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Tuesday, February 9, 2010

alryte; im not gonna care bout whether i constantly use english in this post coz im juz gonna let everythink out.... i feel soooo.... different! as thought as there's another soul controlling everythink that i've been doing. i duno why i became so 'SUFFOCATED', having to bottle upp everythink when i usually tell AT LEAST 1 of them how i really felt... but these daes... idk! is it bout trust issues? or is it bout them; trying to distant themselves from me? or it it JUZ my negative cells trying to make things complicated?? or is it... i want to share; but idk whats the ryte phrases to use & collaborate them into a nice piece of sentence that could actually express the way i REALLY feel! i remembered the first few weeks skol started my lyfe juz fine! sempurna but sederhana! tak phm diam! its juz the wayy i liked it! but... how did i end upp myself in this position? what? when? how? & the main thing is WHY??? whats my BIG PROB ryte now?? JEALOUSY?? TRUST? damn it. i really hate the thoughts im having ryte now! the flashbacks i have ryte here in my brain.... feel lyk wanting to juz time a bomb & explode this COMPLICATED brain! whats the purpose of making me think bout things that are unnecessary & only makes things WORSE? wouldnt it be GREAT if you could make me good in thinking how to solve a difficult maths problem sums or scientific questions?? yeah2... next thing you're gonna say is "dah bgs kau ade ......(blablabla) rather then you dun have ......(blablabla) ! urghhhhh!!! LYFE's SOOOOOOOO UNFAIR & COMPLICATED! plz dun talk to me bout 'ade hikmah di sebalik ini semua' coz im fcking SICK & TIRED LISTENING TO THE SAME OLD LINE OVER & OVER AGAIN !!!

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