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Sunday, June 13, 2010

heyy there! im bacccckkkkk! such a tiringggg trip. but alot of fun eventhough we had many unplanned trips to like desaru & nek lang's house in taman austin. hmph. lazzyy to jot down everythink we did. so basically we got home yesterdae nyte. im kinda feeling stressed out now. coz it seems that mum & dad had been planning ahead for me. for my future..... just in case i cant get thru to polytechnic. ;(( you see.... i wasnt even thinking bout it! suddenly over dinner... at desaru... dad asked me what would happen if i cant go to poly? i said jokingly; perhaps ITE. woah. i myself couldnt believe that i actually said that! mum, dad, sis & aunt all asked me that i should try MDIS or whatnot to retake private O's if not going to sec 5. then maybe go private poly. i mean.... woahhh! i didnt even think bout that!!!! how SHOCKED I WAS... i was SPEECHLESS! i started to panic. i dun wanna burden my mum. dun wanna waste my time. i dun wanna embarrass myself. then again, aunt added... that after my O's, her fren aunty fiza had already booked me a place in the sub court as a clerk during the holidaes. & the best thing is that dad agreed ryte awae! i was like.... gosssshhhh! whats with the people talking bout my future? when i dun even noe what i want to do... i mean.... im not given the chance to make decisions at all! geeeezzzzzz.... this is too scary for me! ohh god! please help me... ;((

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