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Friday, July 31, 2009
currently bored at home & juz surfing the net. yeah; aqilah "ROCKS" she said. LOL. she's at my home now. studied maths while watching secret campus. MAKK! DRAGGYYY u noe! =S but then i love the part where there is LMH!! hehehehehh! =DD HAWT STUFF! later going to aunt's hse to celebrate hildah's & uncle's bdae.. looking forward for it.. menndddaaakkk sgt uh! XP
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Wednesday, July 29, 2009
sorry for not updating the past 5 DAES! OMG! so far this is the longest i didnt update! ahahx! alrytes, hmphs wanna noe wad i did the past few daes?? well; on the weekends i went for chalet at marine parade. it was damn fun wit my SUPER CRAZY FUN cuzzies & ros! there were so much to talk about & alot of things happened.. but then im juz too lazy to list down everytink. hehh! =P biar lah ros aje yg tahu ehks?? blueks! hahx! then on mondae aft skol stayed at home & watched my lovely samsoon all the wae till i break my fast. the rest of the family went out dont knw go where. then tuesdae went bck home & did all the chores & chiao to nisa's hse. did physics project & had mine & syim's hair permed. hahah! kesian tangan nisa penat! XD then we chit-chatted about stuffs without thinking bout the time. tibe2 each one hp ring one by one.. sumer dah kene suroh balek! kekek sak! kalang kabut sumer chiao.. then otw to interchange, we became crazy & laughed none stop! XP reached home at bout 9.10pm i tink? washed upp & changed. sat wit mum in the living room when she sddnly asked me to take out my lovely samsoon cd. hahah! uat suspense jek! i thought wahd seyy! then we watched together wit bro & sis all the wae till 1.45am. SUPER SWEET lahhs! =DD then todae went out wit sis & nanny to jurong point. bought presents for hilda's & uncle's birthdae this fridae.. reached home at 8.45pm & here i am! =)) OMG! juz realised tmrw have maths & d&t test but ive not studied a SINGLE THING yet!!!!! =S
Labels: t.e.m.p.t.e.d - t.o - .t.o.u.c.h ?
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Friday, July 24, 2009
yaww peeps! how hav been your week?? humphs.. for me; its the most FUN week ever lahh! hahah! mondae; wen out wit sis & break fast wit her.. conquered the hse & watch seducing mr perfect.. wednesdae; bowling wit beloved frenz.. thursdae; went mcd wit ros.. did hmwk & stuffs.. fridae; followed dad to mall to get hilda's bdae present.. then fetched mum & sis frm work. after that dad dropped off me & sis at IMM.. the both of us shopping-spreed! hahah! got back hme by bus at ard 9pm.. washed upp, changed & watched tv till 12.30am. then packed stuffs for chalet.. then todae, saturdae; woked upp by ros & yvonne. hahahx! yvonne ask me to lepak wit her & buy ciggarettes. met her at 12pm & talked about lots of stuffs! one thing; she's getting engaged to her boyfy when she's 18 & he's 19.. cool or what? they sending the invitation card SOON.. SOON ehk? ahahah! smoked.. had a drink of H-Two-O.. talked.. laughed... & chiao! so here i am juz updating.. in an hour's time im leaving for chalet at marine parade! huhhuuh!! gerek kaper?? meeting all my giler2 cuzzies.. ros is tagging along! she's overnighting wit us also.. COOL!! thought of inviting frenz.. ASC especially.. but mum said dont nid brg satu kampong.. one enough. so since nisa also cannot come, ros only lahh. in fact, they all kenal her liao.. family got see ros alot of time also lahh. no problem. & if she was a guy, she wld have been my boyfy! ahahhx! humphs... got history hmwk.. but havent do! lazzy ahh! nvm; tmrw come back can do! hehehh!! =P
Labels: e.n.g.a.g.e.d ? o.0
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Thursday, July 23, 2009
BORED! humphs... so lets see wad my daily horoscope says...
Aquarius (Jan 20 - Feb 18)
The Bottom Line
The candy shell grabs attention, but the center's what counts. Look past surfaces.
In Detail
You're the kind of person who just can't settle for anything less than the whole "she-bang". That's the way you are on a daily basis, but the way you're feeling now ... well, let's just say that you won't even be able to fake being satisfied if you're not. And that will be true for just about any department of life. When it comes down to the issue of love, you seek genuine connections.
well, the detail part is somewhat true.. especially the last sentence! =)
Labels: t.h.a.t - e.v.e.r.l.a.s.t.i.n.g - l.u.s.t
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Wednesday, July 22, 2009
TIREDDDD..... haizzz.... anywaysss; F4 lovers do WATCH THIS!!! super duperr CUTTEE luhhs! hahahah! especially LMH!!!! the wae he spoke in Japanese & did that silly face... awwww.... i'm melting..... ahahahhhhxxx..... mr hawtstufffzz! =DD
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Tuesday, July 21, 2009
ystdae didnt went for LSP. the migraine got worse. so decided to go home straight. got home & washed upp, changed & took a nap. at 4.30pm got upp. watched seducing mr perfect for a while wit dad. gerekk per? coffee prince also he watched wit me! =) then at 5.30pm sis texted ask meet at BB interchange. arrived there at bout 6.10pm? then went shopping. sis looking for her bf's bdae cum anniversary present. cool kape? hahah! they chose a perfect date! humphs! hope they'll last longgg & become husband & wife! hahahah! 2x5 dolz i tell you! both of them had the same characters! sajak2.. humphs.. back to story; we shopped & sis teman me buka at mcd. there she told me loads of stuffs. its been quite sometime since we've talked lyk that! joked.. giggled.. poke here & there then we went bck in to west mall. bought durian pancakes for supper. reached home at 8.30pm? we conquered the house siot! hahah! bro was at khair's house. mum havent come home & dad was working. ape lagi?? dragged sis 2 watch seducing mr perfect lahh! =DD it really relieved my dae.. somehow; i felt very calm & super happy! no stress.. no tension.. no.. NO NOTHING! =P the lyfe i've alwaes wanted! i dont need a man to live! may i be single; but super duper happy! pun gerek jgk kan?? =))
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Saturday, July 18, 2009
juz finished watching Coffee Prince. woaahh! what a lovely story! korean movies are juz simply so great & romantic! there will alwaes be hardships.. conflicts.. problems.. & then a happy ending! humphs! it may be typical but then it is juz the way the story goes.. the casts of the story.. that made girls love it even more! even some guys! haiz. if only reality would be that way. sighhhhssss! & aqilah; thanks alot. i appreciate it loads! ku ma aw aqilah! =D sarang-hae! hhahah! yesterdae bowling was really FUN! i wanna go AGAIN! i du care even if it goes into the longkang! =PP
Labels: the reason why i wanna stay in the world of fantasy..
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todae was FUN! even though we didnt win; HARMONY was there. AHAHX! did all the stoopid2 stuff wit the rest.. laughed lyk HELL.. then afdt the whole thing we played the swing & lepak for a while. ahhhhh. what a wonderful feeling! sooooo freee.... wooohhhooo! =DD then we left at bout 12 plus? took 176 & went CSC. played bowling. at first it went into the longkang for a few times. MAD at myself! was thinking "why cant i block these obstacles?? susah sgt ke?? nvm; i shall do my very best..." these at the very end of the game; i scored. LOLS. at last! was thinking again; "was it juz me or was it really that hard? why can THEY do it & NOT me? am i THAT stoopid??" i've found my answer todae... glad to noe that not only me that's having problems. others too. its juz the wae we handle the situation. it could lead to many consequences. haiz. THAT one; settled. but THIS one? still not yet. why muz it be only when you realised it then you want to adjust things? why cant you take the first move & find things out? why find her when she's trying to forget you? why didnt you find her when she's expecting you to? WHY?! & when she is finally moving on; you came back into her lyfe juz to ask "how have you been?" how STOOPID is that?? gawd! this is outrageous! i think i should live in a communist country! that wae; everytink wld be FAIR....
Labels: stoopid creatures called guys...
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Friday, July 17, 2009
yesterdae FREAKKIINNNGGG SUCCCKKSSS !!! it was my UNLUCKIEST DAE EVERRR!! gawd! was freaking pissed off & embarassed! bout what?? no need know! im here juz to vend out how im feeling! it felt lyk a bomb exploding in my head any time soon! i'm back in reality. but there's still shadows of the fantasy. trying hard now. but its not good enough. must try harder. but i cant seem to find the solution to it! HOW?? was cracking my brain juz 2 think for solutions juz now. but ended upp BLANK! GAWDDD!! T_T can cry bloooooddddd i tell you! HISH! arraso?
Labels: stooopppiiddd dae i had..
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Monday, July 13, 2009
mmmeeeeennnndddaaakkkk!!! =(( ros didnt come skol todae. te dae was bloody ddrrraaagggyy! accidentally slept while writing sumary in eng class. wth? hahah. been sleeping late these daes. whatelse if not reading & watching korean dramas? humphs. =(( borinnggg ryte my lyfe? the best part is only when spending time wit family for outings or going out! staying at home can kil me i tell you! hish! i know perhaps can surf the net. but come to think of it, guess what i'll di the most? blogging? blog reading? facebook? looking at HYS profile? listening to HYS musics? msn? whatelse?? bbbboooorrrriiiinnngggggg GILERRR!! lyfe has got to be muchh wayyyy FUN!! going thru the same old traditional cycle really SUCKS! thing have to change... perhaps? i dont know...
Labels: madly in lovvveeeee......
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whatever lahh comment2 anda terhadap dia lah ehk? hahah! i dont care lahh. he's still HAWT to me. everytink he does; juz kept me amazed & adore hym EVEN more! =DD he's sssoooooo HAWT that every girl that adds hym in facebook saes "sarang-hae!" to hym everytme! & he doesnt even have that bloody time to layan girls lyk us. PATHETIC RYTES?? i know. i know. its an empty hope. its been 2 weeks since i waited & waited. getting bored already. TIRED especially. BUT i'm still INTO HYM!! GGGGAAAWWWWDDDDD!!!!! i understand its juz a FANTASY of mine. but why do you have to make me soooooo into hym?? plz pity me! i want to live in the world of reality but then i juz keep falling into the world of fantasy! rubbishh!!
Labels: LMH... LMH... LMH.....
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Sunday, July 12, 2009
ystrdae went out to ikea bukit merah. bought stuffs for house make-over. now need to buy paint only. i want paint my room. but what colour nice? thought of warm red. but lyk too "sexy" ryte? hahahah! black would make my room hot. humphs. how ah? T_T pink? too girlish not? scared ah. hahahah! aiyah! still got 2 mths to go before the funiture comes & fasting mth lahh. i'll slowly decide. =) yeah; so after ikea, went to botanic. sis wanted so much to take pics. whose pics if not me & bro? humphs. very the wrong timing! i was damned lazyy & sleepy to dress-upp properly. juz wore a grey shirt & pants. very PLAIN me. lols. all bcoz of watching BOF lahh late nyte on fridae. heheh. =P after botanic, we went giant at turf city. bought groceries. then went sunset way daily scoop. yum2! had the coconut icecream & simply choco. nice2! =DD reached home at bout 9pm. damn tired & sleepy. but instead of sleeping, decided to watched BOF 4th disc. now left the last disc. tonite cannot watch! coz wanna watch harper's island 2 hrs. so i guess perhaps tmrw? humphs. WANI! sorry tau klau returen your disc lambat! heheheh! you know how lonnngg the story is ryte? heheh! =P i'll return it to you latest tues or wed? thanks bnyk2 ehhkk! =) pppuuuuuaaaassssss aku tgk GU JUNPYO aka LEE MIN HO!!! =DD happyy akkuu!!
Labels: boy; its all coz of your charm n charisma. =))
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Friday, July 10, 2009
heys there.. juz got bck from the clinic.. sent granny for full body check-upp. didnt brg my hoody & it was freezing cold! got to endure from 7.30am to 10.30am! meeennnndddaaakkk i tell you! humphs. currently head over heals wit my present blog song! ohh myy ggaawwdd!! LEE MIN HO; YOU'RE SOOO HAAWWWTTT!!!! urgghhh!!! i dont care what others sae bout you!but to me; you're HAAAWWWTTT!!! i repeat ehk; LEE MIN HO IS SOOO HHHHAAAAWWWTTT! i LOVE hys song!!! soooo meaningful lerh! =DD arraso.. arraso.. gotta STOP!!! gotta go too; going out again wit family. this week ROCKS gilerrr!! we went out alot! hehehehe! =P annyong hekaseyo! =))
Labels: sarang-hae lee min ho..
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Aquarius
Emotions
Emotional experiences and dealing with emotions themselves tends to be difficult for the Aquarius. This seemingly emotional detachment is what tends to make the Aquarian appear a bit cold and remote when it comes to deeply emotional experiences. It isn't that Aquarians are unemotional people in general, it just takes them awhile to really let people into their lives. Once they let their guard down, Aquarians are very passionate and loyal people.
Ideals
As stated before, the Aquarius personality is that of a humanitarian. They have a strong desire to serve in philanthropic and charitable endeavors. Their societal beliefs are very idealistic in the sense that they believe that one of their main purposes in life is serving to benefit the greater good of mankind. It's not uncommon to see an Aquarian volunteering at the local homeless shelter or generously donating money to various charities.
Temperament
Aquarians do not like to be boxed-in. If an Aquarian feels like he or she is backed into a corner, the person committing this huge mistake will no doubt be on the receiving end of that Aquarian's temper, which can be explosive. Not only that, the typical Aquarius tends to hold onto bitter feelings and resentments. So, if you cross and Aquarius, don't expect to be welcomed back with opened arms.
Lifestyle
The Aquarian lifestyle is a little on the unconventional side because the Aquarius personality is naturally a bit rebellious and non-conformist. People born under this sign are less than thrilled with the rigidity of typical "nine-to-five" work schedules so they often hold less conventional jobs in which the schedule varies. Better yet, they choose jobs that allow them the freedom to make their own schedules and march to their own drums. Just take a look at the following famous Aquarians and you'll see what we mean.
Oprah Winfrey
Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart
Bob Marley
Charles Darwin
Abraham Lincoln
Sir Francis Bacon
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i feel so "light". so free. so peaceful. no more of that paranoid feeling. it isn't there anymore. it may be good to you. but it isn't for me! I DON'T LIKE IT! i feel as though I've lost something really precious. no. I'm not talking bout that "thing"! =P i'm talking bout feelings. you may think some thing's wrong wit me. i should be sent to IMH. but be in my shoes. feel the wae i feel. go through what I've been through. mix it all upp & put the pieces together. get the pic? huh? still no? arraso. i already knew it was hard to make others believe. they can listen to me but its impossible for them to understand how i feel. towa chuseyo! now i feeling like crying. it really broke my heart. urgh! WHY? WHY? TELL ME WHY? WHY THEM & NOT ME? DAMN YOU! WHATS SO GOOD BOUT THEM?! JUZ BCOZ THEY'RE NEARER, YOU'D RATHER CHOOSE THEM? wth? FAIR? IS THIS FAIR? NO ITS NOT! if only you know that i really meant what i sae. i meant what i do. i'm not fcking joking! urgh! i'd better stop. this is not helping me. vending my anger in my blog would only invite question marks.
Labels: how high am i? the highest on the shelf? cant you see me juz right there?
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Wednesday, July 8, 2009
gu jun pyo's heart... awwww...
that pretty lil necklace there..
lalalala- ystrdae went sim lim square then to marina barrage. kill time while waiting for mum to finish at 9.30pm. took loads of pics.. hahah. nothing else to do. well, it was the 2nd time i went to marina barrage.. cool ahh tat place.. nice for romantic couples. hahah. XP as i walked n walked upp, i saw a beautiful moon. so many stars high upp in the skies. hen piao liangg... suddenly i got reminded of the part when GJP gave the necklace to GJD.. the necklace that symbolises a moon n a star.. n the wae he answered GJD why he moon symbolises her n the star symbolises hym.. gosh... it is reaaaallllllyyyyy swwweeeettttt... omg.. i'm meltinggg... hahahah. =P ystrdae really BRGHTEN UPP MY DAE.. it was such a memorable dae.. somehow.. hehehe.
Labels: i wished you could be my everything...
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Monday, July 6, 2009
this song is DAMN NICE!!! kim joon & kim bum rocks lahh! hahah! =D
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Sunday, July 5, 2009
ystrdae went out wit ros. met kak hid at kopi roti & had breakfast there. chit-chatted & then off kak hid went.. den left me & ros.. we became bored & started calling people ajak go bowling. but nobody's free. so we ended upp going time zone instead. really had FUN!! especially when we both play the dance dance revolution! cool siooott! hahahah! macam joget kat disco! LOLS! XP then at bout 3pm? we bought bubble teas & slowly walked to my house. ros decided to tagg along since nobody at home coz her parents went to cambodia.. so we lepak2.. played xbox.. ate "late lunch" & watched tv.. it was 7.30pm already. dad went to work & ros wanna go home. it was drizzling.. but somehow ended upp ros followed me go market find durians & buy bubble teas for my family. hahah! both of us were wearing hoodies & it was wet! both wanna get fever! lalala- went back home, send the durians & bubble teas & went down back. sent ros to the bus stop at our sch field there. talked & talked & talked. 3 buses missed! hahah! & then the 4th one, i told ros to take.. off she go & time check; 9pm! hahah! went back home, washed upp & started reading again. lucky mum didnt even nag! =DD
Labels: what a FUN dae...
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Friday, July 3, 2009
kak leah's bdae... =)
jump tak menjadi!!!! XD
hehehe! "durian; peace!"
"leah! leah! amek gambar! amek gambar! sinnii!"
satu.. dua.. TIGA!! PLURRKK! awwww! BIRTHDAE BASHH!! =P
almost a reflection? hhahah! NOOO!
all the "adiks" in the familyyyy! =D
semalam went out wit family, nenek, mastura & 3rd aunt. reached ABC market thought wanna have dinner there. ordered drinks & food alread. then suddenly tok man called & ajak go seoul garden at town takashimaya. hurriedly cancelled the orders & off we go to town. abg khairul booked table for 20. giler! on fridaes its first come first serve basis & it was damn crowded! had to wait for 45mins? then in the end, we ended up in desa kartika. all feeling indonesian! XP hahah! 10 of us, the youngster sit one side. then the rest of the 13 senior adults (mums & dads) sit another side. topic kite suer PANAS-PANAS!! yang pat dorg plak GOSSIPS-GOSSIPS! hahaha! kite conquer the restaurant sioottt! ketawe terbahak2 mcm restaurant bapak kite gitu ehkk! org laen tgk; nak makan pun tak tenang! hahahah! lucky tak macam tat time kat swensen sampai kene warning wit the manager to lower down our volume.. at 9pm plus cke sampai... time for kak leah to blow her bdae cake! her 28th bdae.. paling tertua! hahahaha! XP the manager even gave her a gift. YXL brooch ehhk? tink soo... cool ahh.. good service! hmmm.. dahh pukul 10.15pm. kak nana ajak go bowling. but the senior adults ajak go marina barrage duduk2 makan durian... sooo at 10.40pm we reached marina barrage. mastura dah kepenatan, tertido! yang kite2 nie sumer masih ACTIVE! =D so we find a spot, bentang kembes & enjoy the durians! then at 11.30pm we went down at level 1 & walk2. kite2 yang muda2 jekk. heheheh! we took lots of pics together! banyak yg giler2! LOLS! then at 12.30am kite chiowww.... wel, ystdae was supperrrr FUN! had loads of laughs! realli STRESS-FREE! =)) reached home at 1am. washed upp & went to bed. nytes! hahah!
Labels: next event; 25th july ehhkk =DD
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Thursday, July 2, 2009
watching BOF ep 14 again....... urgh! really sad!!! cried all over again! for once again i hate GJP only for this ep! stoopid! stoopid!! hahahah! =P
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Wednesday, July 1, 2009
this whole wek; every single dae i feel down. sad. mad! crazy! sooo tensed! sooo stressed upp! lost. lost. LOST! kept thinking bout things that only existed in my lyfe... there's this feeling whereby i felt lyk crying... cry as much as i need to... loudly & let other hear. but i couldnt. at home, things gets much worse. i couldnt control myself anymore! tears would juz roll down without my knowledge & i would sob as hard as i could. it sounds as if im trying so hard to force myself to cry. but its not... only then; i would either read as much as i could or either surf the net while listening to musics. when i hav the BOF fever all over again, i would listen to the soundtracks. in skol each time that thoughts haunt me, i'll make myself busy by talking craps or crack jokes. sleep & take naps would help alot! it'll bring me to lala-land! stops that thought from lingering into my mind! ohh! slow love songs really soothes me. especially malay songs. membuat jiwa & raga ku tenang. membawa ku ke tempat seindah syurga. waktu itu lah aku terasa hidup ku begitu indah walaupun ianya hanya untuk sesaat. sesaat itu lah yang membahagiakan hari-hari ku ini. memberikan ku semangat untuk meneruskan bab ini & teruskan ke bab yang baru. menghangatkan lagi suasana yang sedang membeku. sesejuk ais. lama kelamaan ais itu akan cair. tetapi akan membeku jugak apabila suasana menjadi sejuk. tetapi sampai bila kah harus ku bertahan lagi? aku sudah tidak terdaya lagi. ingin sekali aku jatuh longlai ke atas bumi ini. apakah harus ku lakukan? berterusan berpura-pura bahawa aku ini seorang yang tabah? seorang yang tidak berperasaan? heartless? feelingless? care-free? tell you what.... I DONT LIVE TO PLEASE THE PEOPLE! urgh! i wished i could xplain very detail how im feeling to my closed ones. but..... i couldnt. i'll go wit the flow..... let it lead me to where ever it wants me to...
shitt ass! i wonder bile dia nak stop sindir2 aku! asyik aku jek yang dia sound! is it soooo "coincidence" that she chose me to answer her questions & then sindi aku? i'm not that bloddy stupid okae! be in my bloody shoes & see how SUCK i feel! see if you lyk it or not... it damn SUCK; let me tell you! BLOODY SUCKS!!! cerite dahhh basi ahh ehhk! nak sindir pun pergi carik facts TERKINI ahh ehhk! UPDATED NEWS.. FREST & HOT from the oven! hish! once i cant take it anymore; i swear! i swear smth will happen. maybe not to you. maybe to me.
Labels: aku mahu hidup denganmu.. aku mahu mati pun kerana mu...
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SHITT ASS! bodohh!! bengap! bahalol! BLOODY @!#$%^%&*$%@&!!!!!!!!!! ahhhhsssssssshhhh!!!! everytink happens STARTING FROM YOU! I CURSE YOU!!! go to HELL!! you'll soon receive a "button" from me! may you have a HARD time huh! do you know how hard my lyfe is now?? how hard am i struggling every single dae? trying to arrange & put things in order.. trying to hav the kind of lyfe i had ages ago... trying so hard..... so hard..... so hard..... that.........
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Quote of the week: "don't ever take things for granted." "don't misuse the advantages given!" "don't trust anybody. anyone. not even your closest ones. not even yourself!"
mondae was FUN. tuesdae SUCKS a lil. wednesdae SUCK the most!!!
Labels: major mood disorder....
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