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Thursday, July 1, 2010

woahh. today was FULL of surprises. & SERIOUSLY, i love surprises! but its juz that i dont know how to deal wit it. how to react to it & everythink. i can only go SPEECHLESS. but ending it wit a polite thank you. i appreciate what ppl do for me. i hope they wont think i dont like it or anythink. i feel awkward. hehh! i thank you mum & dad for the $$$! ;DD i was excited to spend the $$$ but without hesitation i handed the $$$ back to mum & asked her to keep it in my bank instead. i, myself was shocked... but i think its the best. for my future. ;) you cant predict when it'll rain rights? hmphs. ive got alot of surprises from random ppl. what day is it? LOL. haiyyaaaa! truthfully, im pressurized right now. SERIOUSLY. ive been thinking alot lately. mostly bout studies & responsibilities. i was feeling shitty again. listened to sad songs. i know it shld be e other way round but thats what i alwaes do. ;( until now i still cant find the answers to my questions. god kept me waiting. & waiting. & waiting. i wish one day i can juz break down & cry. but i cant. everytime i try, nth comes out. i feel numb. i dont know why. the funny thing is that, when i dont ask for it, i can juz cry like mad without any valid reason. crazzy me. =S im having this CRAZZY IDEA right now. not sure whether im really gonna do it or not. BUT my mind is urging me to wake upp at 4am & go for a jog. get home by 5am. relax. then at 6.45am get readyy to school. i sooo need my jog to release all my tension! but how bout a good night sleep instead? hmphs. see how, see if i can wake upp later. hehh. ;PP

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