Saturday, January 30, 2010
smth funny happened this morning... wanna now wad? had a sudden wake up when i saw a figure going in my room & take smth; holding a pillow in her arms... i looked at the clock; 7.05am. i started panicking; took my towel & suddenly i was lyk.... "ehh how come bro never wake me upp ehk? why is the house so quiet? wad dae is it todae?" i still couldnt recall... i sat back at my bed & think... (got hp dun see you noe!) about a minute later i suddenly remembered its saturdae & immediately went back to bed. as i close my eyes, i laughed at myself. hehehehhh! dee giler! was awoken by the hp... why everytime muz disturb me huh?? its been a long time since i had my longest sleep during weekends & ppl have to ruin it! look at it; naq & shayidah... was thinking; these people dunno how to wake upp late isit?!!!! i have been so lethargic since school reopened & my weekends was occupied coz i had activities & had to wake upp early in the morning! quickly replied them & closed my eyes again. had a heart attack when the hp sang again! it was granny... haiyaaaa! irritating seyy these early birds! XD in the end i gave upp; bathed & took the novel which i read last nyte & continued. had breakfast & managed to finish the book without interference at 4pm. what a wonderful story! only if such happy endings REALLY exist... ;)) regretted borrowing only one book; thinking that i'll be too busy! now when im kinda free..... the book's done! humphs... nvm! i shall go to the library again this thursdae!Labels: tests are on the wayyyyy ....
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Thursday, January 28, 2010
what a draggyy dae todae ! cant stop feeling irritated & sleepy during classes ! during history clesson i couldnt concentrate already ... my PMS is seriously affecting my studies ! thought it was already the last period already but NO !!! still got english & then LSP briefing at hall & malay remedial.... aaahhhhhhhhhh !!! =S had to bare all the wayy till 3.50pm ! quickly went out of malay class ryte after she's done. couldnt take it already! ohh; & thanks yeah naq for asking nisa for painkillers. it helped a bit though. ;)) tmrw got d&t... still havent do the imageboard & all... tonight got ngaji... confirm no time to do! i need a nap too! shitz! something gotta sacrifice! i'll try to make it for ngaji but.... haiz! see how lahh ehh! kae2! gotta go peepz! toodles! love yaaaa! ;DDD
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Tuesday, January 26, 2010
im glad i spent the weekends the wae i did! i mean..... gossshhh!!! i cant stop thinking bout how FUN it was!! how much FREEDOM i had & felt.... WOW! i wanna do it again; can i?? after o's kae?? hehehhh! ;DD as for now................ aku kangen sama OVIE !!!!! *dussshhhhh!!! (punching my face) SHUT UPP DEE!!! you're supposed to stop fooling starting from todae onwards & be serious in studying!! why are you thinking bout all these nonsense?? all these are juz temporary... they can WAIT! but not your BIG O's.... FOCUS dee!! FOCUS.... for a few mths onlyyyyy!!! ENDURE! then you can enjoyy! remember that.... FRENS; REMEMBER THAT TOO tau! ;PP & i love you all! hehehh! RANDOM! kae2 lah.. gtg! toodles! ;))Labels: perseverance...
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Monday, January 25, 2010
goshhh! i enjoyed the past 4 daes! fridae; rivervalley the juniors' tournament.. sat; vivo & sentosa wit frens then at nyte watched wali band concert wit ros... then sundae; dinner @ marina square tambuah mas wit the band.. then todae... went to the airport wit ros to send them backk.... weeeeeeeeeeeeee!! seriouslyyy.... i couldnt get any happier than this! the past 4 daes had made me realised that being ugly isnt the BIG thing... wads important is that we're happy-go-lucky & our attitude... the way we treat people! & then everythink would be fine! people would love us! ;)) maybe we would lyk get jealous seeing others that are wayyyy prettier than us but does it matter? god had created you that way & if you've tried your best to do what you can to change but its still the same... what else can you do?? juz ACCEPT it! thats the BEST solution! ;)) let people say whatever they want bout you... tak luak pun! XDD FYI; now im attached! wakakakkakkaa!!! 240110.... mcm phm! hehehehhh!
Labels: OVIE aku punyaaaaaaa sihhhh ....
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Friday, January 22, 2010
feel lyk sooooo SHITz todae! everythink seems to be testing my patience & obviously i didnt pass the test. lyk wth? i could actually get angry wit a stupid parrot who knows nothing but make noise every nyte... usuallly i would juz let it be.... but todae i was extremely furious! feel lyk wanna shout in somebody's face... what am i angry wit?? what am i finding for? why do i feel soooo weak & tired?? is this juz physically or mentally? if its mentally, ive got to stop it! ive to find my centre. remind myself bout my purpose in lyfe. why do i have to care whether people are there wit me or not.... we are born alone... dying soon; alone... so what is there to be afraid of being alone?? nothing.. nothing to be afraid.. maybe this would take a longer time for me.... but does it mean i would never survive? no ryte.... so ive to endure.... juz endure.... may it be 5 mths? 1 year? 5 years? 10 years? god may be unfair to me ryte now.... but who knows... who knows... who knows.....Labels: hidup ini tak pernah adil... aku benci; tetapi siapakah harus ku salahkan?
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Tuesday, January 19, 2010
heyy. guess some were shock wit my attitude todae. humph; idk wad have become of me lahh. i really hated HER class! too fast... too bossy... too.... everything you can think of & the word must have "too" in front of it!! T_T haizzz... seriously; i hated the part where she was lecturing me... her words are all as though changed into "dont need go the band 2 class lahh, juz stay here"... i couldnt care much! all nonsense she said... she thinks im having problems outside particularly bout wad?? azwani?? see.... now i dun even giv a damn typing her name... that means i dun giv a damn about the prob already! let bygones be bygones! i dun wanna care wad azwani herself think bout our prob already... she duno wads going on outside then no need talk bout it lah! no need assume things! i dun understand these folks you know! must make wild guesses bout things they can imagine of! karut sakk fikiran! bukannye nak gi soal siasat btol2 dulu.... cant she think that my BIG PROBLEM is actually HER; that i cant keep upp wit her f**king prangai & nonsensical stuffs? ape? bagi question buat in 3 minutes? 5 minutes? if later then that she'll use the clapper?? @#$%^&*!!!!! CRAPP uh... i dun mind downgrading to the lower band.. at least got nisa aqilah they all... at least nisa can rebel wit me when she change shifts wit cikgu az... haiz! tmrw got MT somemore! SOOO LAZZYYY TO GO!!! can i drop MT?? hahahahh! ;PP then i go take private korean... change my race to korean.... lols! XDD but thanks ehk gfs.. PARTICULARLY; NISA, NAQ, IKA, AQILAH, ROS & ILA... then chem lesson, d&t n class deco was SUPER FUN !! ;DDD
Labels: the moral is that; ALWAES FIND OUT THE TRUE STORY .
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Friday, January 15, 2010
heyy. todae's skol was short. yeah; finished at 12.30pm... lucky for me coz i wasnt really in the mood... met mdm hamidah after skol for sketchbook checking. thought wanna go back straight but then ms salina called & asked about the banner & booth... so i went down to mdm azizah's room & took the banner. called ms salina & she said change of plan. so i called naq & we did the notice board wit rush after taking the keys & pics form ms salina. then told rush to take banner & some stationery... complicated i tell you! blablabla..... everythink done at bout 4.30pm? got back home & bro was playing prank on me! he was acting sleeping on the sofa wit hys psp on & all the other electric appliances on! washed upp, changed & then mum called. suddenly bro was in front of me & "BOO!" he said & giggled non stop! giler! XD dad told to meet at the carpark & off we went to fetch sis & mum. then to giant.... bought all the groceries for tmrw's kenduri... got home at 8pm & started spring cleaning. i made the coconut jellies & sis was showing tantrum juz bcoz she had to wash the dishes. mepek pe sia? baru sikit je kaki dah penat! pikir pasal diri sendiri aje! pasal org tk kisah! pasal nenek tak kisah! been standing all along at work lahh... what lahh.. EXCUSES SHIT!! dad also dah tk blh tahan wit ur disease! he wanna scold u also cannot..... he only could laugh pitifully at u! come on lahh.... dah pikir pasal kahwin but then tak pikir bout the responsibilities you've gotta hold on! can still keep saying nanti2 blh blaja... mum cakap skit je dah naik angin! emo shit! nak nangis! i know you're easily demoralised & sensitive... but think uh! its for ur own GOOD! they have their best in their heart! haiz! i dun understand lahh ehk! is LOVE all you think about?? HUH?? LOVE ni bagus sangat ke?? bagus sangat sampai tanggungjawab sumer diabaikan?? come on people!!! tell me!!! why must all of you let LOVE influence everythink?? why?? dont you think bout what others think?? how they feel?? huh?? my feelings?? ape aku rase?? think i dun have feelings isit?? think i lyk doing all this stupid SHIT??! let me tell you.. NO; I DUN OKAE! ive got studies to think of alryte! i may be seen not studying but that doesnt mean im fooling around! alwaes remember that.. ive got no more time to waste! Labels: this shitty feeling that i have been keeping suddenly blow upp for the wrong cause...
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Thursday, January 14, 2010
what a hectic week! been going home really late this week; busy wit class deco & then todae had preparation for CCA dae on sat & training... humphs! tmrw also got to stay back & do up our booth.. haiz! hectic lahh! homework was another thing! have to pass upp d&t sketchbook tmrw ryte aft skol... havent choose yet what to invent & im lyk doing it now... ideas are not really satisfying.. lyk wth?! nvm2... slowly.... was supposed to go for ngaji also i didnt go... wanted to go RC & do.... but was being stopped by parents when they suddenly got home! so i end upp in the living room wit rosalind doing d&t! hahahahh! ;PP tuu pun tak habis! tsk3!!! its only the starting..... how much "worser" could it get in 2-3 mths time?? confirm lagi.... HAVOC!!!! XDDLabels: hope it works ....
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Tuesday, January 12, 2010
do you know how suck it is to be down wit flu in a situation that is hectic?? humphs. thats my condition ryte now. i cant really concentrate doing my work & stuffs! my nose is acting lyk a spoilt water tap & the 'heavy' feeling is super irritating; acting lyk a blockage to clear thinking. lol. what crap am i talking bout? o.0 humphs. you know... i realised smth! i know how bored it is to sit in index numbers in classes especially for me; i gotta sit wit somebody i dun really want to... but after 1 week plus going 2 weeks sitting wit her.... i found out an positive outcome! you wanna know what?? i actually could be 100% ATTENTIVE in classes especially MATHS! hahhahh! obviously lahh; couldnt talk to her nor my babes... so the only thing left to do is listen to ms chia! ;DD YEAY ME! & THANKS to her! hahahahahhhh! i dun mean that sitting wit babes is bad... but its juz that we alwaes got smth to talk about & we wont be listening to the lesson. THAT'S BAD! gotta think of the BIG O's... STRATEGIES... STRATEGIES... no more time to fool; paham2 je lahh.... when i start joking around wit gfs confirm slack & forget all these things... whatever it is... i hope nth could influence me into doing anythink stupid! all i gotta think about is STUDIES.. O's... STUDIES... O's........... then can ENJOY already!!! come on; lets work hard now so that we all could ENJOY much later! ;DD Labels: i dun wanna care what she wanna think or feel already ....
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Sunday, January 10, 2010
lyfe was sooo far sooo.... errr okae? lols. had fun todae. fri & sat too. went nanyang on fri wit classmates. & ngee ann on sat. ryte aft the flag dae. wanted to change hme clothes but the rest lazyy then reached there lyk idiots in uniforms. lols. paisehh all the wae but also lyk hack care dun care. XD went al-azhar. then lepak. enjoyed it very much! ;DD got back home at bout 6 plus? damn exhausted! then at nyte ryte aft dad went to work, mum ajak go swensens @ west mall! in my heart i was lyk "huh?? west mall again??" padehal juz got back from there also you know! =.= sis & aunts insist that i go so i juz tagged along. got hme at 10.45pm & watched momo love for 15 mins? lols. then straight awae fell asleep at the sofa. woke upp wit my brother sitting on me! irritating booyyy! XD did some hmewk & mum asked to get dressed. went to east coast? sort of "picnic-ed" & twin-bicycled wit sis... brother was wit nephew; khair... we had a long ride all the wae to mcd & bought ice creams & coke.... when we arrived back to the bike we were lyk "ohh gosh! forgot that we've to ride back..." so we forced bro & khair to fnish upp the ice cream & we fnish upp the coke. hehehh! back to where we were at 4pm? ate a lil & played monopoly deal wit sis. at 5.30pm we made our wae to aunt's place at bukit merah & had dinner there. got home at 8.30pm. so here i am....
hmphs! i still miss that person! ;((
Labels: it doesnt matter; does it .... who is without a flaw ??
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Wednesday, January 6, 2010
shitz. i kinda miss somebody ryte now. badly. GOSH!!!! this is BAD!!! todae my mouth also got no more insurance! expired already! hahahh! XD haizzz..... why was i soooooo straight forward without thinking bout the other party's feelings??? GOSHHH!!!!!! this thing happened a few times; different2 incidents wit different2 people todae!! what's wrong wit me??!! swayy lahh. only realised it after seeing the person's reaction. really SORRY !! haizzz..... wadever it is; things are under control... im making myself remember my goals for this year! everythink else can WAIT.... but not my O's!! i must prove to them that i can do it. i must kick my bad habits... no more fooling around! i must prevent myself from the worse disease ever; LAZINESS !!!!! ;PPPLabels: it may be juz a short one but its simply a priceless one....
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Tuesday, January 5, 2010
heyy there .... its the 2nd dae of skol ! it'll be my laz year in YI. insyaallah. ;)) so many things had happened & i realised some things are changing in me ... physically & mentally ! hahahh ! hope it's for the better ! ;DD i wont bother to list out all the things that ive changed into ... lazzyyy ! ;PP & for now im pretty excited to get started wit studying ! hahahahh! weird ryte?? but as for subjects lyk maths & chem; im freaking out ! hehehh! i juz wanna start on my d&t course work... study for core lit, physics, eng & malay ! kaysiao. ryte now at the moment at home im not doing anythink! not even revisions! ;PP guess i'll start next week? humph. ohh ya! guess wad?? this thursdae got netball training & we've to go coz we'll be going for the tournament which will be end of this mth! T_T i thought ive already stepped down!! mdm azizah said we'll only do so after the tournament! haizzz. STRESS !! STRESS !!! now i really need a timetable to organize myself ! hahah! im amazed wit myself coz i seem to be much more excited to go to skol to STUDY rather than been lazyy! wayy to go dee! hope its not lyk hangat2 tahi ayam! XD hope it'll be till the very end ............Labels: how did i change drastically ?? o.0
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Sunday, January 3, 2010
WEEZIIT !! ;)) guess who's in my house ryte now??? well; its THAT GUY... that childhood buddy of mine... humphs! not hym alone of course! wit hys family.... idk why when he walked passed me my heart seemed to beat faster... & when we meet eye to eye.. had this tingling feeling down my spine! goshh! i started to panic! try to hide myself from hys view by sitting behind sis & bro's back. hahahh! XD & so.... the folks started talking.... well; updating stuffs... gossips.... & bout hym & hys bro... when i was in the kitchen making drinks & preparing some tea snacks for them i heard hys mum talking bout hym. i eavesdropped their convo! hehehh! & when i heard bout he having a girl & they call each other mummy & daddy... i felt so disguised & at the same point; sad. & suddenly had a flashback bout that incident at jurong point... remember? uh huh! yeapp2! NO NEED TO TELL me why am i feeling that wae coz i dun wanna know! ;PP the reason why im here blogging is that i dun wanna be outside in the living room & keep having this thing happening whereby our eyes meet... hate doing that! it'll race my heartbeat & i'll panic for nothing! T_T haiz.... this is really stupid alryte! why do i have to feel this wae when i bet he doesnt even feel or think of anythink when he look at me! =SLabels: tmrw first dae of skol... soooooo NOT ready for it ...
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Friday, January 1, 2010
weeeZiittt !!!!!!
NEW YEAR; NEW ATTITUDE & NEW RESOLUTIONS !!!
pssssttttt; my hair's SHORT & idk if its UGLY or nice! wakakakkaaaa! ;PP
it was a result of my anger-ness actually !!!
ohh dear...... ive got a secret to share... humph! you wanna know smth?? saying sorry was the hardest thing for me to do.. it sucks BIG TIME & i HATE doing it to the CORE !! but when ive got no choice but to to do it; i'd still rather cry for a hundred daes then to juz say those FIVE WORDS. some say those FIVE WORDS can be NICE & POWERFUL... it could melt a person's heart slowly if you use it at the ryte time & in a proper manner. mum used to tell me that its juz lyk the ice cream that melts on a piping HOT brownie! hahahh! dont go drooling huh! ;PP okae2 back to story... so that was the reason why i hated the first dae of raye; which means seeking forgiveness wit people especially the elders! i hate it so much that my tears would come out first & not the five letters that they're expecting! well; its not that i dont regret & repent from my mistakes or anythink... its juz... how do i put it?? a sensitive issue for me? humph. gotta admit; tonite smth BIG... smth BAD happened juz minutes ago! the most SCARIEST moment of my lyfe! *pssstttt!! NOT REALLY! coz ive gone thru it lotsa time... EVEN WORSE then this! its juz that its phobic... you know? lyk you can REALLY get SCARED or traumatised all OVER & OVER again... but in the actual fact; its juz the SAME OLD THING.... do you get it? yeahh... so thats basically it! i was SWEARING here & there... keep thinking how should i say those FIVE SIMPLE WORDS! & HOW SUCKS IT IS TO SAY THOSE SIMPLE FIVE WORDS! YEAPP! F.I.V.E S.I.M.P.L.E W.O.R.D.S !!! juz lyk some say.. you dont have to say S.O.R.R.Y for your mistakes... but juz SHOW & PROVE that you've learnt from your mistakes & make sure you wont do it again... to gain people's trust back again... thats about it! thats basically what i thought! but well; now i guess im not 100% ryte.... ;(((
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