this whole wek; every single dae i feel down. sad. mad! crazy! sooo tensed! sooo stressed upp! lost. lost. LOST! kept thinking bout things that only existed in my lyfe... there's this feeling whereby i felt lyk crying... cry as much as i need to... loudly & let other hear. but i couldnt. at home, things gets much worse. i couldnt control myself anymore! tears would juz roll down without my knowledge & i would sob as hard as i could. it sounds as if im trying so hard to force myself to cry. but its not... only then; i would either read as much as i could or either surf the net while listening to musics. when i hav the BOF fever all over again, i would listen to the soundtracks. in skol each time that thoughts haunt me, i'll make myself busy by talking craps or crack jokes. sleep & take naps would help alot! it'll bring me to lala-land! stops that thought from lingering into my mind! ohh! slow love songs really soothes me. especially malay songs. membuat jiwa & raga ku tenang. membawa ku ke tempat seindah syurga. waktu itu lah aku terasa hidup ku begitu indah walaupun ianya hanya untuk sesaat. sesaat itu lah yang membahagiakan hari-hari ku ini. memberikan ku semangat untuk meneruskan bab ini & teruskan ke bab yang baru. menghangatkan lagi suasana yang sedang membeku. sesejuk ais. lama kelamaan ais itu akan cair. tetapi akan membeku jugak apabila suasana menjadi sejuk. tetapi sampai bila kah harus ku bertahan lagi? aku sudah tidak terdaya lagi. ingin sekali aku jatuh longlai ke atas bumi ini. apakah harus ku lakukan? berterusan berpura-pura bahawa aku ini seorang yang tabah? seorang yang tidak berperasaan? heartless? feelingless? care-free? tell you what.... I DONT LIVE TO PLEASE THE PEOPLE! urgh! i wished i could xplain very detail how im feeling to my closed ones. but..... i couldnt. i'll go wit the flow..... let it lead me to where ever it wants me to...

shitt ass! i wonder bile dia nak stop sindir2 aku! asyik aku jek yang dia sound! is it soooo "coincidence" that she chose me to answer her questions & then sindi aku? i'm not that bloddy stupid okae! be in my bloody shoes & see how SUCK i feel! see if you lyk it or not... it damn SUCK; let me tell you! BLOODY SUCKS!!! cerite dahhh basi ahh ehhk! nak sindir pun pergi carik facts TERKINI ahh ehhk! UPDATED NEWS.. FREST & HOT from the oven! hish! once i cant take it anymore; i swear! i swear smth will happen. maybe not to you. maybe to me.

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Dee♥,

A simple girl called Dee.
Hates decisions & getting bored.
Hates JERKS!
Juz dont understand guys.
Loves Bossanova & Indies.
Loves Reading & movies.
A simple girl will alwaes be simple.
Just like studying a literature book!
Either you understand it; NOT.
Simple isnt it? ;)

ohh! && i love my boyf!! =D

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