Wednesday, December 30, 2009
currently alone at home. ;(( yeapp. got back from the trip laz tuesdae nyte. was damned beat & went to bed ryte awae. wednesdae; which was yesterdae... plan was cancelled & it suck! all dad's fault! abeh nk salahkan org! tak betol nye org! so ended upp napping; replenish all my energy back! why am i so tired?? coz i had only 4 hours of sleep there.... shopping spree was one thing... swimming was another && karaoke was next! how superbbb was it?? ;DD me & sis really gave our mind & soul outz! we alreadyy planned not to sleep early so that explains how exhausted we were! humph! wont forget the crazzy2 times when we karaoke-d! hehehehh! kekekkk sungguh! XD the people there were nice & friendly... okae lahh... their style was not far from us & i lyk the shopping spree the bez coz most of the things there were of our taste! humph! so now..... im actually supposed to go outz wit aqilah... thinking of movie; perhaps hort park & watch the sunset?? then you know what?? everybody went out... sis; out wit boyf.. mum outz wit her sisters... dad outz wit bro! & im alone at home! i called dad to ask for permission & he started nagging! one conclusion i came was "dad membebel coz he's thinking that im going to hort park.. wit one fren.. muz be a guy...." & then do what?? you guess yourself lahh ehk! haiyaaa! this old folks ahhhhh! i smaacckkkkk... **** then you know! irritating!! tentu2 mum & dad should know that... one; im single & not available. two; im going out wit A GIRL NAMED NURUL AIN AQILAH BTE NORMAN !!! three; hort park! come on man! think positive! to rest & relax! enjoy the breeze! shitzz i tell you! then you know what?? the bez thing is that.. mum called me & asked whose at home & if im going out... i said nobosy's home n yes but no im not going out already then she asked why? juz go lahh... & i was lyk @$%* !!!! see lah! my parents are aaaaalllllwwwwaaayyysss lyk that!!!! super irritating! tak sehati sejiwa! sometimes i wonder how did couple got married or get long when they are not sehaluan or lyk not going in the same path... haizzzz..... so now the question is that; where should i go ryte now?? or what should i do ryte now??? im bored to death.... ;(((Labels: YOU should know that running awae silently makes things even worse ..
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Saturday, December 26, 2009
heyy there... at LAST !!! tmrw's the dae to ALMOST.... paradise... i dun care; im gonna release myself to the fullest tmrw ! & when im back; im a changed person. insyaallah. humph. actually you know what? im not in the mood to go already... coz smth hppned juz now & im not in the good terms wit mum & dad. especially dad. i hate hym. but i hate myself even more. shit i tell you. lagi2 tmrw onwards suppose to have fun! then this has to hppn! ;(( i was sooo upset wit myself that i ignored everybody in the house & dashed out. go where? lepak kat rc. yeapp; ALONE. then walk around lyk one sesat emo girl! padehal baru jee balek from expo! dad bro & sis went out again to sim lim sq? dun cre lahh. lucky i got home @ 8.45pm & the people didnt nagg! only granny asked were did i go & if i go meet my "boyf" for the last time before i head to batam tmrw! i was lazy to layan & juz nodded. hahah! & you know what? the funny thing i discovered was that 1 week before HE came to sgp i went expo.... & this time... again to expo but 1 week after! ;(( sedihh tgk gmbr2 dier happy wit the other fans @ max pavillion. humphs. wadever lahh. its over alreadyy. gotta move on. ape nk jadi bsk i dun care. gotta make sure i really make use of it to release all the bad toxic in my body & brainwashh. the only person who can help me by doing so would be my crazyy & hyperr sis. hope it goes well. insyaallah. ;)to naq; what do you think?? hahhh! ape2 skol reopens ehk?? ;))kat sini nanti ade org yg kepo! ehemm!!!
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Thursday, December 24, 2009
Is there still somebody who still believes in love?
I know you're out there..
There's gotta be somebody...
I search around the world;
But i cant seem to find somebody to love....by now you should have guessed why didnt i update the past few daes.. yeap; busy spending time wit family.. but there's another reason to it... i wont tell you.. guess yourself! ive given upp hoping for smth that is never gonna happen! i feel so foolishly stupid by waiting & waiting for smth lyk this! its damn obvious but i keep on denying... what's the use? waste of my time! haiz... juz waiting... left 2 daes.... great! gonna enjoy myself to the fullest wit beloved family! ;))Labels: sometimes i feel that im not appreciated ...
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Monday, December 21, 2009
I felt him leave.. It hit me hard, like a blow to the stomach; Unexpected. I felt it when my mind began slipping away each memory like a sieve... Painfully Squeezing away each thought Into forgotten space.. My soul screamed in agony, not wanting to let go... But the human memory is unfair... Unforgiving... So there I sat; trying to relieve Long Gone Past; Trying to get a Grasp at it. Forcing away tears, I realized, Let it rest in Peace... Maybe;I will too.....Labels: do you how am i feeling ryte now?
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Sunday, December 20, 2009
humph. FPO babes & dudes? this 24th? i'll see if i can make it... rase malas pun ade! gonna be busy on mondae to wednesday.. lucky this nisa picked thursdae! its my empty slot? should be larh... haiz... currently not in the mood to think bout these things... my mind's too occupied! idk why... ;(( need to go out badly... but not in the mood! you get that feeling? nvm larhh.... im going crazyy! i dun even know what im talking bout! should go brainwashh myself again.....Labels: you're testing my endurance .... pogo shimneyo ;((
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Friday, December 18, 2009
todae was chaotic; went out wit lil cuzzies. bechok sungguh all of my cuzzies! cant keep quiet juz for a min! granny kept nagging bout their noise level. hahahh! biase lah bdk membesar. XD haiz. found out that YOUR account was frozen?? what hppned?? ternyata btol kan what my instinct tell me?? you're the one who didnt came online. hahah! its okae. you've got your own things to do too. but hope you'll get online soon & we can chat again! ;))
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Thursday, December 17, 2009
hello ;)) yesterdae was... havoc... but at the very end; things turn out great! ;DD & thanks aqilah & wan for the company! hehehh! the ego couple people. dier kate dier; dier kate dier. never ending! XD im glad that things are fine now & we're continuing this friendship. im going out todae. im not sure what time im gonna be on9... tonight also got crite hantu raye @ 10pm. wanna watch! to YOU; if im still not on9 by 11pm... then juz switch off... skali it turns out you're the one who didnt go on9! hahah! ;PP see you when i see you! bye!
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idk why im here again. but juz heard that there's a new tagg? wookeyy. first thing's first. i wanna know... what did you see that made you "panicked" ?? bout my post saying we share a blog?? you know; since i gotta know you... my first intention: to be friends wit you. at least know MORE bout each other. coz you dun have a facebook account. nor friendster. or whatever else there is. so i thought sharing a blog would be okae! & when you said this would be the last you'd tagg & you think you've gone too FAR... i thought you didnt want to at least be frens wit me! so my BIG qn ryte now is what do you want? leave my lyfe forever; which means no more tagging & viewing my blogg. or continue as frens?? you know you as so mysterious that i only know your name, age, school & you have 2 bros & 1 sis... cyber-friend huh?? be in my position & tell me; wont you go.... "who is this person?? really?? where did he come from?? etc2..." dun apply it only for that four letter word.. apply it even as in friend-to-friend situation?? tak kan tak rase mcm ni?? y panick so easily without confirming wit me the truth?? Labels: you panicked... i got the wrong idea....
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wont be posting daily stuffs any soon. got some things to be settled. soul searching i guess? coz it seemed that you've already hurt me by doing this so. if you know this would have happen, you shouldnt have came into my lyfe! hmph. will be back only when everything changes. bye.
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Wednesday, December 16, 2009
heyya! hmph.had been busyy the past few daes. if not housework, its making decisions. yeapp! DECISIONS. you know how much i hate making decisions kan? haiz. mum left me alone deciding where should we go for vacation. only when ive confirm everythink then let her book the ferry tickets & the rest. kire im doing the researches... phone calls.. confirmations... tsk3! sejak bile ehk i start this job?? hahhah! XD its tough for me when everybody already agreed on langkawi. i confirmed everythink already & you know what happened in the end? nope; not cancelled! this itchy sis of mine baru nak cakap pegi mane? batam? i burst into laughters at first (its not funny but idk why i did so) but after finding out bout the place; ehh not bad jgk uh! hahhah! especially the 4 stars beach resorts & the shopping malls! the malls is lyk sgp! robinsons.. giordano.. breaktalk.. pizzahut.. dunkin donuts; etc! hehehh! & i purposely chose resorts not hotels coz ive been wanting to chill-out. the relaxing type of trips you know.... GREEN-ish atmosphere.... the windy beach... jacuzzi pools... "sun-tanning"... but my sis is only upp for the shopping spree! T_T boringg sungguh lahh kakak aku yg satu ni! tak tau nak rehat sungguh! hmph! i juz hope everythink goes well & we're all able to go on the 27th! ;DD Labels: geez; you make me go crazy do you know that ??
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Thursday, December 10, 2009
weezzziiiittt!! lols. pssttt! you know what?? i miss AQILAH. HERWAN. the BANUs. IKA. & those whom i've lonnggg met! ;((( feel lyk wanting to hug them ALL! lols. tmrw got class bbq! looking forward to it! ;DD
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Sunday, December 6, 2009
heyheyheyy! ehh; babes & dudes!! wassupp?? wassupp? AS IN WADS GOING ON ryte now?? wads wit two fellows trying to side that girl & finding faults wit my babes at where? huh? BLOGG?? weeiiiiii! kan aku dahh cakap! blog ni sumer tak maen lah ehhkk! kau tak happi dgn kwn aku kau go straight to her lahh. kau terus hang dia & sepak ke tumbuk ke pecahkan muke dia skali kan senang?? ni tidakk... maen ape?? TAGGING?? cheyywah! mentang2 dahh canggih.. dah tak payah kuatkan semangat untuk kluar dan berdepan dgn musuh kite... juz by TAGGING is ENOUGH kan? tak cukup courage pun tkpe kan? ehh, ape aku type nii kau blh phm tak? klau tak.. kau beli dictionary yang ber-label "dee's dictations ONLY" pas tuu kau pandai2 translate kae?? ohh ape? aku mepek?? yeapp2. aku memang mepek. tapi org yg nk carik psl; tapi takut berdepan tuu LAGI MEPEK. kau tahu tak? tsk3! ohh, btw i was saying.... knape tak belasah jee si muke naqie? ika? humph. aku rase klau kau belasah jee kan, cukup untuk vent out ALL your anger! ape? tak cukup? kau BUNUH jee dorang! PUAS HATI. finish story kan? FULL STOP. THE END. ohh wait2! WAD? KAU PENGECUT? MCM THAT GIRL? aku ade suruh pmpn tuu sepak aku jee klau nak.. tapi sampai skrg tkde ape2 pun.. haiz! kecut betol ye?? tsk3. heyy! kau ingat nii.... BERANI KERANA BENAR. TAKUT KERANA SALAH. aku tak tahu knape aku type sentence tuu tapi aku rase this is VERY STRONG & POWERFUL. VERY USEFUL. try applying it to yourself aites? aku tak tahu sape you dua... aku tknk tuduh menuduh... tak baek katekan.. aku cuma nak cakap... perkara blh diselesaikan dgn baek2. slow talk. bermaaf-maafan. tapi klau tuan empunya yg berhati keras & suke menyimpan dendam sampai bertahun-tahun lamanye... wad else can i do?? me & i bet my babes were willingly to juz forget bout it & move on happily tapi kau yg start hal lagi... so kite takde hal... since kau nak ikutkan perasaan sangat kan? kau hidup lahh sorang2! ohhya! wit hu? 'dimples' & 'trustworthy' ?? hah. yelahh. ohh btw, to these two chaps kan.... aku nk blg kau bende... aku nak kau TANYE sii pmpn tuu THE WHOLE STORY. nope2. yg psl kisah lama2 tuu kau tak perlu tahu. kau tanye dgn dia.... apa yg terjadi bile aku dahh forgive her & tried to help her be okae wit naqie & ika; wad hppned nxt & why did she post THAT post bout people who think they're PERFECT when they're not?? hah. smth lyk that lahh. you go ask. dont be foolish lyk those who lived in zaman kuno & throw death penalty to the INNOCENT okae?? LOOK AT THE BIG PICTURE blh tak?? jgn jadi mcm sii katak di bwh tempurung! juz STOP wasting your time spamming their blog lahh plz. tak gune! buang mase! kau pegi ambik buku blaja for next yr pun cantik uh ehkk! aku pun nak chiao nii; blaja for O LEVELS NEXT YEAR. & NOT TO FORGET SEMBAHYANG! ;PPPPP hahahahahhhhh!Labels: go meet the pyschiatrist okaee...
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Friday, December 4, 2009
guess i'll have to let this go. all of a sudden family started planning for an outing. to where? melaka? sunway lagoon? where? duno lahh. wasnt interested to know further details when i heard the date 21st december! felt so CRUSHED. T_T why of ALL dates; they chose 21st???? SWAYY i tell you. one side of me was feeling CRUSHED & FRUSTRATED. the other side was lyk "enough dee. meditate. brainwashh tonight. take it as if you didnt know he is coming again. go back to where you were. in REALITY. get out! GET OUT of the fantasyy world. lyk naq & aqilah said its not worth it. you spend so mch juz to SEE hym LIVE for 90 mins! its juz the same as watching a movie! might as well you go watch NEW MOON wit babes & dudes!" im trying real hard to listen to this positive side & continue lyfe as before. i cant stand the pain. the pain i had the last two months. who do i have to blame? hym? that show? myself? idk. haiz. going crazyy. insane. ayyshh. need to admit myself to woodbridge soon. become lyk emily gan; not saloma. (off centre) i need to prioritise things asap!! cant let myself be lyk this till when? till o levels are near? its dangerous. i know. ohh god. plz guide me to the ryte paths in lyfe. plz make me strong to undergo all of your test & challenges you give me. dont let me give in to all my indulgence. its smth i want NOT smth i need. therefore i must hold on. i must. no matter how shit am i going to go thru.... i'll gain smth in the end; perseverance. gonna try. dont care whether its 21st that family had planned. should use that dae to the fullest & enjoyy the trip. even if its only malaysia? o.0 fine then. let the mosquitos be in paradise sucking my blood! Labels: calm down. meditate. relax.
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Thursday, December 3, 2009
ohh god! plz help me! THIS TIME I REALLY NEED IT! PLZZZZZZ!!!!!!!!!!! ON the 21st DECEMBER he's coming back to sgp @ max pavillion singapore expo !!!!!!!!! AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH!!! I WANT TO GO BADLYYY!!!! plzzzzzzzzz!!!!!!!!! THE TICKET IS SOOOO EXPENSIVE!!!!!! HOW AM I GONNA GET THE MONEY?? HOW??? HOW??? I'D RATHER NOT GO FOR WALI BAND CONCERT & GO FOR THIS!!! AAAAHHHH!!! SHALL I FIND A JOB NOW?? JUZ FOR $188?? NO! MAKE IT $200! HOW?? WHAT SHOULD I DO????? WHAT????????? SHITZ. I HATE IT! WHY NOW?? WHY??? NOBODY UNDERSTANDS HOW FREAK I AM. HOW FANATIC I AM OVER HYM. SAY LAHH WADEVER YOU WANT. I JUZ DONT GIVE A DAMN!! ALL I NOE IS THAT I WANNA MEET HYM BADLYY!!! OKAE? BLAME HYM FOR MAKING ME BECOMING CRAZY AGAIN!! I WAS DONE & OVER WIT IT ONCE & THEN THIS HAPPENED AGAIN. I HATE IT. BUT I LOVE IT. CRAZY. HELL YEAH I AM CRAZY. SHALL ADMIT MYSELF TO WOOD BRIDGE SOON!Labels: PLZ GOD; CURE MY SICKNESS
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Wednesday, December 2, 2009
love the song you're listening to in my bloggie ! ;)) it got 28 songs. (part 2) the first part got 23 songs. nice also; available on my playlist. the adios 2008 mashup special also not bad! enjoyyyy yeah? ;DDDLabels: ohh; thanks MASAMIXES
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Tuesday, December 1, 2009
heyheyy. MY FACE & EYE BALLS ARE ALL RED !!! all bcoz of swimming. hehehh. my bad! ;PP had a REALLY GREAT TIME WIT GFs todae! did lotsa stoopid things! then chiao-ed to jp for lunch @ bout 2.30pm? met aqilah there. she accompanied us eat at the banquet. ate bimbab wad? forgot lahh. but its a korean mixed rice pot. yumyum. then khalil came. met yani. hmph. eat2. talk2. then suddenly saw someone familiar! "ehh, that one is your auntie? NOOO! your mum ryte??" think it was ila who said that to nisa. all of us were shocked & stared at her mum who was queuing at the western stall; juz beside our seats! all of us was SHOCKED! imagine all of our SHOCKED faces! coz you know why?? coz that clever nisa told her mum she was going to skol for a meeting? lol. great! all of us were kinda scared for her; who knows wad might happen nxt ryte... perhaps her mum would shout ryte into her face? but she didnt! she said "nice uh? hah, eat2! very nice ryte..." but it was sarcastic though... that girl can still chillex & ctinued eating lyk nobody's business! she wasnt even scared wad would be consequences at home might be. i solute you lahh nisa! hahahhh! you know; i SUCK at giving excuses! i can give... but not that powerful! lols. XD then we juz left the banquet & walked around. nisa met her dad? got money from hym. happy lahh she! ;)) then went bck at 4pm? took train to bb & met dad & bro at posb bank. nisa & ila went wm. tagged along to lavender? dad finding for new rims & tyres? wadever lahh. i dun need to know so i dozed off in the car while the went into the shop. then fetch mum at 6pm? we headed to toa payoh mall aka hub. walk2. then chiaoz to turf city giant. bought groceries. got home at 9pm & had to keep all of the groceries to respective places. watched tv. EXTREMELY EXHAUSTED. dad & bro got home at 10.15pm along wit sis; from her work. dad asking for smth (food) that is not available in the house. how am i supposed to get that?? in the middle of the nyte?? then when this thing happens; who is responsible?? ME! yeah ryte... fcuk it! you know wad he said?? "you have to respect your parents you know. serve them food, iron their uniforms, etc. if can you shall feed them food as well. so that means you have to feed me. that is called respect!" i was lyk FCUK! who did you married to again? ME? or my MUM?? im EXTREMELY EXHAUSTED okae? mind that. jgn nk asyik ckp "yelahh, dlm rumah ni yana je lah yg blh harap! yg laen sumer pemalas!" yeah damn ryte! you know it bout you keep asking me to do this & that! you have the will to shout & order the other two of them; why didnt you?? why ME? shitt i tell you. its 2009 okae; NOT 1960s mind you! those type of daughters......... it doesnt exist anymore! i dun even want to be that kind of daughter! i dun fcuking think that is my job to do so. you have to choose; send to me to school to study or to stay at home & serve you?? no need talk bout the other things i do in skol; slacking, frens & cca etc. itu sudah tentu will exist. ;PP fine lahh. no mood to write longggg2 alreadyy. bye.Labels: sometimes i juz feel that its TOO MUCH.
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