mt lesson clashed wit B4. wth. our sitting positions oso juz directly opposite! omg! i was freaking mad. i juz felt lyk not wanting 2 talk 2 anyone juz nw! 4 some reasons. oni me, myslf & i noe. i wld nvr ever gonna let my frens noe. =P so, i was listening 2 music all the wae till 8.40am when mdm yahida came. haiz. potong steam. ahahx! den lessons as per normal. bored as ever! tried laughing & joking about 2 put off tat 'feeling'. successful but not 100%. humphs. aft skol met ms azrianna. wth. freaking tired && sleepy i tell u! i wasnt assigned 2 anytink, so i accidently slept thre till naq nudged me. haiz. aft tat quickly went bck hme. went out wit dad & siblings 2 jurong, clementi, west coast & town. wisma atria. went shopping at cotton on & forever 21. at 9.45pm went 2 fetch mum. humphs. tats about 2dae. =) bout ystrdae. humphs. had a fight wit ros. tat was the FIRST tme i yelled at her. it was too uncontrollable anymre. she was lyk too mch & i had 2 stop her. i quickly walk off her, straight hme. or else i guess my hands wld hav reached her face. nisa were oso telling me tat she felt tat ros was kinda too mch diz daes. i dun blame her & i wasnt mad at her. juz tat i wanted her 2 tink properly bout wad she's doing. aniwaes, its Mr A's fault wad! DAMN! im planning 2 find hym soon! naq & nisa too. giv hym a big scolding! he's lucky 2dae tat he's sick, too. humphs. but now we're both okae oreadi luh. we hugged each other first ting in the morning juz now! =DD i love her luhh sey! ASC & 3e3 too luhh sey! && everybody else! hahah! (lazy wanna type) =PP

heys. humphs. as you noe, ystrd went 2 vivo & sentosa wit D&T students wit mdm hamidah & mr muslim. did our D&T assignmnt at vivo till 11.30am den went 2 the banquet to eat till 12.30pm. den went 2 sentosa siloso beach. as soon as we reached thre, found a spot and quickly went 2 toilet 2 change. all the girls lyk excited 2 go into the waters! we jumped in! den found out 8-9 of us oni insid. the boys were split-ed into 2. some play soccer. some play basketball. humphs. we made plans to pull 1 by 1 into the water! HAHAHAH! funfunfun! 1st was farid. run run run. then all of us panting oreadi catching hym. tired!!! at last, he surrendered. =DD then the rest of them oso. after all that sobo-ing, all of us ended upp in the water. played monkey, frisbee, piggy-backing, floating, etc. den we buried herwan & farid in the sands. hahahah! funny & FUNFUNFUN!!!!!! =))) den bernard,jeremy,alif all oso bury themselves. den me & syimah. fun u noe. it was HOT in the sands. den aft some tme, we all jumped into the water, lyk very cold! hahahah. was in the water all the till 5pm i tink. in between, ika & pul came. ika looked pretty in that outfit lerhs! =) while we played, they were dating. den we ate luch 1st b4 goin into the water again. mr muslim took aloads of our pics! hahah! den mdm hamidah juz sat near the trees, relaxing. she brought her daughter. cute u noe. liyana, p5. we played wit her in the water too. =) den at 5pm we changed, packed upp & walked bck 2 the main. the tram was full! =S reached vivo at bout 6.40pm i tink. me,syim,ila,nisa,ros,alif,farid,wan,vick,bern,jeremy went 2 lepak at bukit batok CC mcd. i went bck at 8.30pm, leaving them thre. seriously, it was a bonding session 4 all of us. suddenly of us became very close & shared aloads of secrets. =)) each 1 of them tld me their probs & shared their thoughts. even aft i reached hme, farid, nisa,ila,naq & bern all smsed me. funny sia some of them. but farid & naq lyk very pityful. =( haiz. nvm. still got mondae! =DD

are YOU trying to put the blame on me? EVERY SINGLE THING? after all the things i've done, it goes down the drain. Being washed upp all the wae to the sea. Far far awae! The feeling is never gonna come back ever since you broke my heart. even if it does, i know you wldnt care, RYTE? i dedicate this song to YOU. p/s: ive changed jenny to **** so that readers can guess the name! =))


he calls me baby
then he wont call me
says he adores me
and then ignores me
(****, What's the problem?)

he keeps his distance
and sits on fences
puts up resistance
and builds defences
(****, Whats the problem?)

You keep me hanging on the line
everytime you change your mind

First you say you wont
then you say you will
you keep me hanging on
but we're not moving on
we're standing still
****, you've got me on my knees
****, It's killing me!!

he needs her own space
he's playing mind game
sends up at my place
saying that he's changed
(****, what's the problem?)

I'm trying to read between the lines
you got me going out of my mind
First you say you wont
then you say you will
you keep me hanging on
but we're not moving on
we're standing still
****, you've got me on my knees
****, It's killing me!!

(ohh ohh ooohhhh)
It's killing me!!
(ohh ohh ooohhhh)
It's killing me!!
(ohh ohh ooohhhh)

****,
First you say you wont
then you say you will
you keep me hanging on
but we're not moving on
we're standing still

****, you've got me on my knees
****, It's killing me!!!

First you say you wont
then you say you will
you keep me hanging on
but we're not moving on
we're standing still

****, you've got me on my knees
****, It's killing me!
It's killing me!!

heyheyhey! looking forward 4 tmrw. =DD excited!!!! huhuhhh! wanna release all stress & tension at sentosa! studies, netball, love & home are making me collapse! :(( i nid 2 cheer myslf upp. i noe i can do it wit my frens ard! i'm able to smile & laugh wit them ard & i'll 4get bout wad he did when i'm wit my frens. FRENS are alwaes the best choice when u nid smeone to be by ur side no matter at wad situation. =) tatz y i love my frens lyk i love a guy. ahahx. okaeahh. crappz! haiz. ohh yeahh! btw, tmrw's aqilah's bdae & juz noe we all celebrated her bdae at cntn during recess. gave a bit of the cake to rayyan, nash & gang, narajh & gang (they were sitting separated) & also herwan & rudy. ahahx. rudy extra uh! =PP humphs. my current mood is lyk the song 'the reason' by hoobastank. "im not the perfect person......" haiz. realli man! aft one, another! lyk those HUGE boxes suddenly collapse onto me! tears suddenly rolled dwn my cheeks during morning assembly juz now aft hearing bout hym frm naq. it trully breaks my hart! i didnt expect tings 2 be that wae! =(( haiz. haiz. haiz. haiz. HAIZ!!!!! most of my frens celebrating valentine's dae tmrw. the rest of us celebrate "friendship"??? humphs! yelahh. "friendship". =PP

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found out a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear

I've found out a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You

and the reason is You [x3]

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found out a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you


'Quotation of the day!' :-/

Aku tak mahu Hady Mirza,
Aku tak mahu Taufik Batisah,
Aku tak mahu Khairul Anuar,
Yang ku mahu CUMA DIA!

Aku tak mahu Edward Cullen,
Aku tak mahu David Archuleta,
Aku tak mahu Jason Mraz,
Yang ku mahu CUMA DIA!

Beri ku peluang untuk mendekati dirimu!
Berikanlah.. berikanlah..

Aku tak mahu Glenn Fredly,
Aku tak mahu Irwan Shah,
Aku tak mahu Rizky Aditya,
Yang ku mahu CUMA DIA!

Aku tak mahu Asraf Sinclaire,
Aku tak mahu Pierre Andre,
Aku tak mahu Faizal Tahir,
Yang ku mahu CUMA DIA!

Beriku peluang untuk mendekati dirimu!
Agar aku bisa memiliki hatimu...
Berikanlah.. berikanlah..

Kesemua lelaki yang ada di dalam dunia ini..
Takkan dpt membuatku tertawan dan tergoda;
Kerana hatiku ini cuma milik dia saja!

Beriku peluang untuk mendekati dirimu!
Agar aku bisa memiliki hatimu...
Berikanlah.. berikanlah..

Cu... cu.... cu.... cuma..
Yang ku mahu CUMA DIA..!

LOLz. okeahs. i was bored & wanna 2 put off my stress awae! tired sey! loads of hmwk 2 pass up tmrw! lucky ive fnshed 90% of it. so, i decided to post this. hahah! kekek tak? =DD its a song actually. but i change some of it. HEES. humphs. as daes goes by, i kept meeting hym coincidentally in skool. okeah lah. happi2. but not lyk i used to lyk laz tme. mabuk cinta! LOLZ. i dun even tink we're suit 4 each other, so its better off this wae rytes? humphs. tmr gonna hav B GIRLS self-train. mcm lazy. but i can bet. cnfrm SLACK gile! =PP den cnfrm play street netball & half court. if enuf ppl, cn play full court. =DD fridae is our LAST game. LAST! omg! lyk FINALLY!!!!!! phheeeewwwwww!!!!!! hahahx! den sat, i hav a date! valentine's dae mahh! LOLZ! mcm paham! no lahh, i sgl! so i celebrate FRIENDSHIP dae. HEES. =)) we all D&T students goin vivo in the morning 4 D&T trial. den hav lunch. den off 2 sentosa siloso beach. a get-together-kinda tingy! syim,ila & moon ki is cming too! cmfrm kecohhz! =DD who wanna join??? WWWWWeeeeeeeeeehhhhhhh!!!!! SENTOSA! here i cum!!! hahahx! all excited gile!!! all planning wad to wear & wad to brg & wad are we gonna do thre oreadi!!! kancong katekan! hahahahah! this trip oso is "quite" meaningful for 4 ppl u noe. klau jdi uhh. sssshhhhh! oni me & frens noe! hahahah! kekekkkk!!! hope jdi uh siotzz! cute uhh dorg! =)))))) well, till hre! toodles peeps!

Jealousy contains more of self-love than of love.



&



If you can't be with the one you love, Love the one you're with.



&



No one can love a second time the person whom he has once truly ceased to love. =)

Kasihmu,
Di luar jangkaanku.
Sulit rasanya,
Hidupku tanpa mu!

Usah kau pergi jauh.
Aku berjanji!
Cintamu ku bawa mati.
Tak ingin ku mula,
Cerita baru!
Diriku Teruntuk kamu.
Semuanya untuk kamu!

Setiap nafasku,
Berpesan padamu.
Jangan pernah tinggalkan diriku!
Sentiasa hadir!
Di jalan hidupku.
Yakini cintaku,
Untukmu!
Hanya untukmu!

Aku menanti,
Ketibaan hari itu.
Saatnya kau mengucap,
Cinta sejati!
Dua menjadi satu!

Aku mengerti,
Kata-kataku percuma!
Hingga tiba suatu masa,
Semua kan menjadi nyata!

Untuk Kamu ku serah segala,
Untuk kamu ku beri bahagia,
Untuk kamu ku janji setia!
Untuk kamu!!

my head's spinning round&round NOW! i juz fnsh writing 100 lines of a maths qn! wth! damn tired u noe! its qn + ans somemre! waste my fullscape oni! den ltr ms chia cnfrm go throw awae them! tsk3! haiz. ive got to blame myslf oso lahh. i nvr study properly 4 her test. -_-" hummpph. diz year SUCK. && i SUCK! i shldnt be chosen for netball sch team! i played awfully TERRIBLY! as thought i was a beginner! u noe the 2 previous game i played, coach sddnly said "diyanah arh! wad r u doing?!! defend her arh! this is NOT ur first tme playing this!" her words sddnly made me realised & wake upp! i was tinking all the wae, is it tat BAD i played? why cnt i defend her properly? why cnt i play lyk chin yen? wads goin on wit me?!! whre has all the skills gone to? wads wrong wit my brain??!! why each tme i play, its lyk my brain dsnt even noe wad to do & i wld juz play anyhw! i got alot of contact,obstructions,etc. REALLI!! WADS GOIN ON WIT ME??!!! why cnt i play lyk i used to?! why do i forget tings easily nowadaes?! DAMN! i wanna be the old me! im trying so hard! haiz! && skol! TOTALLY SUCKS! i hate myslf! seriously HATE MYSLF!! everydae ive to try control myslf. i wan to avoid hym. but my eyes juz cnt resist. i hate hym! but i stll care bout hym. i tried hold on. hold on. hold on. hope one dae he'll be gone! :-/ it hurts they talk bout hym. tinking of wad he did, realli made me wanna cry. its so stupid of me to fall into the trap!! T_T i wished i cld juz vomit it all out n let them noe! but i shldnt bother them. they're all bz & hav their own probs to settle. haiz.

Cinta yang mahal itu,
Tak perlu dilafazkan.
Cinta yang agong itu,
Adalah satu pergorbanan.
Tak ramai orang yang sanggup berkorban
Kepada orang yang dia cintai.

when you go, dont ever think tat I'll make you try to stay.
& maybe when you get back,
I'll be off to find another way.
When after all this time that you still owe,
You're still the good-for-nothing!

I don't know!!
So take your feets and get out now!
Better get out of my lyfe now!

When you go,
wld you even turn to say "I don't love you Like I did Yesterday"?
Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading.
So sick and tired of all the needless beating!

come on, tell me!
When you go, wld you have the guts?
To say "I don't love you Like I loved you Yesterday"?
Say it, I don't love you Like I loved you Yesterday!
I don't love you Like I loved you Yesterday!!!!!!!

Labels: the 'glass' is broken again

lyfe was NEVER fair. if it is, thre wldnt be me & you. thre wldnt be gurls & boys. thre wldnt be short & tall. thin & fat. different2 type of personalities. old & young. big & small. mean & nice. rich & poor. EVERYTINK! everytink wld be standardised! every single ting wld then be SAME. INDENTICAL. && ppl will go "i hav wad u hav! we dun hav 2 fight over tings anymre!". && perhaps the wrld wld hav peace. without any obstacles or problems in our lyfe. coz everytink is the same 4 each & everyone of us. &&& how are we going to 'make love' when we're all IDENTICAL & wldnt be able 2 ensure the generations will continue? i believe god makes the world UNFAIR so tat each & everyone of us wld be able 2 experience how hard or easy lyfe is. by having experiences, all of us can learn from it & make amends to it. if its a mistake, make sure we do not repeat it again. if we sucess, we shall try 2 archieve better than tat. our lyfe can be really SUCK or lyk HELL. but smehw, its destined. we may fail or suffer now, but thre's alwaes a rainbow after the rain. if the rainbow doesnt comes out, the sun will! =)) juz go wit the flow. try 2 put in efforts when needed. no matter how frustrated & fed upp &&& irritated you are, feel lyk wanna give upp, 4 me i wld hold on & calm myslf. tell myslf tat i can do it. its juz lyk a test. test ur patience & endurance. slowly, the rainbow & the sun will come out. juz go wit the flow. juz go wit the flow. tink positive! i said 2 myslf once, when i felt lyk collapsing aft 'tons of heavy boxes' dropped onto me. not only tat, my FRIENDS are alwaes thre 4 me when i dun feel fine. ILY FRIEND! all of u realli are the LOVELIEST FRIENDS i've ever had! =))

holaholahola! =)) im some sort of happi now. duno why! despite all the things tat had hppned, 2nite i feel mch better. happier! mybe bcoz of my family tat has alwaes been HIGH I! hahah! well, i dun care wads gonna hppn nxt lahh! i noe im stll missing hym every now & then. BUT, i noe i CAN DO IT! i CAN FORGET HYM! yeah, of course i CAN!!!! =DD im gonna mke myslf as bz as possible! even if we meet by chance again in skol, (im sure we WILL!) even if he alwaes mkes me tink of hym even more, i will try to hold myslf back & take it as a fren-to-fren kinda thing! wad for suffer when he doesnt even care wads goin on wit me?! dee, u can do it! hav cnfidence! aqilah, naq, ros & of course ika are ALL RIGHT! juz try my best! my frenz are ALL thre 4 me, may not be alwaes! but at least THRE 4 ME!! =DD &&&&& its not the right tme too rightsss?? i stll wanna try to keep up to my promise so tat i wldnt hav to treat aqilah, shayidah, ika, nisa, etc. HEESS! i tink i can lahh, if i focus on studies real hard & forget bout love 4 the mean tme! lyk wad mr adam said "LOVE can wait. but studies, hav to go first! when u reach ur dreams oreadi den u can tink of LOVE, okae?" hahah! hys words are stll CLEAR in my mind u noe! i remember tat tme he called me to hys table & 'M' was thre, detention. woahh. paisehh siah! but then hys wrds ARE TRUE LAHH. && mybe also tats why he's stll sgl nw! LOLS. im juz saying aniwaes! =))

**was TOO BORED! nth else to do!
(sorie to those hu cldnt undrstnd malay! =PP)

Aku tak pernah mengerti apa yang ku rasa!
Rindu yang tak pernah begitu hebatnya!
Aku mencintai mu lebih dari yang kau tahu.
Meski kau tak kan pernah tahu!
Biar lah aku sahaja yang tahu,
Betapa dalamnya cinta ku ini untuk mu!

Aku persembahkan hidupku untuk mu.
Telah ku relahkan hatiku padamu.
Namun kau masih BISU!
DIAM SERIBU BAHASA!

&& Hati kecilku bicara,
"Baru ku sedari, cinta ku bertepuk sebelah tangan!"
Walaupun begitu, tak kan ku mengundur diri!
Aku sentiasa berdoa,
Agar aku dapat memahami isi hatimu yang beku.
&& akan datang keajaiban,
Hingga akhirnya, kau pun mahu! =))

Tanpa engkau di sisi ku,
aku tak mengerti apa yang ku rasa!
Perasaan ku sangat berkecamuk!
KELIRU! rindu? resah? "mana kah kau pergi??!"

Dan meskipun pagi itu indah,
tapi akan SUNYI tanpa mu menemani ku.
AKU SEPI tanpa DIRIMU!

Tanpa cintamu, aku RESAH.
Tanpa kasihmu, aku HAMPA.
Tanpa dirimu, aku MATI!

heyheyhey ppl! its been a lng tme since i updated! well, been bz & sis wldnt allow me use her lappy. the cmpt's damn SLOW, so i was TOO LAZY to update! =DD hees. hrmm; the past few daes, LOADS of tings hppned. HAPPI, ENTHUSIASTIC, SAD, emo-ish, crazy! but i was EMO-ISH most of the tme! dun ask me! coz i wont tell! =PP my besties noe why. haiz. F****! i wld feel DAMN BORED every now && then! ***MMMEEENNNNDDDAAAAKKK!!!!!! haiz! duno wads goin on wit me!! && there's diz part wen i got even engrossed reading New Moon && cried non-stop! i noe i wasnt crying tat BAD bcoz of the story! its bcoz of smth else! OBVIOUSLY! haiz. &&&&&& i lyk 2 sigh every now & then TOO! im worrying over smth but actually thre's nth to worry about! i noe u readers think im crazy or smth! but seriously, i bet those who experienced this b4 wld undrstnd hw i feel! as thought i lost a part of my body! i get STML quiet easily too! woaahh! haiz. tell me, WADS GOING ON WIT ME??????!!!!

Dee♥,

A simple girl called Dee.
Hates decisions & getting bored.
Hates JERKS!
Juz dont understand guys.
Loves Bossanova & Indies.
Loves Reading & movies.
A simple girl will alwaes be simple.
Just like studying a literature book!
Either you understand it; NOT.
Simple isnt it? ;)

ohh! && i love my boyf!! =D

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