guess i'll have to let this go. all of a sudden family started planning for an outing. to where? melaka? sunway lagoon? where? duno lahh. wasnt interested to know further details when i heard the date 21st december! felt so CRUSHED. T_T why of ALL dates; they chose 21st???? SWAYY i tell you. one side of me was feeling CRUSHED & FRUSTRATED. the other side was lyk "enough dee. meditate. brainwashh tonight. take it as if you didnt know he is coming again. go back to where you were. in REALITY. get out! GET OUT of the fantasyy world. lyk naq & aqilah said its not worth it. you spend so mch juz to SEE hym LIVE for 90 mins! its juz the same as watching a movie! might as well you go watch NEW MOON wit babes & dudes!" im trying real hard to listen to this positive side & continue lyfe as before. i cant stand the pain. the pain i had the last two months. who do i have to blame? hym? that show? myself? idk. haiz. going crazyy. insane. ayyshh. need to admit myself to woodbridge soon. become lyk emily gan; not saloma. (off centre) i need to prioritise things asap!! cant let myself be lyk this till when? till o levels are near? its dangerous. i know. ohh god. plz guide me to the ryte paths in lyfe. plz make me strong to undergo all of your test & challenges you give me. dont let me give in to all my indulgence. its smth i want NOT smth i need. therefore i must hold on. i must. no matter how shit am i going to go thru.... i'll gain smth in the end; perseverance. gonna try. dont care whether its 21st that family had planned. should use that dae to the fullest & enjoyy the trip. even if its only malaysia? o.0 fine then. let the mosquitos be in paradise sucking my blood!

Labels: calm down. meditate. relax.

Dee♥,

A simple girl called Dee.
Hates decisions & getting bored.
Hates JERKS!
Juz dont understand guys.
Loves Bossanova & Indies.
Loves Reading & movies.
A simple girl will alwaes be simple.
Just like studying a literature book!
Either you understand it; NOT.
Simple isnt it? ;)

ohh! && i love my boyf!! =D

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